I've been watchin' you for some time
Can't stop starin' at those ocean eyes
KCRW,
and worldwide at KCRW.com.
It's Billie Eilish and her "Ocean Eyes."
Can't stop staring at...
You guys are on the radio on KCRW, the coolest radio ever.
I've never fallen from quite this high
-Fallin' into your ocean eyes -Yeah.
Those ocean eyes
That's Billie!
Billie. I couldn't get any tickets for your concert, but I'm here.
Billie!
-I love you so much. -Thank you.
Careful with her.
-I love you. -I love you, Billie!
Billie, I love you!
The games you played were never fun
You'd say you'd stay But then you'd run
Giving you what you're begging for Giving you what you say I need
I don't want any settled scores I just want you to set me free
Giving you what you're begging for Giving you what you say I need
Say I need
I'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure
You're all I need?
Forget about it
When you walk out the door And leave me torn
You're teaching me to live without it
Bored
I'm so bored
So bored
I'm home alone You're God-knows-where
I hope you don't think That shit's fair
Giving you all you want and more
Giving you every piece of me
I don't want love I can't afford
I just want you to love for free
Can't you see that I'm getting bored?
-Giving you -Every piece of me
Piece of me
I'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure you're all I need?
Forget about it
When you walk out the door
And leave me torn
You're teaching me
I'm so bored
Say I need
Settled scores Set me free
Begging for
Say I need
I'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure
You're all I need?
Forget about it
When you walk out the door And leave me torn
You're teaching me to live without it
You guys are all so beautiful.
Someone's hurt.
-Someone-- Hey, hey, hey. -Someone's hurt.
-Someone's turnt.
Guys, make room. Make room.
-Billie! -Billie!
That's my sister!
Okay, she's okay. She's okay.
Are you guys okay?
Yeah!
Hey, you guys need to be fucking okay,
'cause y'all are the reason I'm okay, okay?
I'd look into the crowd and I see all these faces.
So many different feelings and heartbreak.
And every single person in there,
you know, is going through something good or bad, or horrible or amazing, you know?
And the least I can do is...
make art that I make because I have the same problems.
I don't think of them as fans... ever.
They're not my fans. They're, like, part of me.
My family's the reason I'm the way I am.
You played a duet. Your first duet.
-What? -A duet.
For some people, it's where they grow up that made them who they are.
Where they went to school, who they hung out with.
And for me, it was completely my mom and my dad and my brother and my dog.
My mom taught me how to write songs.
My dad taught me how to play the piano and the ukulele.
And I would do, like, talent shows when I was little,
and my dad would play ukulele for me or my mom would play guitar.
My brother would sing harmony.
It was always like that.
Our family was just one big fucking song.
And I still make music in my brother's bedroom.
Said out loud
-Nice. -Said out loud
-That sounds good. -Go. Go.
Come here
Probably something that shouldn't be
Said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be
Dead by now
Probably something That shouldn't be...
I wanna end me
That's dope.
What do you want from me?
Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering?
What do you know?
-Why aren't you scared of me? -I'm so proud of that one.
Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep Where do we go?
-That's cool, right? -Genius.
This is what I want the album to be called.
"When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?"
I actually drew this song.
This is the drawing of this song
'cause the whole song is about, like, monsters under your bed.
In the future, I'm gonna do stuff with wings.
And I also wanna do something where I drink black liquid
and then my eyes turn black, and then I start bleeding black out of my eyes.
This is a self-portrait.
This is some dick, some weird doll.
This is a foot.
There's some drips, and you can decide whatever the drips are.
There's some bitch. There's a hairy vagina.
There, a-- a dick.
-...'cause I don't know -That's cool.
I can't say no
-I can't say no -I can't say no
Boom, step on the glass
Staple your tongue
What can we-- Can we wrap it back into the bad dream thing?
-Just something to wrap that all in. -What if it's, like, sleep paralysis?
My limbs all froze And can't feel my toes
"Can't feel my toes" is not cool enough.
-No, it's not. -But, like--
My limbs all froze...
and my eyes won't close.
That's actually cool.
Your-- You think "my eyes won't" or "my eyes can't"? Like--
"Won't" is way cooler.
Okay.
The debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
'Cause I can't say no No, I can't say no
My limbs all froze And my eyes won't close
I can't say no, I can't say no
Step on the glass
Staple your tongue
Bop! Bop!
Keep going.
Wait. No, no.
No, no, no.
Actually, let's just do that-- Let's do that, like, 17 times.
So this is not the first shot,
but this is the angle that I want once it zooms out--
-is not fully to the side. -What are you doing right now?
Shut up!
And not to the front,
-just, like... so that that... -Pepper, uh-uh.
...the chair leg, that's, like, in the middle.
-So I want it to start... -Where's that cat?
...with nothing in the background--
-Give her a gold star. -With nothing in the background
except...
...except the white cyc
-and the white table. -Oh, yeah.
There's a dead rat over there.
So this is the first shot of just the glass.
Zooms out, keeping the glass in the center,
and I'm looking at the glass.
Once it gets to this point, then I will take a drink.
Start drinking it.
I don't know if I want it to stay here while I drink it until I put it down
and then come up to me, or if while I'm drinking it--
Wait, keep drinking it.
I don't know yet if I want it.
'Cause I don't know if I... or-- want it to stay diagonal.
'Cause I don't know if I want it to...
What the fuck am I saying?
I don't know if I want to see...
Here's-- Okay, wait. I've decided.
It's gonna be here.
Once I start drinking, and I've been drinking for a second,
it's gonna come, stay with this leg
exactly even in the middle
and exactly even to the leg the opposite way.
Come so that my face is in the middle.
I think I'll probably grab the glass with my left hand
so that the shot is-- make--
Thank you, Mom.
...makes more sense.
And then you'll see that the black goo is disappearing
'cause I'm drinking all of it.
Then put it down.
And then I'm just gonna look into the camera,
and then it'll stay exactly there.
Don't zoom!
Don't do anything like these bozo fucking filmmakers do
when they try to have it not be boring.
-You are working with a great director. -Shut the fuck up.
-He'll have genius. -Okay, I'm sure, but I--
I'm telling you don't be an idiot.
-Stay here. -Billie.
And don't move the stupid camera,
and then as I look into the camera, the black will drip from me eyes.
Okay, same deal.
How's that one feel?
-It's pretty good. -Pretty good?
You're a fucking trouper for agreeing to this.
It is my idea.
Some things can't be unseen.
Is that one yours or mine?
-I can't... -Push.
-This makes my Tourette's insane. -I say we go for it.
'Cause it's, like, in my eye where my Tourette's live.
This one's mine.
All right, ready?
-And... -Can you look up just a bit?
-There it is. -There it is.
Here we go.
Oh, put it down. Slowly.
Go.
Let's go again. All right, cut, cut, cut.
Reset it. We'll try it again.
Cut. Cut, cut, cut, cut.
Cameras rolling.
I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do.
Keep an eye for when you're setting the glass down,
-'cause I think we lost your hand a bit-- -Do what?
When you drop it, after you drink it, and you're placing it back on the thing,
just look at the motion of the camera,
'cause I think you might have to make it a little slower.
Yeah, I don't know when I'm supposed to do that.
So if you could shout it out that would be great.
You want me to say, like, "Glass down"?
-Yeah. -"Down," or something like that?
Or "Start bringing the glass down," and I'll just do it slower.
Okay. Cool.
Oh, that's great.
Cut. Yeah.
For the next, rest of the videos, I'm directing them all myself.
What?
Record this.
Record this. Oh.
Oh, my God.
We have to have the first track of the album just be that.
All right. I've taken my teeth out. Let's make an album.
I've taken my teeth out.
My Invisalign has...
-I have taken out my Invisalign... -I have taken out my Invisalign.
...and this is the album.
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
-Sleepin', you're on your tippy-toes -Sleepin', you're on your tippy-toes
-Creepin' around like no one knows -Creepin'
My little criminal
Or, like...
What if it's like: Think you're such a criminal
Like he thinks he's bad, and he's not even.
We could even-- I don't know about this,
but I just remembered that song "bad guy."
This could be that song. I'm just saying, like--
I'm just coming up with random things.
It could be like, "You think you're such a bad guy,"
and then the hook thing could be, like, "But I'm the bad guy."
Right? I don't know if that's right for this one.
I like that.
"Blocking an intersection during rush hour traffic is not permitted:
unless you entered the intersection on a green light.
Under any circumstances even if your light is green.
Unless you have the right-of-way or green light"--
-It's under any-- -I tuned out on that one.
Under any circumstances.
Because you can't-- If you--
If there's traffic and it's stopped, you can't enter the intersection.
That blocks everything. That's illegal.
"Under"-- Yeah, so no.
It's called don't block the box.
Yes. Correct.
That's what they say in New York. Don't block the box.
That's about a vagina.
Billie passed her permit test.
Look at that.
Billie passed her test.
She can drive now. Well, she can take lessons.
I've always wanted to drive.
I just, like, love cars.
Of course, my mom has a van,
and my dad has a fucking Mazda.
And Finneas has a Honda Fit,
so I'm just, like, drowning in losers.
Oh, my gosh.
All I want is a matte black Dodge Challenger.
Won't let you take it back And only if you say...
Wish I couldn't hear you saying that, or...
Don't do any...
Say you were...
-Dope. -You didn't mean to say it
Don't do any-- Don't you think--
Won't you come and take it back?
Maybe won't you take it back?
Say you were trying to make me laugh
And nothin' has to change today
You didn't mean to say I love you
And I love you
Some crazy harmonies on the oo's, right?
Already have 'em.
-I can love you -I love you
Like, half-note harmonies. Sick.
-Oh, yeah. -Beautiful.
It's so pretty.
It reminds me of that wonderful Duncan Sheik song that we loved so well...
-There we go. There it is. -...but a completely different song.
-So beautiful. -No, it has this incredible--
People who don't write songs are always reminded of songs from other songs.
No, it's not like it sounds like something.
He's just saying it gives him the same beautiful feeling.
Thanks.
-Beautiful. -That was great.
-That was fun to write. -It's a good start.
-Love that. -Yeah.
Don't ask questions You don't wanna know
Learned my lesson way too long ago
To be talkin' to you, belladonna
Should've taken a break Not an Oxford comma
Take what I want when I wanna
And I want ya
Bad, bad news One of us is gonna lose
I'm the powder, you're the fuse
Just add some friction
You are my strange addiction
Doctor can't explain My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
It's a corny beat, but--
It's kinda cute though.
I think we should try to finish a song,
and go, like--
Give us notes, give us feedback. Let's get this one done.
-Got it. -And then
still keep circling around with other stuff.
Don't focus exclusively on anything, just whatever you guys want.
If they're all moving towards something...
I like what Justin was saying though.
What'd you say?
-What? -I like what Justin's saying.
-What's Justin saying? -No pressure.
-No pressure? -Yeah, of course.
There really is no pressure.
All I'm saying is that if we wanna put anything out,
we should just finish whatever that is.
If that's "Crown," we'll put that out.
-You know-- Do you hear that at all? -Yep.
If we focus on something, we can finish it, as opposed to, like,
doing a little bit of it and jumping to another thing,
and doing a bit of it and jumping to another thing.
That's all I'm saying.
So "7," "i love you"
and we have to finish "all the good girls go to hell."
It's actually so close, you know what I mean?
-Yeah. -Once we get the things right--
"My strange addiction" is sounding, uh, good!
I feel like if I heard that, I'd be like, "This is gonna be a hit," you know?
Absolutely.
Somebody was thinking that in that meeting.
-I think everyone was thinking that. -Why didn't they say anything?
Why didn't they clap?
All the good girls
All the good girls go to hell
'Cause even God herself has enemies
And once the water starts to rise
And heaven's out of sight
She'll want the devil on her team
-Sounds great. -Sounds pretty horrible.
I think it sounds kinda awesome.
It's pretty bad.
I hate that
we have to have this album done by December.
The day before my birthday. I hate that.
We have to have it mastered the day before your birthday.
-We'll have it done weeks before that. -No, we won't.
-Yeah. -No, we won't.
We said we'd have it done before this tour.
Well, we have a deadline now, and we have an album release,
so we'll have it done.
But we won't have it done if we don't do it, so that's why we're doing it.
But it sounds bad!
And I sound horrible, and I can't sound good 'cause I'm not good.
-You're very good. -No, I'm not.
Lots of people would agree with me that you're very good.
Gold chain beneath your shirt
The shirt that you let me wear home
Gold's fake and real love hurts
But nothing hurts when I'm alone
When you're with me and we're alone
So let me crawl...
We need to finish the four more.
If we go, "Clear our schedule of everything except shows until the 17th."
If we get all that done, and we send it to Riback,
and Riback's like, "I don't hear a hit on this record,"
we should then be like...
"Here's 'true blue' and here's"--
And then we'll write another one.
"Baby, I don't feel so good"
Six words you never understood
For some reason it sounds really like
in my head.
Yeah, you're under a towel.
...say I'm not your type
Just say that I'm not Your preferred sexual orienta--
...-tion I'm so selfish, oh
But you make me f--
I think it's sick.
I wanna try one where you just start this chorus very soft
and in that first phrase, like, hammer it.
Do you know what I mean?
How am I supposed to make you--
Just, like, get crazy with it, but start quieter
-or-- or softer or-- or babier. -'Kay.
Just try it.
How am I supposed to Make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way?
Can you guess
What I'm thinking of
What I'm looking at
Where my eyes came from
Can you guess
What I'm thinking of
What you might become
If you fall in love?
That's a sick hook.
"Can you guess what I'm thinking of. What you might become if you fall in love?"
That's sick.
-Can you sing it for me? -It is cool.
But what I'm thinking of is a tattoo.
Yeah, but I think this is a really good hook.
I mean, it's just like everything else we've written.
I don't think so.
And also, I just am trying to write the best song we've ever written
and the most accessible right now, you know?
That's stupid. You're trying to write the best song we've ever written?
Absolutely. Every time.
Well, then I'm never gonna do anything ever if I think that way.
You don't have to think that way, but I can.
It feels like kind of a minefield to me,
because I feel like I've been, like, told to write a hit,
but I've been told to not tell Billie that we have to write a hit.
But Billie hates writing songs in general.
And, you know... is-- I don't know,
so woke about her own...
persona on the Internet
-that I think she's terrified of, like... -Hate.
...anything that she makes being hated.
And I think her equation is
that the more popular something is, the more hate it's gonna get.
-Yeah. -But what I'm trying to do here
specifically is make the head of A&R at Interscope think,
"Wow, I told them to go write a hit song,
and, in my estimation, this is kind of a fucking hit."
Mm-hmm. I don't see how you're gonna do--
get through this without telling her.
You can't trick her into writing a song.
Y'all talking about me?
Just saying that maybe for the last few songs
that you write for this album...
you could experiment with trying to make something that you still like
but maybe is a little more conventional
or, you know, accessible, or whatever.
And maybe Finneas could help guide you with that,
-and it would give you-- -Huh?
For the last few songs that you write for this album or the next--
What are the words you're using though? I don't understand.
-Accessible? -Oh, Pepper!
What does that mean in a song, writing music-- What does that mean?
-It means, like-- -Accessible means
a song that doesn't alienate anyone for any reason,
a song that doesn't, like--
But you're literally-- You are both talking about something
that I feel like we've always talked about as a negative thing
where songs are just, like, for everyone, anyone can relate.
-I don't-- Honestly-- Okay. -I don't like that.
You have been telling me that we should write songs that everyone can relate to.
-I'm not saying that. -Did he come in here and belittle my idea
-of a song that I was-- that I wrote... -No.
...that he was trying to turn into something else
because it's not for everyone?
Is that what happened?
I didn't hear it that way.
I like singing songs.
I like having songs to sing.
And if they have some-- If they mean something to me, then I like them more.
-But my feeling is that if-- -I hate writing songs,
and I've always hated it.
Every single time I've written a song that I actually like,
I've hated the process.
I hear that you hate songwriting.
I really-- It really tortures me.
-But what-- -Especially with you
-because you're so good at it. -But here's what I'd say, if you hate--
I don't wanna blame it on you, but I hate it.
If you want to stop writing songs for your next album--
-You don't wanna write any songs? -I'm not gonna make another album.
Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world When I stop breathing
Turnin' blue
You're gonna go that dark with this song?
Are you seriously implying that you'd jump off the roof?
Do you feel okay about a song like that?
You don't worry about that?
I feel like it's something I wanna have said.
-You don't worry about-- -This song is the reason I don't.
Like, having this way of saying it, instead of doing it, is better.
Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long
Headache
Nice.
Does to you
Your head-- If your head was that size compared to my body in real life...
Yeah. Let's try to interact.
No.
I'm trying to shake your hand.
Hey, Finneas, how are you?
We'll just look right at each other.
-How are you? -I'm fabulous. Do you like this song?
-I love this song. -I'm feeling really good about it.
Me too. High five.
Did you finish the album?
I think we finished the album, yeah.
Billie Eilish in studio with us here on the Kevin and Bean Show.
We have a bunch of questions about the music we're gonna get to in a minute.
There's one more teenage question I have to ask.
Are you done with school already or are you still homeschooling?
-Well-- -Or are you faking homeschooling?
I've never been to school, so there's a little fact.
-Okay. -Never--
Never was at school, so I never had to quit school.
But I graduated, like, last year,
-the beginning of last year. -What?
But I just, like--
-You're like Doogie Howser. You graduate-- -Who's that?
She doesn't know who Doogie Howser is. Know your audience.
Who do you feel about the way your fans feel about you?
See, here's the thing. Justin Bieber, right?
When I was, like, 12, it wasn't-- I was not a fan of him.
I was a-- I was-- It was--
I was, like-- That was, like, my first love.
Like, that was the person I was in love with.
-In my head, he was in love with me. -Of course.
It was like a relationship with a person.
You know when you, like-- you date somebody for a while,
and they're-- that's your partner?
And then you break up with them.
And if you see a picture of them, without really thinking,
you automatically are like, "Oh, that's that person I was in a relationship with."
Whoever comes next is gonna have to deal with the idea
that you were in a relationship with Justin Bieber.
I wanna play you something right now.
-This is a video of me at 12. -Okay.
-Nobody's seen this. -I love this.
I have watched so many Justin Bieber... things,
I was, like, crying so hard.
'Cause, like, I'm worried that when I get a boyfriend...
I won't wanna be with him because...
I actually love Justin Bieber more.
And I can't handle that.
I said, "I can't handle that."
I literally remember sobbing into a pillow
because I thought, "I'm never gonna feel this way about anyone."
I'm-- I literally was terrified
that when I got a boyfriend when I was older, that I wouldn't--
-He won't compare. -He won't compare.
Three sold-out shows
at the Fonda Theatre.
-That's amazing, by the way. -Thank you.
I know hometown shows are special for any artist, but I mean...
Hey, Q. Hey.
You look good as hell.
Yo, how are you?
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way out
But you never go away
Never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now
But I hope someday
I'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night Or a hundred years
Need a place to hide But I can't find one near
Wanna feel alive Outside I can't fight my fear
Love you, Billie. Happy 17th birthday.
Bro, he's so fine. Oh, my God.
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Amazing.
Okay, guys. It's a wrap.
Hello, welcome home
Do we have a hose?
For your car?
Yes, but ask your dad about that
because he'll know which hose he would prefer that you use.
-All right, this is nice. And jet. -Wait. Go back to that one.
-I'm gonna do the inside. -Jet is the hardest and cone is--
I mean, center is...
If you go in there, is it gonna get in there or something?
No, it's built to ride in the rain.
I can't believe my dream car is in my driveway.
Of course, these fools come and buy it for me.
I looked at them, I was like, "You guys are insane.
We have nowhere to park it. We can't afford to insure it.
It's too fast a car."
And as I talked to them, they were like,
"We're getting the car with all the safety bells and whistles.
Every safety feature you could have.
It's not the souped-up engine." She doesn't know that.
It would be like something sh--
You're evil.
Hey, call me back
When you get this
Saying goodbye to the car.
Going on tour. Missing her car.
Love you. Have a good time with Kaylee.
Love you. I'm gonna miss you.
Maybe just forget it
'Cause by the time you get this
Your number might be blocked
Stay
And blah, blah, blah
You just want what you can't have
No way
I'll call the cops
If you don't stop, I'll call your dad
Ah-one, ah-two, ah-one, two, three, four!
And I hate to do this to you On your birthday
Happy birthday, by the way
It's not you, it's me And all that other bullshit
You know that's bullshit
Don't you, babe?
I'm not your party favor
This is so weird, you guys. I'm nobody. I don't know why you like me.
I really don't.
I really don't know why, but I love you.
And I really hope you guys
feel the way about the album that I feel
because I fucking love it so much.
You're not even ready. Okay.
"Xanny," to both of us, was a song about, like...
being close to people that are self-destructive.
Drugs and, you know,
cigarettes are...
-Alcohol... -...are you killing yourself.
What do you both think about
talking about your feelings about drugs and cigarettes and alcohol?
My only thought is how, like, you say things,
and then maybe you...
grow up and feel differently and then get dragged for it.
-But-- -I have my moment,
and then I do drugs, and then people are like,
-"Ha-ha. Remember when she said"-- -Wait a second.
Are you actually not gonna let her be authentic to who she is now
in case she grows up to do drugs?
I don't mean doing any of that--
-Can you do this, please? -Well--
Stop yelling at Chelsea.
I am not yelling. I just think that's borrowing trouble. And--
She's right though. She has a point.
Well, maybe don't grow up to do that.
Do you have to plan right now that you're--
every person who does what you do has to grow up and fuck up that way?
And you have to plan it so that you don't get hate later when you do it
because when you were younger, you said you wouldn't?
You know, why are your parents with you all the time?
I mean, you've got a whole army of people
trying to help you not decide to destroy your life
like people in your shoes have done before.
So, are we gonna literally not release something
for fear that later she will do that?
I mean, it's what the song is about.
Oh, my God. You're so hot.
Bite my tongue, bide my time
Wearing a warning sign
Wait till the world is mine
Visions I vandalize
Cold in my kingdom size
Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown
I'm gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make 'em bow One by one by one
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make 'em bow One by one by one
Her new album drops on March 29th.
Every month she logs 21 million hits on Spotify.
13.2 million followers on Instagram.
Every concert is sold out two days before going public.
In Zurich, she'll be performing in Halle 622...
for the 17-year-old Billie Eilish.
So nice to have you here, Billie.
-Hi. -How are you?
I'm so good.
-I'm so glad that you are here. Yeah. -So good. I'm glad I'm here too.
Aren't you that tired?
I... I am that tired.
That's a good way of putting it. Yes, I'm very tired.
-Okay, Billie. -Yeah?
Next billboard session.
-Where's this gonna be? -You know, like, how the--
you saw the first round of billboards
-with the album cover? -Everywhere? Yeah.
-This is the second round of those. -Okay.
I like--
Hold on. Something's happening here.
Wow! Wow!
What is it?
-An-- A tic attack. No. -Water?
I don't know why though.
It's been, like, coming on all day, but I can't, like...
Do you want oil?
Yeah. Mom, do you have the essential oils?
-Essential oils. -Yes.
Put it on your pulses too, if you can.
Okay.
-Yeah, those are in some-- -Everything looks folded--
Okay.
I don't know why the lights are, like, really making me, like...
Well, you're also really tired probably.
-Yeah. -That's probably what it really is.
I've done some crazy shit 'cause of my Tourette's.
I fucking broke a glass once, in my mouth, because of 'em.
'Cause I have this one where I'll bite down on something,
like, if I have something, I'll just go, really hard,
just 'cause my brain is like, "Do it!"
I don't wanna be you...
I'm lonely on Valentine's Day.
-Miserable. So sad. -Q doesn't do anything?
Haven't gotten... anything.
And the night before, he'd been really weird and distant and shit. And...
It was totally fine. We've been great. It's just, like--
But then they had this plan to go to Big Bear, like all--
like, the whole squad was gonna go to Big Bear.
I was like, "You know what? Have fun. Don't worry about me.
I'm miserable and I miss you, and I wish you would talk to me,
and I have no one else to talk to, but I'm chillin'.
So, have fun. Shoo."
...that told you so
Sorry, sorry
I'm sorry, sorry
Psych, bitch!
By the way
You've been uninvited
'Cause all you say...
Stop! Are all the same things...
Let's go!
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back When you can't watch mine
I can't do shows anymore. My legs hurt too bad.
-I can't do it. I just can't jump. -Okay.
-It's so, so painful. -Why don't you sit down right now
and have a little massage?
Oh, my God. Like, walking right now is so painful.
There. How to do it.
I'm afraid I'll wake up and I won't have any of this anymore.
Everything I've ever loved, I've had to quit.
I used to dance, like, 12 hours a week.
And then I got injured.
I tore my growth plate in my hip.
The bone separated from the muscle.
It was the most depressing year of my life.
I just laid in bed. I couldn't move.
Since then I have not danced.
-Do you want a hand, Patrick? -Yeah, one second.
My little announcement before we move on.
I have shin splints...
and I threw my neck out.
So-- Listen though, listen.
It hurts really bad to jump, but I'm a dumbass, so I'm gonna jump.
My boy, my boy, my boy
He ain't a man and sure as hell--
My boy, my boy, my boy
Don't love me like he promised
My boy, my boy, my boy
-Ow! -Doctor's orders.
Every two to three hours,
five to ten minutes of stretching, 15 minutes of icing.
You can do it, Billie.
How do people not miss me? I just wanna know.
They don't miss me?
I would miss me.
"We're gonna miss you so much."
-Sure. -I bet they miss you, Billie.
Nope.
You know, it's painful to miss people.
And so our brains come up with coping strategies for it.
Why can't we just miss people though?
Why do we have to cope? Why can't we just let it happen?
-Because it hurts. It's painful. -So?
Let it hurt.
I want people to hurt because they miss me.
I don't want them to just act like they don't miss me at all, and...
It's already 3:30, and I know you have a lot of people to meet.
-Mom, we're not even there yet. -I know, I'm just reminding you
that you don't have a lot of time to not talk.
Can I just not do anything and just walk around this park alone?
That would be fun.
People are always, like, you know,
"It's so dark. Like, have happy music."
I'm like, "But I'm never feeling happy.
So why would I write about things I don't know about?"
You know, I feel the dark things. I feel them very strongly.
And, you know, why would I...
not talk about them, you know what I'm saying?
Yeah, and your fans seem to notice that.
A couple of days ago, we interviewed a teenage band from around here,
and they said they liked your music, and they said, "If you listen carefully,
you can even listen to her on the brink of crying even."
So you transmit it to the people.
Do you think that that's the reason why
your music is resonating so much with your own generation?
To have a song that is describing exactly how you feel
is just the best feeling in the world.
'Cause it makes you feel comforted.
It makes you feel like there's-- like you're not alone, you know?
In your music, I sense
a kind of idea of a fantasy,
of a built-up world of your own.
You can perceive it, but you cannot describe it.
Do you have any image in your mind of this kind of new world
you want to create with your lyrics, your sounds?
There are things that you can feel and not describe.
And it's not like, "Oh, I don't have words for this."
It's more like, you--
there's literally no words to describe that feeling.
It's like how we all are drawn to dangerous situations
because they're intriguing and we don't know what's on the other side,
and, like, music is that.
You love it because you love it, and that's it.
You don't really have a reason why you love it, you just do.
You can pretend you don't miss me
You can pretend you don't care
All you wanna do is kiss me
Oh, what a shame, I'm not there
You can pretend you don't miss me
You can pretend you don't care
All you wanna do is kiss me
Oh, what a shame...
I love you!
Everybody knows
You and I are suicide and stolen art
Art
Pretty mama sews
Stitches into All your bitches' broken hearts
You can pretend you don't miss me
You can pretend you don't care
This is the last show on this tour, bro. What the hell?
Oh, my God.
It's the end of an era, man. But my album comes out soon though.
Somebody new is gonna comfort you
Like you want me to Every now and then, it hits me
That I'm the one that got away
But I guess bein' lonely...
Damn, I wanted to see you today. Fuck.
I wanted to see you today too. What?
You're so fine.
I love you. I'm in love with you.
I love you.
-I love you! -I love you.
You have a lot of interesting things going on,
in terms of being hypermobile, having these tics
and having a really challenging physical lifestyle.
Mm-hmm.
It's sort of a sandwich of things
that is just gonna make it even more important for you
to be really good with self-care.
If you don't carve out the space in your life to take care of yourself,
no one else is gonna do it.
They're all just gonna be like, "But, Billie, do this, do that."
It's already like that.
Justin's fanboying over you right now.
Justin Bieber?
He's kinda obsessed with you right now,
really wants to work with you.
I think if you wanted to do a "bad guy" song with him,
a remix, we could do that.
But honestly, it doesn't even matter to me 'cause you don't need it.
I just thought it was funny.
Yeah, but how does Billie
-reply to his DM? -How do I reply if he says,
"I wanna be on your album"?
-Because-- -Just say, "Ha-ha,
my album comes out in three days, but if you wanna jump on 'bad guy'"--
Or I dunno. What do you feel comfortable saying?
I do not feel comfortable doing--
saying no in any sort of way at all to him.
There's no way.
He could ask me to kill my dog and I would. I don't even think--
Well, between you and I, what do you want?
Do you wanna do anything with him?
Yeah! The fuck? Obviously.
Do you wanna do a new song with him and, like...
No, I do not wanna work with him. I do not wanna work with him.
-No, no, no, no. -Would--
-Do you want him to jump on "bad guy"? -Yes, but a remix though.
I said, "You could literally hop on the song and just say 'poop'
and I'd be happy with it."
Billie Eilish is out with a new album today--
17-year-old sensation. Her debut album...
...most talked about teenager in music...
Not only one of the most important releases for March
but maybe of the year.
Her album is called When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?
Billie Eilish.
We put up Australia and New Zealand,
and it sold out in five minutes.
The album is number one in 37 countries right now.
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin', you're on your tippy-toes
Creepin' around like no one knows
Think you're so criminal
Yeah!
You know, it's so amazing to watch you. To have watched you get to this point.
Billie. NME just reviewed your album. Five out of five stars.
Really? Fire.
Hello!
I like it when you take control
What's up, girl? You look fresh tonight.
You're breaking Spotify records. You're breaking Apple Music records.
Are you ready for the next level of superstardom?
-No. -No?
My album comes out in, like, two seconds, basically.
And...
A whole-- It's out. Yeah!
If she reads all the lyrics She'll pity the men I know
So you're a tough guy Like it really rough guy
Just can't get enough guy Chest always so puffed guy
I'm that bad type Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight Might seduce your dad type
I'm the bad guy
It's a number one album.
And I have a red Tesla in front of the house.
Oh, my gosh.
-I love you. -I love you.
Thanks for making the album with me.
You know that she said today she--
A year ago, she had a million followers on Instagram.
That's crazy.
-That's a lot in a year. -It is.
-Anyway, it was more-- -Where we at now?
Fif-- almost 16 million.
-I'm better off without them -Without them
They're nothing but unstable
Here's your Spotify.
-Is that million? -Yeah.
Oh, my God.
I thought that was thousand. I was like, lemme see--
No.
720 million.
That's nuts, dude.
Who you texting, Q?
Uh-huh.
Hi, baby.
There's like 40 brands that have sent me a Coachella outfit.
It's honestly crazy. Where are you right now?
Hungover?
You didn't drive home, right?
You did?
Why?
You said you wouldn't do that.
I'm mad that you did that shit.
At least I told you.
I know. I'm glad you told me, but I don't want you to do that.
You don't take me seriously when I say that.
I just want you safe.
You know that.
I'm seeing you tonight, okay?
Okay. I love you.
Bye, baby.
Bye.
We maybe have a couple more press looks, and then we're done.
I had a dream that Coachella was horrible
and the worst thing ever and it ruined my career.
Lips meet teeth and tongue
My heart skips eight beats at once
During the beginning of "bad guy,"
I'll go to the front of the stage and be like, "What's up?"
I'll probably thank the dancers here.
-Yeah. -Once the mic is in,
I want it to be pretty quick.
These bitches can go super fast.
...watch your car burn
With the fire that you started in me
But you never came back to ask it out
Go ahead and watch my heart burn
The wall screens?
I don't want it to be, you know, a blue song and then there's pink.
First of all, I hate pink. Never use pink ever.
I think that you don't understand
how special it is to focus on you on that song.
You might wanna consider having a different visual than the video.
My favorite thing during a festival show is looking at the crowd
and they're not looking at me.
I love that.
It makes me feel way less uncomfortable, especially at Coachella.
It's not as interesting as watching Billie sing the song.
I'm gonna be, like, thousands of feet from people.
People are gonna be so far away.
Especially at this time slot,
and especially with what's going on in your career right now.
If I could get to sleep I would have slept by now
I don't wanna go.
That shit is too much pressure.
I don't like pressure. I don't feel pressure most of the time.
Right now, thousands of people
are pouring into the desert for the start of Coachella.
It is one of the world's most popular
outdoor music festivals.
Coachella is the world's highest-grossing music festival.
125,000 concertgoers a day.
Is Q coming?
I said, "I'm getting you tickets for this,
and the deal is that you have to spend time with me.
You have to see me if I'm gonna let you come for free."
"Of course." Haven't seen him in two and a half days.
We're at this Interscope party.
The one I was saying I was taking you to, but then you didn't come.
I wanted you to be here, damn it.
My ass was alone the whole day. It's okay.
Hey, Q.
Look at the hair.
Go ahead.
Q, okay, ready? Help me.
So it's either...
I'm putting my teeth in.
You know I don't have to wear mine anymore during the day.
Really?
That's why you look so goddamn good.
You should've did your hair with the things again.
-Should I? I was thinking about it. -Yeah.
-Could you still do it? -Yeah.
-You should. It looked bomb. -I haven't done the show yet.
-I really think you should. -You think?
Waking up at sundown
They're late to every party
-She needs to be changing her clothes. -Nobody's ever sorry
I'm doing it.
Too inebriated now to dance
Morning as they come down
Their pretty heads are hurting
-They're awfully bad at learning -Is this rehearsing the lyrics?
-Yeah. -Make the same mistakes
Blame circumstance
I'm
In their secondhand smoke
-Change now. -Okay.
Bro, I wish I could sing like that. Like...
Why she sing so fire?
Circumstance
-I love you. -Love you too.
-Go. -All right, eat your pizza.
I gotta warm up.
Danny wants to bring Katy Perry to say hi to you.
I'm so good. How are you?
I gotta confess about my fiancé.
-I am-- -I'm a huge fan obviously.
But my fiancé,
-who doesn't listen to-- -Hello.
-He listens to a lot of music. -I literally had you--
He literally will only play you in the car.
"Bad guy."
All the time.
-I'm such a bad guy -Thank you, bro.
Treat you like a rough guy
There it goes.
-I wanna take a picture. -How are you?
-I'm doing good. -So proud of you.
-Congrats. -Thank you.
-Yeah. -And I love you, and...
I wanted to say that this is gonna be wild for ten years.
It's gonna be crazy.
If you ever wanna talk, 'cause it's a weird ride.
I know.
-It's a-- Yes. -I know you know.
-Good for you. -Yeah.
-You're amazing. -Amazing.
-Who was that? -Orlando Bloom?
-So-- Oh, really? -He played--
He played Will Turner in fucking Pirates of the Caribbean.
-That guy? -That was him.
-That was him? -Yeah, that's him.
There's all these TMZ photos of her and him paddleboarding together.
Wait, those are full-on nudes.
Let me see.
-Let me see. -Who is that?
-Orlando Bloom. -That was him?
-He's outside still. -Why is it so skinny?
No way!
I wouldn't know anything about that.
Bring him back. I wanna meet him again.
He kissed me on the cheek.
That's Orlando Bloom.
I did not know that was him. I thought that was just some dude Katy Perry met.
Oh, my God!
I love you, baby.
-I love you, Mama. -Have a good time.
-Enjoy it. -Yeah, have a great time.
-Just enjoy yourself. -Ready, Brian?
That's all that matters, okay?
-You're very brave and amazing. -I love you.
-I love you so much. -You are very brave.
I'm not brave.
Billie! Billie! Billie! Billie! Billie! Billie!
Dad.
There isn't room for another human out there. It's unbelievable.
-Is it going okay out there? -Oh, yeah. Well, yeah.
Billie, Billie, Billie! Oh, I'm so happy-- Wait. Will you wait?
I've gotta use the toilet. I don't wanna miss it.
Dude.
-You are so-- -This is the universe hugging you.
I'm giving you so much love and light right now.
You don't even understand. My nine-year-old self, bro--
You're a fucking...
Oh, no. Oh, my lord!
-Thank you for everything you do. -Oh, I love you.
I love you.
-Okay. -I've been literally climbing mountains
listening to your music. I love it.
Now I know.
Billie! Billie! Billie!
What is going on?
Fuck the screen!
Fuck the screen! Fuck the screen! Fuck the screen! Fuck the screen!
We're probably gonna have to cut "xanny." But that's it.
-What? -Probably have to cut "xanny" for time.
So we're losing "xanny" and something.
"WHEN I WAS OLDER" probably, right?
Let's go. Here we go. Bill, Andrew.
If anything's going wrong, act like it's not.
Billie! Billie! Billie!
...nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one.
Roll show.
Look at the screen.
Bro, what is happening?
Just remember they're here to see you.
-What? -Just remember they're here to see you.
They're not even gonna see me if the screen doesn't work.
-They're gonna have the lights on. -For fuck's sake.
Coachella!
Holy fuck!
Look at you needing me
You know I'm just...
Fuck!
Begging for our help
What the fuck are the words though?
-Poisoning themselves now -Bro.
Begging for our help
Wow!
Hills burn in California
My turn to ignore ya
Don't say I didn't warn ya
All the good girls go to hell
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna
What do you want from me?
Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering?
What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me?
Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep Where do we go?
Billie! Billie! Billie! Billie! Billie! Billie!
All right, so for this song...
I just want...
us all to be in the moment for this song,
because I feel like, in life, we tend to do things and then...
We're always looking forward to the next thing and the next thing after that.
We're never thinking about what's happening right now.
And this is happening right now, and this is crazy.
And, like...
we-- and I...
are never gonna be in this moment ever again, no matter what.
This exact moment right here.
Never again. Ever.
This is the only chance we get to be in the moment.
So why don't we be in the moment, yeah?
All right, let's do it.
Don't you know I'm no good for you?
I've learned to lose You can't afford to
Tore my shirt to stop you bleeding
But nothing ever stops you leaving
Quiet when I'm comin' home And I'm on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that Like it like that
Don't you know too much already?
I'll only hurt you if you let me
Call me friend but keep me closer
Call me back.
And I'll call you When the party's over
Quiet when I'm comin' home And I'm on my own
And I could lie Say I like it like that
Like it like that
And I could lie Say I like it like that
Like it like that
But nothin' is better sometimes
Once we've both said our goodbyes
Let's just let it go
Let me let you go
Quiet when I'm comin' home And I'm on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that
Like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that
Like it like that
Thank you.
You know, the screen came back eventually.
"Bury a friend" was fucking crazy.
I know. Billie killed it.
They loved the new stuff.
At the end of the day, kids were standing there
to see Billie Eilish, and you're Billie Eilish.
-Yeah. -And you killed it, you know what I mean?
You did exactly what, like, everyone wanted.
You guys, that was amazing.
-Oh, thank you. -It was. Your performance was spectacular.
You killed it. You didn't seem nervous at all.
-No, it was a beautiful-- -I just wasn't happy with it.
-What? -I was not happy with the way I was.
You were amazing.
I was so excited for "all the good girls go to hell,"
and then I bombed the shit out of it.
It was fine and funny.
-I love you. Amazing. -You really did great.
-Billie, you're amazing. -That was fantastic!
It was amazing. I wish you could feel what we felt.
People were thrilled.
People were just like, "A star. She's a superstar. It's amazing."
People loved it so much.
And that's what you can do with everything going down around you.
You forgot some words to a new song. Big deal.
Who cares?
Hello.
Where are you?
Can you come here?
Can't you see me?
What do you mean, "try"?
Hello?
I'm just blaming you for the beeping 'cause I like it.
Good morning, my sweetheart.
You were amazing last night.
I love you.
Ain't no holding back guy
Come off like I'm mad guy Always got your back guy
Yeah, I'm the real type Keep you full of thrills type
Show you what it feels like Got an open invite
I'm the bad guy
Billie, that's gotta be pretty amazing for you.
-That's crazy that's his voice. -Justin Bieber's voice.
Gold teeth, my neck
My wrist is froze I got more ice than...
You're gonna cry?
Because she's cried over Justin Bieber's songs
so much over the years,
-and he's singing their song now. -Yeah.
He's singing your song.
I hear he's here this weekend.
He is.
Coachella!
Let me hear you all.
Oh, there you are.
Oh! Justin Bieber!
Justin! Justin!
I just saw his eyebrow, and I know his face.
I know everything about him.
He was born at St. Jude's Hospital
on March 1st, at 12:56 a.m., on the second floor.
-Holy fuck. -Enough.
-Yeah, where were you born? -I have no idea.
He came over to me and I ran away from him.
And he just stood there and looked at me...
I know. You ran away.
-...with his eyes. -You pivoted away.
He looked at you with his eyes?
-His eyes. -His eyes.
That's so amazing, Billie.
And I literally cried in his arms
for, like, five minutes,
like...
And every time I would do this, kind of, like,
like, you could feel it, and he would just squeeze me.
You know what that's like.
It happens to you every meet and greet.
Yeah, you know exactly how you--
How... you know, it feels to be him in that situation.
"It's moments like tonight, where I'm reminded what I mean to people.
Your love for me touched my heart. You are so special.
Not for what you can do, but for who you are.
-Remember that." -Damn.
"I'm so impressed by your aura and presence.
You carry a heavy calling.
You are an idol to so many. I'm excited to watch you flourish.
You are beyond special. Thank you for tonight.
It meant just as much to me as it meant to you.
I also want to let you know that it feels like yesterday"--
"It feels like yesterday I was singing"--
Oh, "Yesterday I was 15, singing 'One Time,'
and now I'm 25, and that was ten years ago
and it flew by like a flash.
Enjoy every minute of what you are experiencing."
"Embrace it all, believe, you are great, but not greater than anyone."
Bill, you gotta be friends with him.
You have to.
-Yeah. -Gosh.
Seriously.
Let's talk about-- Let's talk about people that value you.
People that give you value.
'Cause everything starts From something
But something would be nothing
Nothing if your heart didn't dream With me
'Cause everything starts From something
But something would be nothing
Nothing if your heart didn't dream With me
Where would I be
If you didn't believe?
I know you got your wall
Wrapped all the way around your heart
Don't have to be scared at all Oh, my love
But you can't fly unless you let your
You can't fly Unless you let yourself fall
I will catch you if you fall
But if you spread your wings You can fly away with me
You can't fly unless you let yourself
Let yourself fall
As a little kid, I considered taking her to therapy.
I mean, there were days, driving--
I remember driving her to dance class and just thinking,
"How are we gonna cope with this? How are we gonna cope?"
She's lovesick, you know.
Just like desperately in love with Justin Bieber.
So, to meet him...
And we all-- The whole family went to see Believe.
I think we went on Christmas Day to see it,
or Never Say Never, one of them.
Whole family went, then we-- whole family saw the next one.
I mean, and we all thought he was amazing, like, we never were--
We were never in the... the "hater" camp,
of which sadly for every person in the world, there is...
anyone who's talented or amazing.
But we were never that, we're always like,
"Wow, this kid's amazing, he's so talented.
He works so hard."
So, you know...
She couldn't process it. You could just see her standing there.
She couldn't-- She couldn't take it in.
I mean, she sobbed in his arms, you know?
She was crying, and he was so sweet to her,
and it meant so much to her.
And it seems to have meant a lot to him, which is--
I don't know, I felt so-- You know, you feel--
Your heart kinda breaks for him, because he's 25 years old,
that is so young you can't even process how young that is.
And he's just been through so much,
and he's screwed up a lot and he came back, and--
screwed up and he's found this girl that he loves and--
He's really sad, you know.
I honestly don't know how any artist of any age
with this kind of trajectory is doing it without a parent, you know?
Like, someone who loves you more than life itself
and would do anything for you, like how--
And there's nobody-- You can't pay someone to do that, you know?
I mean-- And-- And we come as close as we can.
I think that the people on her team do love her that way,
and they would do anything for her, but--
You know. Like I say, they can't--
They can't see her in the middle of the night.
They can't see her in the morning.
Can't see how she's coping or feeling.
When you think of your mental health journey,
what comes to mind?
Being really bad at taking care of my mental health.
I'm a person who wants to make things better
for other people and make--
You know, do the right thing no matter what it's doing to me.
And-- Or whether it is the right thing at all.
The right thing should be what's right for you.
Q is at the emergency room.
Why?
'Cause he broke his hand, 'cause he punched a wall.
Jesus Christ.
And I'm trying to get him to go to therapy.
He's so self-destructive.
That's really scary. I'm sorry.
All right, so we're fitting for tour,
and then we have this ASCAP thing on Thursday,
which is like a red carpet.
And then I think that's kinda it.
It's just a lot of looks for tour.
Hard.
How do you wipe yourself with these?
Just like you.
When she gets...
I'm worried. 'Cause he's talking to her a long time,
like he's explaining something to do better.
Did you pass?
Yes.
How was it?
It was fine. It was so easy.
Can you have passengers now?
-No, only when I'm 18. -Eighteen?
But I can be alone though. That's what's important.
Yeah, because there's so many places you can go alone.
I can go to my people's houses.
Which, by the way, I'm going to. Today.
Doing what?
I wanna go see Q and his broken hand.
I heard he broke his hand 'cause he was angry and he punched the wall.
Yeah.
You don't want him getting angry at you.
No, he never does it to anyone.
It's only a... other thing.
So you know that when you're alone in the car
and nobody's there to say anything to you,
the rules of law still apply.
It's not now you get to speed and do all kind of stupid shit.
Yeah.
So, you've been, you know--
You've learned to drive, and you've been coached
and helped and tested...
in order to be sure that you're going to be a sober, sensible driver.
So, slow down. Try to figure it out.
If you make a wrong turn, go around, come back, and make the right turn.
Don't swerve across the freeway and suddenly stop in the median, right?
All the things we've been talking about all this time.
Yeah.
But now that you're navigating on your own...
you'll have a heightened sense of, I believe, anxiety,
so always just err on the side of being safe.
"Whoops...
I went down the wrong entrance ramp,
so I gotta go down another mile and turn around."
Okay.
-I love you. -Love you.
I go.
So long.
All these things aren't sudden, for the most part, you know?
Her childhood went somewhere a while ago.
Well, there's not much to it, but it is-- It's profound.
And I think for her, you know, it's, you know, the future.
Everybody feels that way when you get a license.
You're off to see what your life turns into.
So... yeah.
You know, and then we just live in denial, as always.
'Cause you can't think about it too hard...
or you won't let her do anything, you know?
I mean, I was-- I had a drink of something and I completely choked on it, like water.
I had some yesterday.
It came out my nose and my eyes teared up,
and I was like, it's remarkable that we stay alive, at all.
Yeah, we're this delicate system.
And, you know, it's remarkable that we...
You have to have faith,
you have to do your best, and live your best life and...
and then you have to live in denial.
'Cause what else?
Alternative is you can't do anything.
Can't have a boyfriend, you can't have a car,
you can't go anywhere.
It's unacceptable.
We all did it.
Anyway.
-Where's Billie? -She done gone.
-She did? -Yeah.
Just to drive around?
No, she's gone gone.
Oh. I thought she was gonna come talk to me first.
You were on the phone.
I told her she could come say something though.
I said she can come talk to me.
Well, that makes me sad.
Well, I'm sorry.
You were in an important phone call.
No, but I literally said she can come talk to me.
Okay. Well, I can't call her.
She's driving a car.
Did she go to the... guy's house?
-She's going to the studio. -Which is where?
West Hollywood, like, near--
She's going to West Hollywood?
Yes.
She said he lived in North Hollywood.
We've never known where he lives.
I wanted her to put the thing on
where you can follow someone's phone, you know?
You can find where they are, just for safety purposes, you know?
'Cause I don't think she has that on her phone and Finneas did,
so you could always be like, "Oh, this is where she is," you know?
Find Your Friends app?
Yeah, probably.
All right. I thought she did.
On my last tour, when I had shin splints and a sprained ankle
and I threw out my neck and everything, like...
there was a moment where I was in so much pain,
that it was the first time I've ever thought that I had to cancel a show.
Not because, "Oh, I'm in too much pain," it was more, like,
"I can't do the show I want to.
I can't give you the show that I wanna give you."
And it's like, my favorite part about all this is the shows.
You say these shows are, like, everything, but you posted before the Europe trip,
like, "I don't wanna go," or "Take me home,"
-whatever, on Instagram. -True.
So, is it... What is it?
Do you love it, do you hate it? Is it a combination of both?
It is really difficult to leave the people that you love.
Leaving the people that need me is so hard to do.
Hi, Billie!
-Hello... -Oh, my God. I love you.
-Billie, can I have a photo? -Yes. Go for it.
-I'm gonna cry. -Billie.
Wait, are you getting a photo with her? Oh, my God.
Thank you so much. I love you so much.
Oh, shit!
I love you! I love you!
You better hurry
'Cause I'm leavin' soon
Sorry can't save me now
Sorry I don't know how
Sorry there's no way out
But down
Mmm, down
Call my friends And tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
But I'm not sorry
Call my friends And tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
Sorry
I've always been that kind of person
that needs to be around friends.
That's probably been the hardest thing in touring.
It's just not being able to be around friends, so, like,
with this tour, I was able to bring a friend out.
It doesn't make me happy to be lonely all the time,
so I'm working on it.
Billie Eilish. We promised you we'd get her on.
-Good morning, Billie. -Hey, Billie.
Good morning. How ya doin'?
We went to Coachella, me and the girlfriend.
The girlfriend freaked at your performance.
Everyone loves you.
You're 17 years old, and you're owning the world.
That must be mental, right?
It's crazy, dude.
-UNO. -No UNO!
This has been, like, the first tour that's actually been fun.
And I don't mean the shows, 'cause the shows are always fun,
but I just feel, like, this tour... It's just been good.
Sitting all alone
Mouth full of gum
In the driveway
My friends aren't far
In the back of my car
Lay their bodies
Where's my mind?
They'll be here pretty soon
Looking through my room
For the money
I'm biting my nails
I'm too young to go to jail
It's kinda funny
Where's my mind?
Let's go!
Maybe it's in the gutter
Where I left my lover
What an expensive fake
My V is for Vendetta
Thought that I'd feel better
But now I got a bellyache
-Hello? -Where are you?
I'm driving right now.
-Yes. Yeah! -I miss you.
-Hello?
I miss you. I miss you.
I will see...
Let me call you when I'm done driving, baby.
-I love you, baby. -All right, babe.
Call me later, please.
Please?
Sev.
Fuck.
It's a hard time for teenagers, I think.
I think people give teenagers a really rough time,
'cause they're like...
"Oh, they're privileged, and why are they--
They have it so easy," and, "Why are-- They're fake-depressed."
And it's, like, no, there's a lot to be depressed about right now.
If you're a teenager, you're dealing with parents
probably who lived through the recession, like us,
who've been scared that they're gonna lose their homes,
or, you know, have financial hardship.
You lose-- Living in a culture with an opioid epidemic and a drug epidemic.
You're facing, possibly, the destruction of the planet.
You're in a political climate that is terrifying...
racist climate, hateful...
You know, it is a horrible time to be a teenager,
and people are like, "Oh, you know, Billie Eilish's music is depressing."
It's, like, no, kids are depressed.
It's a scary time.
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Don't you think it's ever...
Hard.
How about the whole song is just more, like...
nothing even specific that they did.
You're just not happy being with them.
-I love that. -You can't even explain it.
Like, say, like, "I can't-- I can't explain it."
When I'm away from you
-I'm happier than ever -Than ever
Wish I could explain it better
Wish it wasn't true
Okay, okay, I think I'm good.
Are you recording it?
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
I just wasn't happy.
And I didn't want the same things he wanted,
and I don't think that's fair for him.
I don't think you should be in a relationship,
super excited about certain things the other person couldn't care less about.
I don't think that's fair to you.
So I don't think that was-- I didn't think that was fair to him.
And there was just a lack of...
effort, I think?
I literally was just like,
"Dude, you don't even have enough love to love yourself.
You can't love me, dude."
Like... And you don't. Like, you think you do.
I do love him, though, which is what made it harder.
'Cause I'm not over him. I didn't find someone else.
I didn't, like, stop having love for him.
I just, like, spent time away from him for a little bit,
and I was like, "Wow, I'm missing so much, because I'm,
like, I-- I'm worried about you all the time,
and I don't want what you want,
and, like, you don't want what I want." And...
I'm not-- I don't need to--
I don't wanna... fix him.
I can't fix him. I've tried.
I can't do it anymore, like, I don't wanna do it.
I'm just not happy.
He's gone, he's gone
He's gone
You're better off I'm glad that he's gone
You and me under each other's wing
-That part. -But he spoiled everything
Bitch, I love you He never loved you
He never loved you, my baby
Never no tears for that sucker
New York, how ya doin' tonight?
Do y'all feel good?
Good, because...
"Baby, I don't feel so good"
Six words you never understood
"I'll never let you go" Five words you'll never say
I laugh along like nothing's wrong Four days has never felt so long
If three's a crowd and two was us One slipped away
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Is there a reason we're not through?
Is there a 12-step just for you?
Our conversation's all in blue 11 "heys"
Hey, hey, hey, hey.
Ten fingers tearin' out my hair
Nine times you never made it there
I ate alone at 7:00 You were six minutes away
How am I supposed to Make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way?
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were trying to make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say I love you
I love you
And I don't want to
Up all night
On another red-eye
I wish we never learned to fly
Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
I didn't mean to make you cry
Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were trying to make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say I love you
I love you
And I don't want to
The smile that you gave me
Even when you felt like dyin'
We fall apart as it gets dark
I'm in your arms in Central Park
I can't escape the way I love you
And I don't want to
But I love you
-Thank you so much for performing. -You were beautiful up there.
Really amazing. Really fantastic.
Excuse me. Excuse me.
Marty.
-Hey, I'm-- I'm Marty, by the way. -Nice to meet you.
Hey, Billie. Such a good show.
First group, are we taking photos with your kids too?
Do you wanna, just, three or four at a time, or what do you want to do?
Well, whoever's in your group, bring 'em in.
-Okay. -Like a group picture.
Okay, that's enough.
I don't know who these people are--
Hey, Saul, where did she go? Jessica and Ja--
-Billie, just get it over with. -No!
Just do the "hey, hey, hi"--
They said one group. And then he brought--
He said, "You next. Next group. Next group."
Every time you leave it's taking way too much time.
-No, dude. I don't want to do it. -Come on. Billie. Let's just--
Why do I have to meet all these fucking randos?
Billie, they're already--
-They're not random. -Who even are they?
Billie, I don't know. They're connected with the label somehow.
But every time I go out there, then, like, three people come up to me.
-Just stay there. Just stay there. -And there's like a billion of them.
-These random... bitches. -Billie, they're not random.
They're people connected to people who-- who play your music or whatever.
We don't know why but just get it over with.
No single shots.
Oh, my God, I'm sorry.
Camera's right there, Billie.
Group picture, guys.
Hey. Girl, you look so pretty. I'm a major fan.
Tell Billie. Introduce Billie.
I do promotion. We met briefly.
-Nice to see you again. How are you? -Okay, fire.
We've seen-- We've met with him twice in the last two days.
We-- He's at Sirius. He's the one that plays you on all the channels.
This is the guys from Verizon.
Glen, pleasure to meet you. Great show.
Hello.
-Do you guys want a picture? -Yeah, thank you.
Yeah, no problem.
Are you guys working tomorrow?
-Honestly, yeah. I'm here. -Okay.
Okay, I got a flash on to make it a little better.
I literally can't have a bad moment.
Where did you see that comment?
It's, like, one person commented on that picture I posted.
Not even, like, a fan account or anything, just a random person.
"You were rude at the-- Apparently you were rude at the meet and greet.
My friend was there and they said you were rude. You were bothered and you"--
I was like, "Yo." I can't have one moment.
-After my show. -I mean, it would be great
if you could overcome that in the moment and just--
-Hey, Mom! -Listen, I'm just saying.
-I'm giving you complete-- -You know how much I've done that?
I'm giving you complete empathy. You-- It shouldn't happen--
I can't have one moment where I'm like, "You know what? I don't wanna do this."
Not one. I've never had one moment, and I had one moment.
And there it is written about.
It's, like, that--
You were failed by me and your whole team yesterday.
I'd love to meet your kids.
But I don't want to be shoved into meeting a bunch of random kids
that only want a picture with me.
It doesn't feel good.
You were failed. We did not do a good job last night.
You were set up very badly. All truth.
God.
And then, also, nobody tells me who's important.
All of you said, "Okay, you're done. Go back."
And I start going back and then you're like, "Billie. Billie. Billie."
And I hear "Billie." All I hear is "Billie."
So how am I supposed to know that that's an important Billie? The fuck?
I think we're changing how we're gonna do this--
All I hear is, "Billie. Billie. Billie." Every second of my fucking life.
-Billie, it was a big, giant fail. -But from every direction.
-Everywhere I go. "Billie!" -It was a big fail.
-And then I turn around
and it's, like, the dude that runs, like, whatever--
some huge magazine who wants me on the cover.
I don't want anyone who knows who I am and is any sort of fan,
or knows a fan, to see me in any sort of awkward situation.
-Okay. -Got it.
It's embarrassing and I have to keep smiling,
and if I don't, then they hate me and they think I'm horrible. That's not fair.
-Yeah. -I agree.
So... no throwing her to the wolves.
Okay.
Sheesh.
Hello!
Billie!
-You don't know how much I appreciate you. -I love you, dude. Come here.
-I love you so much. -Let's have a hug. I love you.
-I love you so much! -Oh, my gosh!
-Oh, my gosh. -How you feeling tonight?
I love you so much!
-How you guys doin'? You're good? -We're fine.
We love you!
Hello!
Oh, my God. I love you so much!
Okay. Drive her out of here.
Look at my tattoo! Billie, Billie!
Billie!
Billie, I love you!
You saved my life.
Billie, your music saved my life.
-I love you! -I love you, Billie!
Billie, I love you. I love you so much.
Oh, my gosh, Billie!
Buona sera.
Ciao bella.
Sleepless long nights
That is what my youth was for
Old teenage hopes Are alive at your door
Left you with nothing But they want some more
Oh, uh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, uh, oh
You know who you are
Sweetheart, bitter heart
Immediately.
Dude, I sprained my ankle immediately. That's so embarrassing.
It's so stupid because I'm, like, choked up right now
because I'd rather not do a show than do a crappy version for you.
Like, I just want to give you a good show and, like, I can't.
Shit!
This is so trash. This is literally a nightmare, for real.
I can't do this. I'm sorry, bro.
So embarrassing.
Bitch!
I can't even go on... I choked up.
I can't even talk.
It's so fucking dumb.
They'll take whatever you give them.
And they'll totally be on your side.
They're stoked that you're here. And you've traveled so far.
You got this.
Just start "idontwannabeyouanymore" as soon as you walk back on stage.
You don't have to sit there and talk and choke up.
Just start the song. Yeah?
Ready?
-Let's do it. -Okay.
Tear it up, boss.
Yeah.
Thank you, Milan. I love you a lot. I'm sorry.
-You have to heal your ankle... -Crazy.
...and exercise your ankle and strengthen your body.
-Not today! -Yeah, every day!
I gave you the exercises to do, but you actually do have to do it every day.
And the days when you don't have a show, you have to almost do more.
Because you have to work out.
We're trying to make it so you don't get injured anymore.
We're trying to heal your body
so that you don't go on interviews and say "My body's broken."
We're gonna heal your body.
My body is always gonna be broken. Even if I heal it.
-No, it's not gonna be broken. -It will have been broken a million times.
But it can be healed.
When something breaks a bunch of times, it's broken.
But that's why you have to strengthen yourself.
Even if you fix it, it's still been broken.
You have to strengthen yourself.
I think I've got the start of the James Bond song.
It is called "No Time to Die"
because, like, that's just how you make an iconic song.
It's like, you just have it--
Yeah, yeah. I had some ideas on the plane too.
-I think it's not a sad Sam Smith ballad. -No.
I think it's, like, a fucking angry-ass song.
-Anyway, I love you. -I love you too!
Look at my ankle, bro. Crack!
Boom! Normal. Sad.
Happy. Sad. Happy. Sad.
We called Freddy in desperation, and he came to Barcelona
and saved the day.
We didn't realize that it was torn ligaments.
It was much more dire than we had thought.
Lie on your side.
Good. Off you go, up and down.
Relax.
That's it. Better.
I should have known
I'd leave alone
There you go.
Good. Try and hit me in the head with your knee.
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed Is just the blood you owe
We were a pair
But I saw you there
-Too much to bear -Let's swap sides.
You were my life But life is far away from fair
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That I'd fallen for a lie?
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die
I say just, "It's no time to die" at the end.
That works.
Sounds like a Bond song to me.
The greenroom will never be quiet enough.
So we're gonna just go sit on the bus.
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else--
Oh, my God. I hate this.
-What's wrong with it? -Was it obvious to everybody else
I hate this!
Billie, I don't want you to blow--
Why do people belt?
-It sound-- -Awful.
-It sounds great. -It sounds stupid.
No, it sounds great. You don't have to belt.
I'm gonna get made fun of by the Internet when I do it.
No, you're not.
The Internet is going to be mean if I do it.
I don't think so.
But I don't want you to hurt your voice before a show.
-How's your voice feeling? -Not good.
-Do you wanna stop? -No.
-Should you stop? -No.
Go again.
You were never on my side
Fool me on--
Okay, well. We have to send it in--
-I can try it. -We have to send it in tonight. So...
-Tonight? -Mm-hmm.
Like, be done for real, for real?
We don't have to send it in, like, here's--
here's the final production, final everything.
But we have to send them the song tonight.
Yep.
Told you not to worry
But maybe that's a lie
Ouch.
Honey, what's your hurry?
Won't you stay inside?
Remember not to get too close to stars
They're never gonna give you Love like ours
Where did you go? I should know, but it's cold
And I don't wanna be lonely So show me the way home
I can't lose another life
Hurry, I'm worried
The world's a little blurry
Or maybe it's my eyes
Thank you, Houston! We love you so much!
Fool me once Fool me twice
Are you death or paradise? Now you'll nev--
-Okay. -Great.
Can you believe we did a whole show today?
And also we wrote a lot of this song today.
And also it's midnight, and also we're recording. We really are millionaires.
That's not what that...
That, no-- That makes no sense at all.
It's just all true things.
"We really are millionaires." We're so not.
We have millions of dollars, but that does not make us millionaires.
Billie the millionaire.
-Millionaire. -She's dangerous, super bad
She's a gold digger
Oh, my God.
Goodbye from the both of us. Mwah.
300,000 people watched that shit. Why?
You do cover any number of topics, you know, that are difficult.
Whether it's, you know, depression, anxiety. Very personal topics.
Why be so transparent?
I never decided to.
I never was, like, "I'm gonna talk about this. And I'm gonna talk about this."
I just talked about what I was feeling.
And talked about why it was bad or why it was good
or why it was whatever.
And then it became this, like, "Oh, she's making a statement."
Which I actually love because I didn't realize I was.
And now that I think about it, like,
I realize how many people aren't talking about that kind of stuff
and why people are so, like, shocked when you do talk about it.
I'm like, "Why is that so shocking?
Like, I'm telling you, like, about how I am as a human.
Like, why is that weird?"
To be honest with you,
I didn't think I would make it to this age.
There's one page in-- Damn it. Look at that.
Wow, I was in such a bad place. Whoa.
Found it.
There it is.
This page, it was kinda, like, the peak, I would say.
I was, like, 14, 15.
I had razors hidden in places.
And I had Band-Aids hidden in a little corner of my room.
And I always had Band-Aids on my wrists.
I was literally locking myself in the bathroom
and making myself bleed 'cause I thought I deserved it, you know?
The full list of 62nd Grammy nominations are here.
Hi, love.
Good morning.
It's like Christmas morning.
But no presents.
No presents.
This is kind of a present. Do you wanna hear?
-Okay. -Morning, Bill.
"Nominations. Record of the Year:
'Bad Guy.'
Album of the Year"--
What album would that be?
Pepper's a bozo.
"When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?
Song of the Year: 'Bad Guy'. Best New Artist."
Why do you sound like that?
-"Best Pop Solo Performance..." -'Cause she's your mom.
"...and Best Pop Vocal Album."
And Producer of the Year would be your brother.
-Oh, he got it? -Yeah.
Yay! He was so anxious about that.
Hello, I'm putting you on the speaker phone.
You can talk to your sister.
Eilish.
Guess what you did.
Did you see?
You gotted what you wanted.
Billie, congratulations on being nominated for fucking everything.
-Yeah, yeah, yeah. -You too, Finneas.
-It's unreal. -I wanna make you some food, Billie.
I love you.
Taste me
The salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long headache
Does to you
I'm not okay I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me
Déjà vu
If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry
'Cause I'm leavin' soon
I'm nominated for six Grammys, and I have my dream car.
And Finneas has his dream car.
And it's raining.
And I have my pooch doggy in the car.
I had doughnuts last night.
I'm not in a relationship, thank the lords.
My relationship with my family is good.
I am pretty. Somewhat.
I am famous as fuck.
Life is good.
Who got nominated for a Grammy today?
Me and Finneas.
-Billie and Finneas. -I am nominated for six Grammys,
and we still are in the same stupid little backyard.
But that's nice, that's a nice thing.
I know, I'm joking. I think it's cute.
-Butterflies... -Yeah.
-All good. -You got this.
An incredible last year for you.
What does it mean to be at the Grammys, you grew up not far from here,
walking down this carpet going into the Staples Center tonight?
It's your first Grammys, and you have six nominations.
Billie, happy birthday.
-It's my birthday, I'm 18. -Happy birthday.
And the Grammy goes to...
"Bad Guy," by Billie Eilish.
Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow.
So, there's an artist called Billie Eilish.
She recently came out with an album that is completely satanic.
And the Grammy goes to...
Billie Eilish!
Oh, gee.
Thank you.
Two.
Director, Billie Eilish.
Look at that.
Put your feet down flat.
Yeah, like, let it come onto your foot.
Yes!
And the Grammy goes to...
Billie Eilish!
Let's go.
I-- I love you. Thank you for this.
Yeah!
Whoa, okay.
And the Grammy goes to...
"Bad Guy," Billie Eilish.
-Thank you. -Thank you.
Bye!
We made this album in a bedroom at our house that we grew up in.
And it was mastered in somebody's living room,
so it's really like anything is possible.
Best New Artist, Album of the Year, Song of the Year,
Record of the Year, Pop Vocal Album, Producer of the Year.
If the instruments weren't in the house that you guys were growing up in,
would you have still made music?
I don't know. Our parents were really good about listening to what we wanted
and never forcing anything on us.
I think we grew up in such a way
that made us feel like we could just do and be whatever we wanted.
They just supported it.
Hey, Rob! There he is.
Answer it.
Oh, my--
Congrats.
-Thank you! -How you feeling?
I'm good.
I'm good. How are you?
Wasn't it amazing? How did it feel? Everything you could've imagined or what?
Yes, completely. I can't believe it. It's insane.
That's awesome. I'm so proud-- I'm proud of you.
Thank you.
You've been working hard for this.
Thanks to you.
Stop it.
How are you? Are you good?
I'm really good, yeah.
Where's your brother, by the way?
-Finneas? -Finneas?
-I have no pants on. -But it's Justin Bieber.
Quicker, quicker.
Hey, Justin.
Hey, man. Congrats, bro.
Thank you. That is so nice of you.
All those long nights writing those songs, bro.
And you're at the freaking Grammys crushing it.
All right, I don't wanna, you know...
I want you guys to go enjoy yourselves.
We will. I'm-- This is crazy. Thank you for calling me. I love you.
Love you too. Bye.
Bye!
-I've never... -Fallen from quite this high
Fallin' into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
Thanks. Bye. See you next year.