1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:02:10,784 --> 00:02:12,878 This is a diary... 4 00:02:12,953 --> 00:02:14,387 of... 5 00:02:15,689 --> 00:02:17,681 hate. 6 00:02:22,229 --> 00:02:24,994 And perhaps I wouldn't be writing it... 7 00:02:25,065 --> 00:02:29,161 if some devil hadn't made me stop him that night... 8 00:02:29,236 --> 00:02:31,762 in the rain. 9 00:02:31,838 --> 00:02:33,932 You want to drown, Henry? 10 00:02:37,310 --> 00:02:39,506 I wanted a bit of air. 11 00:02:40,580 --> 00:02:42,515 How nice to see you, Bendrix. 12 00:02:42,582 --> 00:02:45,017 How long has it been? A year? 13 00:02:46,119 --> 00:02:48,179 June, 1944. 14 00:02:48,255 --> 00:02:50,918 As long as that? 15 00:02:50,991 --> 00:02:53,392 How's Sarah? 16 00:02:53,460 --> 00:02:55,861 Oh, she's out and about somewhere. 17 00:02:55,929 --> 00:02:57,864 She at the cinema? 18 00:02:59,065 --> 00:03:01,193 No, she never goes. 19 00:03:03,170 --> 00:03:04,866 Oh, good night, Henry. 20 00:03:05,972 --> 00:03:08,703 You should go home before you catch your death. 21 00:03:12,179 --> 00:03:14,114 Is something wrong? 22 00:03:18,418 --> 00:03:20,353 Let me take you home, Henry. 23 00:03:22,923 --> 00:03:25,984 Or perhaps I wouldn't be writing this... 24 00:03:26,059 --> 00:03:29,029 if I had known then who I hated. 25 00:03:29,095 --> 00:03:32,190 Was it Henry? Was it his wife Sarah? 26 00:03:33,567 --> 00:03:37,561 Or was it some other who was yet to be revealed to me? 27 00:03:40,440 --> 00:03:42,341 Sarah? 28 00:03:48,148 --> 00:03:50,242 See? She's out still. 29 00:03:58,325 --> 00:03:59,759 Come upstairs. 30 00:04:23,450 --> 00:04:25,851 Come in. Let me get you a drink. 31 00:04:25,919 --> 00:04:28,514 Whiskey, thank you. 32 00:04:28,588 --> 00:04:30,022 Whiskey. 33 00:04:39,332 --> 00:04:41,892 So what's troubling you, Henry? 34 00:04:43,503 --> 00:04:45,870 Sarah. 35 00:04:57,017 --> 00:04:59,646 She's out for a walk now, Bendrix. 36 00:05:04,157 --> 00:05:06,149 A walk. 37 00:05:06,226 --> 00:05:08,991 Well, she always was a great walker. 38 00:05:23,843 --> 00:05:26,005 Jealousy's a terrible thing. 39 00:05:27,447 --> 00:05:29,678 Well, you know you can trust me, Henry. 40 00:05:32,285 --> 00:05:35,619 You know, I went so far... 41 00:05:35,689 --> 00:05:38,625 as to get the name of a private detective. 42 00:05:40,327 --> 00:05:44,196 You think she's seeing someone? 43 00:05:44,264 --> 00:05:46,392 - Of course you think me a fool. - No, Henry. 44 00:05:47,667 --> 00:05:49,863 I don't think you're a fool. 45 00:05:51,071 --> 00:05:53,540 - You mean you think it's possible? - Of course. 46 00:05:53,607 --> 00:05:55,735 Sarah's human. 47 00:05:58,912 --> 00:06:00,346 Can't sleep. 48 00:06:03,116 --> 00:06:05,142 Keep picking up... 49 00:06:05,218 --> 00:06:08,950 this wretched card. 50 00:06:11,391 --> 00:06:12,484 Burn it. 51 00:06:12,559 --> 00:06:15,859 - I wish I could. - Then go see what's-his-name, Savage? 52 00:06:15,929 --> 00:06:18,728 And sit where all the jealous husbands sit? 53 00:06:20,634 --> 00:06:22,967 Do you think they have a waiting room, Bendrix... 54 00:06:23,036 --> 00:06:25,733 where we see each other's faces as we pass through? 55 00:06:25,805 --> 00:06:27,706 Why not let me go, Henry? 56 00:06:29,409 --> 00:06:30,934 - You? - Yes. 57 00:06:31,011 --> 00:06:34,277 I could pretend to be a jealous lover. 58 00:06:34,347 --> 00:06:37,681 Jealous lovers are less ridiculous than jealous husbands. 59 00:06:37,751 --> 00:06:40,243 They're supported by the weight of literature. 60 00:06:40,320 --> 00:06:43,586 Tragic, never comic. Think of Troilus. 61 00:06:43,657 --> 00:06:48,061 Well, I shan't lose my amour propre when I interview Mr. Savage. 62 00:06:49,429 --> 00:06:50,522 This is ridiculous. 63 00:06:50,597 --> 00:06:52,532 One can't spy on one's wife through a friend... 64 00:06:52,599 --> 00:06:54,534 and have the friend pretend to be her lover. 65 00:06:54,601 --> 00:06:57,935 - What else are friends for? - You're a good chap, Bendrix. 66 00:06:58,004 --> 00:07:00,166 All I needed was to talk, clear my head. 67 00:07:00,240 --> 00:07:03,301 The name was Savage, and the address was 3 Vigo Passage. 68 00:07:03,376 --> 00:07:06,312 Forget what I've told you. Doesn't make sense. I'll see a doctor. 69 00:07:09,015 --> 00:07:10,950 That was the door. Sarah's come in. 70 00:07:12,118 --> 00:07:14,986 It's the maid. She's been to the pictures. 71 00:07:15,055 --> 00:07:17,286 No, it was Sarah's step. 72 00:07:20,794 --> 00:07:22,956 Sarah, darling. 73 00:07:23,029 --> 00:07:25,396 Henry. 74 00:07:26,866 --> 00:07:29,165 - You--Is that you? - Been out for a walk? 75 00:07:29,235 --> 00:07:31,795 - Yes. - It's a filthy night. 76 00:07:31,871 --> 00:07:35,137 You're wet through, Sarah. One day you'll catch your death of cold. 77 00:07:37,177 --> 00:07:38,611 Good night. 78 00:07:43,650 --> 00:07:46,245 Their marriage was conventional... 79 00:07:46,319 --> 00:07:48,515 like their well-appointed house. 80 00:07:48,588 --> 00:07:51,752 And I liked them both the first night we met... 81 00:07:51,825 --> 00:07:55,921 drinking bad South African sherry because of the war in Spain. 82 00:07:57,163 --> 00:07:58,654 Good evening, sir. 83 00:07:58,732 --> 00:08:00,667 - May I take your hat? - Thank you. 84 00:08:00,734 --> 00:08:02,669 Mr. Miles is upstairs. 85 00:08:10,043 --> 00:08:11,341 Sherry, sir? 86 00:08:11,411 --> 00:08:12,936 Thank you. 87 00:08:13,012 --> 00:08:14,947 She seemed restless. 88 00:08:16,449 --> 00:08:19,078 In the summer of 1939... 89 00:08:19,152 --> 00:08:23,021 the whole of London was restless in the face of the coming storm. 90 00:08:36,102 --> 00:08:38,196 How nice of you to come. 91 00:08:40,206 --> 00:08:43,370 Sarah, this is our neighbor, the novelist chap. 92 00:08:43,443 --> 00:08:45,469 What on earth is a novelist doing here? 93 00:08:45,545 --> 00:08:46,706 - Research. - On what? 94 00:08:46,780 --> 00:08:48,146 On your husband. 95 00:08:48,214 --> 00:08:51,878 I'm trying to write a character who works for the Ministry of Pensions. 96 00:08:51,951 --> 00:08:54,682 I need to find out his habits, what he drinks before bedtime. 97 00:08:54,754 --> 00:08:56,347 - Cocoa. - And when. 98 00:08:56,422 --> 00:08:58,687 11:00, isn't it, Sarah? Unless we're entertaining. 99 00:08:59,893 --> 00:09:02,624 Would you be so kind as to excuse your character? 100 00:09:02,695 --> 00:09:05,221 - The ministry needs him. - Unfortunately it does. 101 00:09:07,133 --> 00:09:08,692 - So tell me. - What? 102 00:09:08,768 --> 00:09:11,135 - His secrets. - Henry's a good man. 103 00:09:11,204 --> 00:09:13,571 - Good men have no secrets. - I was afraid you'd say that. 104 00:09:13,640 --> 00:09:16,576 You see, goodness has so little fictional value. 105 00:09:16,643 --> 00:09:18,339 What does have fictional value? 106 00:09:18,411 --> 00:09:21,904 - A minister of Home Security. - Are you saying my husband is fiction? 107 00:09:21,981 --> 00:09:24,780 I'm saying he could be, in the right hands. 108 00:09:24,851 --> 00:09:27,251 Oh, dear. This is alarming. Can we get away from the service? 109 00:09:27,287 --> 00:09:31,054 - You mean change the subject? - I meant fresh air actually. 110 00:09:31,124 --> 00:09:32,217 Of course. 111 00:09:34,093 --> 00:09:37,120 - So how long have you been married? - Is your character married? 112 00:09:37,197 --> 00:09:39,928 Yes, he's been married happily for ten years. 113 00:09:39,999 --> 00:09:42,935 Henry's the perfect model then. We've been married ten years. 114 00:09:43,002 --> 00:09:44,129 You know that... 115 00:09:44,204 --> 00:09:47,072 happiness is even harder to write than goodness. 116 00:09:47,140 --> 00:09:50,201 Henry prefers habit to happiness. 117 00:09:53,079 --> 00:09:57,073 - I'll give them to you to sign. - We were discussing the house, darling. 118 00:09:58,351 --> 00:10:00,877 Let me fill that for you. 119 00:10:00,954 --> 00:10:03,389 - It's a lovely house. - My wife found it. 120 00:10:03,456 --> 00:10:05,391 And your wife is charming. 121 00:10:05,458 --> 00:10:07,791 - She's a great help to me. - Yes, I'm sure. 122 00:10:07,861 --> 00:10:10,456 They've made a picture of one of your books, haven't they? 123 00:10:10,530 --> 00:10:13,694 Yes, it's playing at the Rialto. 124 00:10:13,766 --> 00:10:16,964 - I'll take you both. - Far too busy for pictures, I'm afraid. 125 00:10:17,036 --> 00:10:18,629 Should I make a note of that? 126 00:10:18,705 --> 00:10:20,867 Make sure your character never gets home before 10:00. 127 00:10:20,940 --> 00:10:23,671 - Come out, Henry, for once? - You know I can't, darling. 128 00:10:23,743 --> 00:10:26,542 But you go. Take her, Bendrix. 129 00:10:26,613 --> 00:10:29,344 - Sarah, one has to insist. - Henry. 130 00:10:29,415 --> 00:10:32,214 - Where are you going? - To see wonder. 131 00:10:32,285 --> 00:10:35,551 - But you promised. - Murderer's promises keep. 132 00:10:40,093 --> 00:10:43,655 - It's not what I wrote, you know. - You can't keep saying that. 133 00:10:43,730 --> 00:10:46,325 - It's true. - I know. 134 00:10:56,910 --> 00:10:59,311 There was one scene you did write. 135 00:10:59,379 --> 00:11:00,870 Describe it. 136 00:11:00,947 --> 00:11:03,439 Where he offered her onions with her meal. 137 00:11:03,516 --> 00:11:06,509 She refused because her husband didn't like the smell. 138 00:11:06,586 --> 00:11:08,350 He got angry. 139 00:11:09,923 --> 00:11:11,892 And why did he get angry? 140 00:11:14,827 --> 00:11:18,025 He didn't want to think of her going home to him. 141 00:11:25,438 --> 00:11:26,997 Does Henry like onions? 142 00:11:28,007 --> 00:11:29,441 No. 143 00:11:54,300 --> 00:11:56,735 I'm in love, you know. 144 00:11:58,471 --> 00:11:59,905 Me too. 145 00:12:07,146 --> 00:12:08,580 Susan? 146 00:13:10,143 --> 00:13:11,634 Come upstairs. 147 00:14:58,451 --> 00:14:59,885 Sarah? 148 00:15:07,593 --> 00:15:09,528 One minute, dear. 149 00:15:12,064 --> 00:15:14,761 What if he heard? 150 00:15:14,834 --> 00:15:17,065 He wouldn't recognize the sound. 151 00:15:32,051 --> 00:15:34,418 - Sarah, you been eating onions? - Sorry, darling. 152 00:15:35,788 --> 00:15:37,723 So, Bendrix, how was the picture? 153 00:15:37,790 --> 00:15:39,725 Up to scratch? 154 00:15:42,595 --> 00:15:45,759 Of course, as she began to love me... 155 00:15:45,831 --> 00:15:48,699 she learned to deceive Henry. 156 00:15:48,768 --> 00:15:52,967 So why was I upset to find that two years later... 157 00:15:53,039 --> 00:15:55,804 she was deceiving him again? 158 00:16:06,285 --> 00:16:10,188 Mr. Bendrix, I assume we are discussing Mrs. Bendrix. 159 00:16:10,256 --> 00:16:13,988 Not exactly. She's the wife of a friend of mine. 160 00:16:14,060 --> 00:16:16,996 Perhaps you and the lady are intimate? 161 00:16:17,063 --> 00:16:18,497 No. 162 00:16:18,564 --> 00:16:21,796 I've only seen her once since 1944. 163 00:16:21,867 --> 00:16:23,893 I don't understand. 164 00:16:23,970 --> 00:16:26,166 You said this was a watching case. 165 00:16:30,042 --> 00:16:33,274 Can't one love or hate as long as that? 166 00:16:34,180 --> 00:16:37,150 There's nothing discreditable about jealousy, Mr. Bendrix. 167 00:16:38,150 --> 00:16:40,745 I always salute it as the mark of true love. 168 00:16:40,820 --> 00:16:44,552 I've come on behalf of the husband. He thinks she's deceiving him. 169 00:16:44,624 --> 00:16:48,322 - She has secrets. - Ah, secrets. 170 00:16:48,394 --> 00:16:51,694 - Yes. - There may be nothing in it, of course. 171 00:16:51,764 --> 00:16:54,256 In my experience, Mr. Bendrix... 172 00:16:54,333 --> 00:16:56,632 there almost invariably is. 173 00:16:57,970 --> 00:16:59,905 Shall my man report to you or the husband? 174 00:16:59,972 --> 00:17:01,065 To me. 175 00:17:01,140 --> 00:17:03,371 He must know nothing about it. 176 00:17:06,112 --> 00:17:08,047 Most interesting case. 177 00:17:09,181 --> 00:17:13,209 All my men use great discretion. I will put one on it immediately. 178 00:17:13,286 --> 00:17:17,417 And he will do his damndest to put your mind at rest. 179 00:17:19,392 --> 00:17:21,327 Or should I say the husband's? 180 00:17:41,681 --> 00:17:43,582 Hello? 181 00:17:45,651 --> 00:17:48,416 Good. Yes, it was good to see you. 182 00:17:49,889 --> 00:17:52,358 Yes, how long has it been? Two years. 183 00:17:52,425 --> 00:17:54,360 As long as that? 184 00:17:54,427 --> 00:17:57,090 Well, you were always better at anniversaries than me. 185 00:17:58,431 --> 00:18:01,265 You want to meet? Well, whatever for? 186 00:18:03,035 --> 00:18:06,096 Not tomorrow, no. I've got this article. 187 00:18:07,673 --> 00:18:09,938 Wednesday? Let me check. 188 00:18:15,214 --> 00:18:17,149 Would Thursday do? 189 00:18:18,417 --> 00:18:20,943 Good. The Park Lane Hotel at 1:00? 190 00:18:36,469 --> 00:18:39,701 It was odd to think that during the war... 191 00:18:39,772 --> 00:18:42,742 we could be so totally at peace. 192 00:18:42,808 --> 00:18:45,505 There were nights when I wished those sirens... 193 00:18:45,578 --> 00:18:47,513 would never end. 194 00:19:16,142 --> 00:19:18,543 Tell me again. 195 00:19:18,611 --> 00:19:20,637 I love you. 196 00:19:23,549 --> 00:19:25,643 And I always will. 197 00:19:42,701 --> 00:19:46,297 I'm sorry I'm late. I came by tube, but it was crowded. 198 00:19:46,372 --> 00:19:48,307 Well, taxi is quicker. 199 00:19:48,374 --> 00:19:50,866 I know. Didn't want to be quick. 200 00:19:53,145 --> 00:19:55,080 I booked a table at Palmer's. 201 00:20:00,052 --> 00:20:02,385 Can't we stay here? 202 00:20:02,455 --> 00:20:05,687 Well, it's where we always used to go. 203 00:20:05,758 --> 00:20:08,057 You see, I've never been back there. 204 00:20:09,128 --> 00:20:11,222 Well, it was never your restaurant, was it? 205 00:20:11,297 --> 00:20:14,233 - So you still go there? - Yeah, two or three times a week. 206 00:20:14,300 --> 00:20:16,235 It's convenient. 207 00:20:17,536 --> 00:20:18,970 Let's go. 208 00:20:23,809 --> 00:20:25,744 Thank you. Thanks. 209 00:20:27,313 --> 00:20:29,273 - Sorry about that. - That's quite all right, sir. 210 00:20:29,315 --> 00:20:31,113 Got my hand caught in the way. 211 00:20:51,370 --> 00:20:53,896 Such a pleasure to see you, sir. 212 00:20:53,973 --> 00:20:56,636 It's been so long, I thought you'd forgotten us. 213 00:20:56,709 --> 00:20:59,543 - I was afraid you'd say that. - And you, ma'am. 214 00:20:59,612 --> 00:21:02,776 - It's been a long time too. - Two years, Alfred. 215 00:21:07,253 --> 00:21:10,087 - There. - Thank you. 216 00:21:21,867 --> 00:21:23,836 Why did you lie? 217 00:21:23,903 --> 00:21:26,771 - About my coming here? - Yes. 218 00:21:26,839 --> 00:21:29,308 Why did you want to meet? 219 00:21:31,544 --> 00:21:34,446 I wanted to ask you about Henry. 220 00:21:34,513 --> 00:21:35,947 Henry. 221 00:21:37,483 --> 00:21:39,611 I'm worried about him. 222 00:21:39,685 --> 00:21:41,984 How did you find him the other night? 223 00:21:42,054 --> 00:21:44,990 - Was he strange at all? - I didn't notice anything wrong. 224 00:21:46,492 --> 00:21:50,259 I wanted to ask you-- I know you're very busy-- 225 00:21:50,329 --> 00:21:52,628 whether you could look him up occasionally. 226 00:21:52,698 --> 00:21:54,758 I think he's lonely. 227 00:21:54,833 --> 00:21:56,825 With you? 228 00:21:56,902 --> 00:21:59,133 You know he's never really noticed me... 229 00:21:59,204 --> 00:22:01,139 not for years. 230 00:22:02,508 --> 00:22:05,171 Maybe you've given him reason. 231 00:22:06,378 --> 00:22:08,506 What reason could I give? 232 00:22:12,184 --> 00:22:14,847 What reason did you give me? 233 00:22:18,791 --> 00:22:20,225 None. 234 00:22:23,529 --> 00:22:25,498 - Are you on a new book? - Of course. 235 00:22:25,564 --> 00:22:28,500 It's not about us, is it? The one you threatened to write. 236 00:22:28,567 --> 00:22:32,368 A book takes a year to write. It's too hard work for revenge. 237 00:22:32,438 --> 00:22:34,703 If you knew how little you had to revenge. 238 00:22:34,773 --> 00:22:38,437 I'm joking. Yeah, we had a good time together. 239 00:22:38,510 --> 00:22:41,776 We're adults, and we knew it had to end sometime. 240 00:22:41,847 --> 00:22:45,375 And now we can lunch and talk about Henry. 241 00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:56,253 I'm sorry. 242 00:22:56,328 --> 00:22:59,890 This was stupid, and I really shouldn't have called. 243 00:22:59,965 --> 00:23:02,196 That cough needs attending to. 244 00:23:02,267 --> 00:23:04,827 It's only a cough. 245 00:23:04,903 --> 00:23:06,531 Good-bye, Maurice. 246 00:23:06,605 --> 00:23:08,039 Good-bye. 247 00:23:15,047 --> 00:23:16,572 - Your menu, sir. - Thank you. 248 00:23:21,887 --> 00:23:25,722 I'm sorry, but you have to realize I'm jealous of everything that moves. 249 00:23:25,791 --> 00:23:29,421 - I'm jealous of the rain. - How can you be jealous of the rain? 250 00:23:48,047 --> 00:23:50,516 Where did you get it? 251 00:23:50,582 --> 00:23:52,210 Spain. 252 00:23:52,284 --> 00:23:54,719 That was my war, I'm afraid. 253 00:23:54,787 --> 00:23:56,881 It finished me off for this one. 254 00:23:56,955 --> 00:23:59,925 You were shot. How romantic. 255 00:23:59,992 --> 00:24:03,588 Not really. They put a pin inside me. 256 00:24:03,662 --> 00:24:07,360 I wondered about the limp. Could I grow to love it? 257 00:24:07,433 --> 00:24:09,595 And have you? 258 00:24:09,668 --> 00:24:13,469 I have never, ever loved anyone as much as you. 259 00:24:34,693 --> 00:24:36,252 Yes? 260 00:24:37,396 --> 00:24:40,161 A Mr. Parkis to see you, sir. 261 00:24:40,232 --> 00:24:41,996 Show him in. 262 00:24:42,067 --> 00:24:44,002 This way, please. 263 00:24:48,507 --> 00:24:51,841 - I'll be with you in a minute, Mr.-- - The name's Parkis. 264 00:24:52,978 --> 00:24:55,641 Mr. Savage's man. 265 00:24:55,714 --> 00:24:58,707 Sit down. Take a cigarette. 266 00:24:58,784 --> 00:25:00,980 Oh, no, sir. Not on duty, sir. 267 00:25:01,053 --> 00:25:03,113 Unless, of course, for purposes of concealment. 268 00:25:03,188 --> 00:25:05,123 But you're not on duty now. 269 00:25:05,190 --> 00:25:07,523 Well, in a manner of speaking, yes, sir. 270 00:25:07,593 --> 00:25:10,859 I've just been relieved for half an hour while I make my report. 271 00:25:12,364 --> 00:25:15,357 So there's something to report? 272 00:25:15,434 --> 00:25:17,460 It's not quite a blank sheet, sir. 273 00:25:20,405 --> 00:25:22,340 Have me met somewhere before, sir? 274 00:25:24,076 --> 00:25:26,068 I don't think so. 275 00:25:30,415 --> 00:25:33,613 Well, like I say, sir... 276 00:25:33,685 --> 00:25:35,847 it's not quite a blank sheet. 277 00:25:35,921 --> 00:25:37,856 But then it never is. 278 00:25:40,459 --> 00:25:43,293 Me and my boy, we followed the-- 279 00:25:43,362 --> 00:25:45,354 Your boy? 280 00:25:45,430 --> 00:25:48,093 My son, sir. 281 00:25:48,167 --> 00:25:51,535 Yeah, I'm teaching him the business. 282 00:25:51,603 --> 00:25:54,732 I mean, a boy can be useful in all sorts of ways. 283 00:25:55,841 --> 00:25:59,710 On the day in question, the party in question went by tube to Piccadilly... 284 00:26:00,979 --> 00:26:03,346 and proceeded to the Park Lane Hotel. 285 00:26:03,415 --> 00:26:05,907 She seemed quite agitated. 286 00:26:07,319 --> 00:26:10,118 And there met a gentleman with whom she was obviously quite close... 287 00:26:10,189 --> 00:26:14,388 since they greeted each other with an affectionate lack of ceremony... 288 00:26:14,459 --> 00:26:16,052 and at one point-- 289 00:26:16,128 --> 00:26:19,690 although I cannot be certain of this-- held hands along the bar. 290 00:26:20,999 --> 00:26:23,833 - They held hands? - Yes, sir. 291 00:26:23,902 --> 00:26:26,303 Gentleman pushed the lady's glass towards her... 292 00:26:26,371 --> 00:26:27,464 and... 293 00:26:27,539 --> 00:26:30,134 the hand sort of stayed there... 294 00:26:30,209 --> 00:26:31,802 for some time. 295 00:26:31,877 --> 00:26:34,108 Which generally indicates a squeeze of that nature. 296 00:26:36,515 --> 00:26:39,610 After a short conversation, they proceeded to a restaurant... 297 00:26:39,685 --> 00:26:41,278 called... 298 00:26:41,353 --> 00:26:42,878 Palmer's... 299 00:26:42,955 --> 00:26:46,084 which was difficult to gain access to, me being with the boy and all. 300 00:26:46,158 --> 00:26:48,093 But I observed them through the window. 301 00:26:49,061 --> 00:26:52,122 And after a while, the lady left... 302 00:26:52,197 --> 00:26:54,757 laboring-- well, it seemed to me-- 303 00:26:54,833 --> 00:26:56,961 under great emotion. 304 00:26:57,035 --> 00:26:59,937 Great emotion. You're sure of that? 305 00:27:00,005 --> 00:27:01,940 Oh, without doubt, sir. 306 00:27:02,007 --> 00:27:05,102 Then I followed her down Charing Cross Road to Maiden Lane... 307 00:27:05,177 --> 00:27:09,478 where she turned into a church for what I can only presume was a good cry. 308 00:27:11,350 --> 00:27:13,319 She's not a Roman, is she, sir? 309 00:27:13,385 --> 00:27:14,819 No. 310 00:27:14,887 --> 00:27:16,412 Thought not. 311 00:27:16,488 --> 00:27:19,253 She didn't kneel, sir, but sat. 312 00:27:19,324 --> 00:27:21,884 From the angle of her face, I could tell... 313 00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:24,395 tears were an issue. 314 00:27:24,463 --> 00:27:27,399 - Forgive the personal touch. - Of course. 315 00:27:29,201 --> 00:27:32,797 You see, I liked the lady. The party in question. 316 00:27:32,871 --> 00:27:35,966 As did I, but you were wrong about the hands. 317 00:27:36,041 --> 00:27:38,340 The hands, sir? 318 00:27:38,410 --> 00:27:41,175 We never so much as touched hands. 319 00:27:43,282 --> 00:27:44,375 Oh, dear. 320 00:27:44,449 --> 00:27:48,079 - I have made a fool of myself. - Sarah has that effect. 321 00:27:48,153 --> 00:27:51,419 Mr. Savage should have introduced us. 322 00:27:51,490 --> 00:27:53,755 Oh, no, sir. 323 00:27:53,825 --> 00:27:56,818 - It was up to me. - Well, it's not serious. 324 00:27:56,895 --> 00:28:00,423 If you look at it from the outside, it's quite funny. 325 00:28:00,499 --> 00:28:02,695 But I'm on the inside, sir. 326 00:28:03,936 --> 00:28:07,464 It's not Mr. Savage I'm worried about so much. It's my boy, sir. 327 00:28:08,941 --> 00:28:12,901 - When I tell him you're the husband-- - But you're wrong. 328 00:28:12,978 --> 00:28:15,311 I'm acting on the husband's behalf. 329 00:28:15,380 --> 00:28:18,214 So you've requested an investigation yourself? 330 00:28:18,283 --> 00:28:20,718 That's an interesting paradox. 331 00:28:20,786 --> 00:28:23,026 But who's the wronged party then, sir, if you'll forgive? 332 00:28:26,825 --> 00:28:27,918 Pardon me, sir. 333 00:28:29,528 --> 00:28:32,020 I am slow in such matters. 334 00:28:32,097 --> 00:28:35,590 Both you and the husband have been supplanted in the lady's affections by-- 335 00:28:35,667 --> 00:28:37,101 Another? 336 00:28:39,204 --> 00:28:41,901 Try to think of it the way I do, Mr. Parkis. 337 00:28:43,909 --> 00:28:46,845 Jealousy can only exist with desire. 338 00:28:47,913 --> 00:28:51,111 You are on a hunt for desire. 339 00:28:51,183 --> 00:28:53,743 Just regard yourself as its servant. 340 00:28:55,087 --> 00:28:57,750 Of course, sir. That's my job. 341 00:28:58,590 --> 00:29:00,024 Thank you. 342 00:29:11,336 --> 00:29:13,771 The vicarious lover, Parkis. 343 00:29:15,007 --> 00:29:17,340 - Good night, sir. - Good night. 344 00:29:25,083 --> 00:29:27,985 I wondered how much of her he could reclaim for me. 345 00:29:29,287 --> 00:29:32,155 And, for a moment, I wished I was him... 346 00:29:32,224 --> 00:29:35,251 shining his searchlight around her world. 347 00:29:41,933 --> 00:29:44,732 I am a jealous man. 348 00:29:58,216 --> 00:30:01,448 - I'm jealous of this stocking. - Why? 349 00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:03,716 'Cause it does what I can't. 350 00:30:04,823 --> 00:30:06,758 It kisses your whole leg. 351 00:30:09,761 --> 00:30:13,323 And I'm jealous of this button. 352 00:30:13,398 --> 00:30:16,857 - Poor, innocent button. - It's not innocent at all. 353 00:30:18,236 --> 00:30:21,638 It's with you all day, and I'm not. 354 00:30:27,479 --> 00:30:30,313 - I suppose you're jealous of my shoes. - Yes. 355 00:30:31,383 --> 00:30:32,976 Why? 356 00:30:34,453 --> 00:30:36,479 Because they'll take you away from me. 357 00:30:38,590 --> 00:30:41,890 I measured love by the extent of my jealousy. 358 00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:43,724 And as my jealousy was infinite... 359 00:30:43,795 --> 00:30:45,730 Anyone who loves is jealous. 360 00:30:45,797 --> 00:30:48,028 my love should have been infinite too. 361 00:30:48,100 --> 00:30:52,333 I hate you being unhappy. I don't mind anything you do that makes you happy. 362 00:30:52,404 --> 00:30:54,749 - If I slept with someone else? - That's neither here nor there. 363 00:30:54,773 --> 00:30:56,708 I want you to be happy, that's all. 364 00:30:56,775 --> 00:30:58,710 Maybe you'd want an excuse to do the same. 365 00:30:58,777 --> 00:31:00,939 - I never would. - But you do. 366 00:31:01,012 --> 00:31:04,005 - Do what? - Sleep with someone else. 367 00:31:04,082 --> 00:31:07,052 You mean Henry? How can anyone be jealous of Henry? 368 00:31:07,119 --> 00:31:09,816 He has you. I don't. 369 00:31:09,888 --> 00:31:11,823 We inhabit the same house. 370 00:31:11,890 --> 00:31:15,691 That's all. You know that. I'm the shadow he walks around. 371 00:31:15,760 --> 00:31:17,558 And I love you. 372 00:31:17,629 --> 00:31:20,565 I would rather be dead or see you dead than with another man. 373 00:31:20,632 --> 00:31:23,830 I will never, ever be with another man. 374 00:31:23,902 --> 00:31:27,930 You may see me dead, but I will never be with another man. 375 00:31:28,006 --> 00:31:30,407 - We should go down to the shelter. - Stay here, Sarah. 376 00:31:30,475 --> 00:31:32,453 If a bomb hit us now, think of what wouldn't happen. 377 00:31:32,477 --> 00:31:35,709 - What wouldn't happen? - You wouldn't go back to Henry. 378 00:31:35,780 --> 00:31:37,715 I would never imagine another lover. 379 00:31:37,782 --> 00:31:41,082 - My jealousy would end. - Would that make you happy? 380 00:33:13,011 --> 00:33:14,946 Do you believe me now? 381 00:33:21,886 --> 00:33:24,913 But sadly, I didn't believe her. 382 00:33:24,990 --> 00:33:27,687 There was a devil in my mind that would never let me. 383 00:33:28,760 --> 00:33:32,197 And now I had Parkis' boy playing the devil's game. 384 00:35:13,164 --> 00:35:14,564 My boy managed to gain access, sir. 385 00:35:15,633 --> 00:35:19,195 Remarkably useful he can be. I call that Exhibit "A." 386 00:35:19,270 --> 00:35:24,174 They say a promise is forever, but I don't know if I can keep this one. 387 00:35:24,242 --> 00:35:27,508 He killed me with jealousy. You're killing me with love. 388 00:35:27,579 --> 00:35:30,845 So he's got the scent too, Parkis. 389 00:35:30,915 --> 00:35:33,282 - What scent? - The scent of love. 390 00:35:33,351 --> 00:35:36,378 Stalking it like a retriever. 391 00:35:36,454 --> 00:35:39,549 Well, he's remarkably persistent, sir. 392 00:35:39,624 --> 00:35:43,459 He observed the party in question, then in a state of partial undress... 393 00:35:43,528 --> 00:35:45,929 with an unidentified male. 394 00:35:45,997 --> 00:35:48,466 - Where? - In the bedroom, sir. 395 00:35:48,533 --> 00:35:51,526 The male party then closed the door, and my boy made his exit. 396 00:35:51,603 --> 00:35:54,835 The implications, and I think you would agree, is that... 397 00:35:54,906 --> 00:35:57,205 intimacy was... 398 00:35:58,143 --> 00:35:59,702 imminent. 399 00:35:59,778 --> 00:36:01,940 Indeed. Who is he? 400 00:36:02,013 --> 00:36:04,346 Here, sir, is where progress was definitely made. 401 00:36:05,150 --> 00:36:08,450 As my boy left, he glanced at the appointment book in the front hallway. 402 00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:12,958 The party in question had a dental appointment at 3:30 the following day. 403 00:36:13,024 --> 00:36:15,493 In fact, she visited at 3:30... 404 00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:19,725 a premises on 65 Cedar Road where no dentist sign was in evidence. 405 00:36:39,350 --> 00:36:41,512 A Mr. Smythe owns the premises, sir. 406 00:36:41,586 --> 00:36:44,420 Smythe, with a "Y"? 407 00:36:44,489 --> 00:36:47,653 Yes, sir. S-M-Y-T-H-E. 408 00:36:48,760 --> 00:36:51,025 And... 409 00:36:51,095 --> 00:36:52,529 no-- 410 00:36:54,299 --> 00:36:58,168 Though we have no evidence of intimacy... 411 00:36:58,236 --> 00:37:00,296 the implication is clearly there. 412 00:37:00,371 --> 00:37:02,306 How is it there? 413 00:37:02,373 --> 00:37:04,433 Why the fictitious dental appointment, sir? 414 00:37:07,378 --> 00:37:09,006 Exhibit "B." 415 00:37:09,080 --> 00:37:11,015 My boy took that. 416 00:37:13,117 --> 00:37:16,053 The party in question emerged two hours later. 417 00:37:16,120 --> 00:37:19,386 Passage of time being amply sufficient for... 418 00:37:19,457 --> 00:37:21,119 intimacy to have taken place. 419 00:37:22,193 --> 00:37:24,685 The courts generally demand at least an hour, sir. 420 00:37:25,830 --> 00:37:29,460 Now, my boy would have provided us with photos of her reemergence... 421 00:37:29,534 --> 00:37:32,470 but for the unfortunate occurrence of him... 422 00:37:32,537 --> 00:37:33,971 falling asleep. 423 00:37:39,244 --> 00:37:41,736 Luckily, sir, the party in question... 424 00:37:41,813 --> 00:37:44,282 mistook him for an abandoned urchin... 425 00:37:44,349 --> 00:37:46,393 woke him up and led him to the nearest tube station... 426 00:37:46,417 --> 00:37:49,581 so that the time of reemergence is definitely established... 427 00:37:49,654 --> 00:37:53,386 as was an acquaintance which may have its uses in the future, for all we know. 428 00:37:54,359 --> 00:37:57,295 So should I walk in and confront him like an injured husband? 429 00:37:57,362 --> 00:38:00,958 I'm against it, sir. It complicates things in the courts. 430 00:38:01,032 --> 00:38:02,967 This will never reach court. 431 00:38:03,034 --> 00:38:06,163 - An amicable settlement then. - There's lack of interest. 432 00:38:06,237 --> 00:38:09,605 One can hardly make a fuss about a man called Smythe. 433 00:38:09,674 --> 00:38:12,576 I'd just like to see him, that's all. 434 00:38:12,644 --> 00:38:15,978 Well, perhaps Lance can oblige us next time with a frontal. 435 00:38:16,047 --> 00:38:17,982 - Lance? - My boy. 436 00:38:18,783 --> 00:38:20,843 Called after Lancelot, the Round Table. 437 00:38:20,919 --> 00:38:23,388 He found the Holy Grail. 438 00:38:23,454 --> 00:38:27,084 That was Galahad. Lancelot was found in bed with Guinevere. 439 00:38:29,794 --> 00:38:31,729 I hadn't heard. 440 00:38:45,143 --> 00:38:48,511 I have to say, sir, I would advise against it. 441 00:38:48,580 --> 00:38:53,177 I'd just like to see what a man called Smythe looks like. 442 00:38:53,251 --> 00:38:56,244 Will you lend me your boy? 443 00:38:56,321 --> 00:39:00,156 Well, if you'll assure me there'll be nothing unpleasant. 444 00:39:00,224 --> 00:39:04,059 Sarah isn't there. This scene will have a universal certificate. 445 00:39:04,128 --> 00:39:06,063 Come with me, young Lancelot. 446 00:39:07,398 --> 00:39:09,629 Go on, Lance. 447 00:39:09,701 --> 00:39:12,000 No need to worry. 448 00:39:12,070 --> 00:39:14,266 Now, you're feeling ill, remember? 449 00:39:14,339 --> 00:39:17,104 - How ill, sir? - Ill enough to faint. 450 00:39:17,175 --> 00:39:19,110 Can you act that? 451 00:39:19,177 --> 00:39:21,476 If I hold my breath and go all pale, sir. 452 00:39:21,546 --> 00:39:22,980 Good. 453 00:39:33,591 --> 00:39:35,890 Excuse me, but does a Dr. Wilson live here? 454 00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:38,122 - No, I'm afraid he doesn't. - Oh, dear. 455 00:39:38,196 --> 00:39:41,325 See, I was given this address, and my boy's quite ill. 456 00:39:41,399 --> 00:39:43,630 We've traveled all this-- You all right? 457 00:39:43,701 --> 00:39:46,136 - You better come in. - Would you mind? I'm sorry. 458 00:39:46,204 --> 00:39:48,537 I think he needs to sit down badly. 459 00:39:48,606 --> 00:39:50,040 Thank you. 460 00:39:54,379 --> 00:39:57,941 - Can I fetch him a glass of water? - That's very kind. 461 00:39:58,016 --> 00:40:00,212 Or some orange squash? 462 00:40:00,284 --> 00:40:03,015 - Water will be fine. - Orange squash, please. 463 00:40:03,087 --> 00:40:05,318 Say thank you, Arthur. 464 00:40:05,390 --> 00:40:08,827 - Is his name Arthur? - Yes, Arthur James. 465 00:40:08,893 --> 00:40:11,692 - His mother was fond of Tennyson. - Is she-- 466 00:40:11,763 --> 00:40:14,460 Yes, yes. Four years now. 467 00:40:16,234 --> 00:40:19,227 - He must be of great comfort to you. - And anxiety. 468 00:40:19,303 --> 00:40:21,829 I ought to introduce myself. 469 00:40:21,906 --> 00:40:24,102 - Bridges. - My name is Smythe. 470 00:40:24,175 --> 00:40:27,269 - With a "Y"? - Yes. This is my brother Richard. 471 00:40:27,445 --> 00:40:30,938 This is Mr. Bridges. His boy isn't feeling well. 472 00:40:31,015 --> 00:40:33,610 I was given this address for a Dr. Wilson. 473 00:40:33,685 --> 00:40:35,483 There's no such doctor here. 474 00:40:39,190 --> 00:40:41,785 I've seen your boy before. 475 00:40:41,859 --> 00:40:43,919 Maybe on the common. 476 00:40:49,467 --> 00:40:52,904 What was the real purpose of your visit? 477 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:56,669 I told you. A doctor. 478 00:41:01,779 --> 00:41:04,305 No, you're not ill, are you, boy? 479 00:41:10,354 --> 00:41:13,290 People sometimes come to me... 480 00:41:13,357 --> 00:41:15,758 and can't explain why. 481 00:41:17,128 --> 00:41:19,290 But if there is a reason-- 482 00:41:19,363 --> 00:41:21,298 - My brother often deals-- - Hush, Susan. 483 00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:24,665 They must ask themselves. 484 00:41:28,940 --> 00:41:31,842 I recognize your boy, but you-- 485 00:41:33,311 --> 00:41:36,770 - Who recommended you? - We have a friend in common. 486 00:41:37,982 --> 00:41:39,416 Sarah Miles. 487 00:41:41,719 --> 00:41:43,654 And your name is? 488 00:41:43,721 --> 00:41:45,553 Bendrix. 489 00:41:52,330 --> 00:41:55,027 - I know all about you. - I'm sure you do. 490 00:41:55,099 --> 00:41:57,330 But you must enlighten me. 491 00:41:57,401 --> 00:42:01,202 - Aren't you bound by vows of chastity? - Oh, my dear! 492 00:42:02,440 --> 00:42:03,874 Go, please. 493 00:42:04,942 --> 00:42:06,877 Would you just go? 494 00:42:07,945 --> 00:42:10,039 Come along, Lancelot. 495 00:42:16,387 --> 00:42:19,516 Poor Sarah. She had committed nothing but love. 496 00:42:19,590 --> 00:42:22,958 And here were Parkis and his boy watching her every move. 497 00:42:23,027 --> 00:42:25,053 I would have called the spies off... 498 00:42:25,129 --> 00:42:27,826 had the devil not tugged at my elbow once more. 499 00:42:27,899 --> 00:42:30,061 Henry. 500 00:42:30,134 --> 00:42:32,069 Still in the rain? 501 00:42:32,136 --> 00:42:35,163 Walking, Bendrix. Doctor recommends it. 502 00:42:35,239 --> 00:42:37,265 Well, walk with me. 503 00:42:37,341 --> 00:42:39,469 I recommend a drink. 504 00:42:53,191 --> 00:42:54,625 How's Sarah? 505 00:42:55,793 --> 00:42:57,386 Pretty well. 506 00:42:57,461 --> 00:43:00,192 Did you ever consult that private detective? 507 00:43:02,066 --> 00:43:04,058 I'd hoped you had forgotten that. 508 00:43:04,135 --> 00:43:06,468 I was overworked. 509 00:43:06,537 --> 00:43:08,631 I had Royal Commission brewing. 510 00:43:08,706 --> 00:43:10,868 Don't worry, Henry. I did it for you. 511 00:43:12,476 --> 00:43:15,275 - You had absolutely no right. - I'm paying all the charges. 512 00:43:15,346 --> 00:43:16,871 It's infernal cheek. 513 00:43:16,948 --> 00:43:19,645 Here's the report, Henry. 514 00:43:19,717 --> 00:43:21,948 His name is Smythe, with a "Y." 515 00:43:22,019 --> 00:43:24,215 You've been properly led up the garden path, Henry. 516 00:43:25,056 --> 00:43:27,651 - Will you let me pass? - You don't want them? 517 00:43:27,725 --> 00:43:29,250 Photographs, names, love letters? 518 00:43:38,536 --> 00:43:40,767 Now will you let me go? 519 00:43:44,609 --> 00:43:47,135 I can always get you a carbon copy. 520 00:44:04,228 --> 00:44:07,596 Strange how much dignity there can be in a hat. 521 00:44:08,666 --> 00:44:12,103 Without it, he seemed one of the anonymous... 522 00:44:12,169 --> 00:44:13,603 the dispossessed. 523 00:44:14,772 --> 00:44:18,607 I had pitied myself for so long, it was odd... 524 00:44:18,676 --> 00:44:21,544 to pity him. 525 00:44:21,612 --> 00:44:23,547 I'm sorry, Henry. 526 00:44:26,384 --> 00:44:27,818 Sit down. 527 00:44:38,996 --> 00:44:41,363 Were you two lovers, Bendrix? 528 00:44:46,070 --> 00:44:48,198 It's the only explanation. 529 00:44:49,440 --> 00:44:51,375 The only excuse too. 530 00:44:55,746 --> 00:44:58,443 Can't you see that what you've done... 531 00:44:58,516 --> 00:45:00,644 is monstrous? 532 00:45:07,224 --> 00:45:10,160 You must think me a fool not to have guessed. 533 00:45:15,166 --> 00:45:18,000 Why didn't she leave me? 534 00:45:18,069 --> 00:45:20,436 Because you're a habit she's formed. 535 00:45:20,504 --> 00:45:23,440 You're her security. 536 00:45:23,507 --> 00:45:26,204 - Why did she leave you? - I became a bore. 537 00:45:26,277 --> 00:45:28,371 Like you. 538 00:45:28,446 --> 00:45:30,415 But I wasn't born one. 539 00:45:30,481 --> 00:45:32,973 You created me. 540 00:45:33,050 --> 00:45:36,179 She wouldn't leave you, so I bored her with my jealousy. 541 00:45:37,455 --> 00:45:40,391 - You can't be jealous of me. - Well, you won, in a way. 542 00:45:41,392 --> 00:45:44,556 We had come to the end of love. 543 00:45:44,628 --> 00:45:47,564 She'd only make love with me, but... 544 00:45:47,631 --> 00:45:50,760 she could shop and cook and fall asleep with you. 545 00:45:52,937 --> 00:45:55,270 She's still very fond of you. 546 00:45:55,339 --> 00:45:58,468 One isn't satisfied with fondness. 547 00:45:59,643 --> 00:46:01,908 - I was. - Yes, and that made you her pimp. 548 00:46:03,547 --> 00:46:06,039 The bore of a husband who knows where his slippers are... 549 00:46:06,117 --> 00:46:08,712 but never notices his wife. 550 00:46:08,786 --> 00:46:10,778 But you weren't the only pimp, Henry. 551 00:46:10,855 --> 00:46:13,791 The war was the greatest pimp of all. 552 00:46:14,892 --> 00:46:18,260 And the V-1s never affected us until... 553 00:46:18,329 --> 00:46:20,628 the act of love was over. 554 00:46:50,961 --> 00:46:53,521 So what will you do when it ends? 555 00:46:53,597 --> 00:46:55,532 It won't end. I told you. 556 00:46:55,599 --> 00:46:57,534 I meant the war. 557 00:46:58,869 --> 00:47:01,668 It's the only certain thing. 558 00:47:01,739 --> 00:47:03,674 What do you mean? 559 00:47:03,741 --> 00:47:06,074 That allows me to see you. 560 00:47:07,378 --> 00:47:09,347 You think love ends... 561 00:47:09,413 --> 00:47:11,541 when you don't see me? 562 00:47:14,018 --> 00:47:16,351 To be is to be perceived. 563 00:47:17,588 --> 00:47:19,784 Do I exist for you when you're with Henry? 564 00:47:19,857 --> 00:47:21,985 Yes. 565 00:47:22,059 --> 00:47:24,756 Isn't that why you stay with Henry? 566 00:47:24,829 --> 00:47:26,991 Because you know this will end? 567 00:47:27,064 --> 00:47:29,363 No. 568 00:47:31,602 --> 00:47:33,914 - We should go to the basement. - My landlady might be there. 569 00:47:33,938 --> 00:47:35,463 - Does that matter? - Maybe to her. 570 00:47:35,539 --> 00:47:37,804 - It's close, Maurice. - I'll go and check. 571 00:47:37,875 --> 00:47:40,777 - Let me go with you. - I'll be one second. 572 00:47:46,383 --> 00:47:47,817 Hello? 573 00:47:50,454 --> 00:47:53,151 There's nobody there. It's clear. 574 00:48:45,709 --> 00:48:47,644 I never heard the bang. 575 00:48:49,046 --> 00:48:51,743 I awoke after five minutes... 576 00:48:51,815 --> 00:48:54,375 or five seconds... 577 00:48:55,452 --> 00:48:57,614 to a changed world. 578 00:49:02,626 --> 00:49:05,960 For a moment, I was free of feeling... 579 00:49:07,031 --> 00:49:10,126 love, hate, jealousy. 580 00:49:11,735 --> 00:49:14,796 And it all felt like happiness. 581 00:50:25,175 --> 00:50:27,110 Oh, my God. 582 00:50:29,113 --> 00:50:30,547 You're alive? 583 00:50:35,119 --> 00:50:37,054 You sound disappointed. 584 00:50:37,121 --> 00:50:38,885 You're hurt. 585 00:50:43,527 --> 00:50:46,053 I just cut myself, that's all. 586 00:50:57,841 --> 00:51:00,572 What were you doing on the floor? 587 00:51:01,779 --> 00:51:03,213 Praying. 588 00:51:04,281 --> 00:51:05,840 To what? 589 00:51:05,916 --> 00:51:08,112 To anything that might exist. 590 00:51:09,253 --> 00:51:13,850 Well, it'd have been more practical to have come downstairs. 591 00:51:13,924 --> 00:51:15,756 I did. 592 00:51:20,197 --> 00:51:23,497 Well, why didn't you wake me? 593 00:51:23,567 --> 00:51:25,263 I tried. 594 00:51:25,336 --> 00:51:27,271 You didn't move. 595 00:51:29,340 --> 00:51:30,899 I don't understand. 596 00:51:32,142 --> 00:51:35,408 I knew for certain you were dead. 597 00:51:35,479 --> 00:51:37,607 There wasn't much to pray for then, was there? 598 00:51:38,682 --> 00:51:39,877 A miracle. 599 00:51:42,119 --> 00:51:45,647 And we don't believe in those. 600 00:51:45,723 --> 00:51:46,816 No. 601 00:51:49,326 --> 00:51:52,228 And that siren means you go. 602 00:51:55,299 --> 00:51:56,824 Yes. 603 00:52:02,673 --> 00:52:04,107 Please don't. 604 00:52:05,008 --> 00:52:07,842 I have to. Henry will-- 605 00:52:07,911 --> 00:52:09,573 Forget Henry. 606 00:52:11,415 --> 00:52:13,350 You don't understand. You were gone. 607 00:52:13,417 --> 00:52:14,817 Now I'm back. 608 00:52:16,353 --> 00:52:19,482 I'm sorry to disappoint you, Sarah, but-- 609 00:52:23,660 --> 00:52:26,391 Love doesn't end... 610 00:52:26,463 --> 00:52:28,762 just because we don't see each other. 611 00:52:29,633 --> 00:52:31,261 Doesn't it? 612 00:52:31,335 --> 00:52:33,531 People go on loving God, don't they? 613 00:52:33,604 --> 00:52:35,937 All their lives. 614 00:52:36,006 --> 00:52:38,134 Without seeing Him. 615 00:52:39,243 --> 00:52:41,678 That's not my kind of love. 616 00:52:41,745 --> 00:52:44,442 Maybe there's no other kind. 617 00:52:58,562 --> 00:53:01,361 So I was a disappointment in the end. 618 00:53:01,432 --> 00:53:03,492 I lived. 619 00:53:03,567 --> 00:53:05,763 And that was the end of the affair... 620 00:53:05,836 --> 00:53:08,567 until I met you with that detective's card in your hand. 621 00:53:10,474 --> 00:53:12,466 I wondered why we hadn't seen you. 622 00:53:15,879 --> 00:53:18,872 You should go home, Henry. You'll catch your death. 623 00:53:23,020 --> 00:53:24,454 I'm sorry. 624 00:53:36,200 --> 00:53:37,634 Hello. 625 00:53:46,643 --> 00:53:49,272 It was quite easy, sir. It was such a crush. 626 00:53:49,346 --> 00:53:52,612 And Mrs. Miles thought I was one of his friends from the ministry. 627 00:53:52,683 --> 00:53:55,152 And Mr. Miles thought I was one of her friends. 628 00:53:56,353 --> 00:53:59,380 Well, I knew the way to her room from my boy. 629 00:53:59,456 --> 00:54:02,483 Anybody would have stopped me, I would have been looking for the toilet. 630 00:54:02,559 --> 00:54:04,050 Of course, nobody did. 631 00:54:04,127 --> 00:54:06,926 Did you think it was a good cocktail party? 632 00:54:06,997 --> 00:54:09,364 Highly successful I would say, sir. 633 00:54:09,433 --> 00:54:13,131 But Mrs. Miles looked a bit out of sorts. 634 00:54:13,203 --> 00:54:17,368 I refer to this as Exhibit "D." 635 00:54:29,653 --> 00:54:31,588 Did you look at it? 636 00:54:31,655 --> 00:54:33,954 I ascertained its nature, sir. 637 00:54:34,024 --> 00:54:36,425 And from one entry, judged she wasn't the cautious type. 638 00:54:36,493 --> 00:54:38,860 So happy. M returns today. 639 00:54:38,929 --> 00:54:41,899 My experience of diaries is they always give things away, sir. 640 00:54:43,433 --> 00:54:46,335 People invent their little codes. You soon see through them, sir. 641 00:54:46,403 --> 00:54:48,634 I woke up and the sun was shining. 642 00:54:48,705 --> 00:54:51,231 This covers several years. 643 00:54:51,308 --> 00:54:53,243 I hope you're satisfied, sir. 644 00:54:53,310 --> 00:54:56,974 Life was going to be happy again. But last night I dreamt-- 645 00:54:57,047 --> 00:55:00,347 I think this may well close our account, Parkis. 646 00:55:00,417 --> 00:55:03,615 Yeah. I had a feeling it might, sir. 647 00:55:04,421 --> 00:55:07,016 I have enjoyed our association, sir... 648 00:55:07,090 --> 00:55:10,618 if one can talk of enjoying under the sad circumstances. 649 00:55:10,694 --> 00:55:12,526 As have I. 650 00:55:12,596 --> 00:55:15,964 So I hope you wouldn't resent a memento, sir. 651 00:55:21,371 --> 00:55:22,964 There's quite a history with that. 652 00:55:24,107 --> 00:55:27,339 - Do you remember the Bolton case? - I can't say I do. 653 00:55:27,411 --> 00:55:29,880 It caused quite a stir at the time, sir. 654 00:55:29,947 --> 00:55:32,542 Lady Bolton, her maid and a man. 655 00:55:32,616 --> 00:55:34,676 All discovered together. 656 00:55:34,751 --> 00:55:37,277 That ashtray stood beside the bed, sir. 657 00:55:37,354 --> 00:55:39,323 On the lady's side. 658 00:55:43,093 --> 00:55:45,790 Well, I shall treasure it, Parkis. 659 00:55:47,598 --> 00:55:50,124 If ashtrays could speak, sir. 660 00:55:50,200 --> 00:55:51,634 Indeed. 661 00:55:55,138 --> 00:55:58,233 Perhaps I should call later, sir, just to make sure there were no loose ends? 662 00:55:58,308 --> 00:56:00,243 Thank you, Parkis. 663 00:56:02,412 --> 00:56:04,278 - Good night, sir. - Good night. 664 00:56:35,679 --> 00:56:39,980 Sometimes I get tired of trying to convince him that I love him... 665 00:56:40,050 --> 00:56:42,178 and shall love him forever. 666 00:56:42,252 --> 00:56:45,745 He pounces on my words like a barrister and twists them. 667 00:56:45,822 --> 00:56:47,757 So what will you do when it ends? 668 00:56:47,824 --> 00:56:51,317 You think love ends when you don't see me? 669 00:56:53,664 --> 00:56:56,156 To be is to be perceived. 670 00:56:57,334 --> 00:56:59,633 Do I exist for you when you're with Henry? 671 00:56:59,703 --> 00:57:01,137 Yes. 672 00:57:02,305 --> 00:57:07,141 Isn't that why you stay with Henry? Because you know this will end? 673 00:57:11,081 --> 00:57:13,426 - We should go to the basement. - My landlady might be there. 674 00:57:13,450 --> 00:57:14,884 - Does that matter? - Maybe to her. 675 00:57:14,951 --> 00:57:17,284 - It's close, Maurice. - I'll go and check. 676 00:57:17,354 --> 00:57:19,653 - Let me go with you. - I'll be one second. 677 00:57:25,595 --> 00:57:27,029 Hello? 678 00:57:30,534 --> 00:57:32,127 There's nobody there. It's clear. 679 00:58:00,063 --> 00:58:01,588 Oh, God! 680 00:58:07,270 --> 00:58:09,205 Oh, God. Oh, God. 681 00:58:21,218 --> 00:58:23,016 Oh, God, don't take him. 682 00:58:23,687 --> 00:58:25,656 But You had. 683 00:58:28,792 --> 00:58:31,387 Whatever was him was gone. 684 00:58:31,461 --> 00:58:33,396 You'd taken it. 685 00:58:36,133 --> 00:58:38,693 I'd never believed in prayer. 686 00:58:41,738 --> 00:58:45,732 Oh, God, please bring him back. Let him live. 687 00:58:45,809 --> 00:58:49,211 I don't believe in You, but please let him live. 688 00:58:51,815 --> 00:58:54,182 Dear God, please. 689 00:58:55,252 --> 00:58:56,811 Let him-- 690 00:59:11,635 --> 00:59:14,901 Dear God, please. Let him live. 691 00:59:18,375 --> 00:59:20,935 Please bring him back. 692 00:59:22,012 --> 00:59:24,277 Please don't take him. 693 00:59:26,950 --> 00:59:29,044 I'll give him up forever. 694 00:59:29,119 --> 00:59:31,748 Only please, let him be alive. 695 00:59:33,056 --> 00:59:37,926 Let him live and I promise I'll never see him again. 696 00:59:46,136 --> 00:59:47,399 Oh, my God. 697 00:59:50,240 --> 00:59:51,708 You're alive? 698 00:59:54,110 --> 00:59:56,978 You sound disappointed. 699 00:59:57,047 --> 01:00:00,882 But if he was alive, now I was dead. 700 01:00:09,993 --> 01:00:12,292 What were you doing on the floor? 701 01:00:13,897 --> 01:00:16,230 Praying. 702 01:00:16,299 --> 01:00:18,063 To what? 703 01:00:18,134 --> 01:00:20,103 To anything that might exist. 704 01:00:20,170 --> 01:00:24,369 How could I explain to him what made no sense to me? 705 01:00:24,441 --> 01:00:26,103 You didn't move. 706 01:00:26,176 --> 01:00:29,840 I knew for certain you were dead. 707 01:00:29,913 --> 01:00:31,973 Then there wasn't much to pray for then, was there? 708 01:00:32,048 --> 01:00:33,482 A miracle. 709 01:00:35,252 --> 01:00:37,949 And we don't believe in that. 710 01:00:41,725 --> 01:00:43,819 And that siren means you go. 711 01:00:46,730 --> 01:00:48,164 Yes. 712 01:00:49,332 --> 01:00:54,361 And I knew that nothing in this world would make sense to me again. 713 01:00:55,438 --> 01:00:56,770 Sorry to disappoint you. 714 01:01:01,778 --> 01:01:04,441 Love doesn't end... 715 01:01:04,514 --> 01:01:06,449 just because we don't see each other. 716 01:01:07,484 --> 01:01:08,975 Doesn't it? 717 01:01:09,052 --> 01:01:11,283 People go on loving God, don't they... 718 01:01:11,354 --> 01:01:15,257 all their lives without seeing Him? 719 01:01:15,325 --> 01:01:18,386 That's not my kind of love. 720 01:01:19,262 --> 01:01:21,857 Maybe there's no other kind. 721 01:01:42,085 --> 01:01:45,283 I can't be held to that promise. 722 01:01:45,355 --> 01:01:48,189 But something told me I would be. 723 01:01:48,258 --> 01:01:50,193 I had tempted fate... 724 01:01:50,260 --> 01:01:52,422 and fate had accepted. 725 01:01:53,663 --> 01:01:58,567 So I was in the desert now, the desert without him. 726 01:02:00,670 --> 01:02:05,108 I started a tour with Henry, civil defense in southern England. 727 01:02:06,076 --> 01:02:10,013 Henry and I sleeping side by side like figures on tombs. 728 01:02:12,582 --> 01:02:16,246 In the new reinforced shelter at Bigwell-on-Sea... 729 01:02:16,319 --> 01:02:19,016 a chief warden kissed me. 730 01:02:19,089 --> 01:02:22,526 I allowed him to but felt nothing. 731 01:02:23,960 --> 01:02:26,828 I'm beginning to believe in You, God... 732 01:02:26,896 --> 01:02:29,627 and maybe that's how You work. 733 01:02:29,699 --> 01:02:33,534 You empty me of love, then fill that emptiness. 734 01:02:33,603 --> 01:02:35,731 They're recommending me for an O. B. E. 735 01:02:35,805 --> 01:02:37,501 What's that? 736 01:02:37,574 --> 01:02:40,043 A step below a C.B.E. 737 01:02:40,110 --> 01:02:43,638 When I retire, I'll probably be a K.B.E. 738 01:02:43,713 --> 01:02:47,172 It's confusing. Couldn't they stick to the same letters? 739 01:02:48,451 --> 01:02:50,886 Wouldn't you like to be Lady Miles? 740 01:02:54,491 --> 01:02:57,586 This was the British people's finest day... 741 01:02:57,660 --> 01:03:01,256 V-E day, the end of the German war. 742 01:03:04,234 --> 01:03:06,794 A man we seem to have seen before somewhere... 743 01:03:06,870 --> 01:03:09,465 looks down from a balcony in Whitehall. 744 01:03:21,418 --> 01:03:24,718 The whole of London seemed happy because there was peace... 745 01:03:24,788 --> 01:03:26,780 and there were no more bombs. 746 01:03:26,856 --> 01:03:29,485 But I'm not sure I like the peace. 747 01:03:38,234 --> 01:03:40,294 I walked his walks. 748 01:03:43,139 --> 01:03:45,734 Tried to think where he'd be. 749 01:03:50,914 --> 01:03:52,849 Then I gave up. 750 01:03:54,384 --> 01:03:57,183 I thought that now the world is at peace... 751 01:03:57,253 --> 01:03:59,654 maybe I should have some. 752 01:04:12,402 --> 01:04:14,496 I told him it all. 753 01:04:14,571 --> 01:04:19,305 And Whoever heard my promise must have heard it too... 754 01:04:19,375 --> 01:04:22,038 and must have known it already... 755 01:04:22,112 --> 01:04:24,911 since God knows everything. 756 01:04:27,617 --> 01:04:30,781 How cruel that knowledge seemed. 757 01:04:30,854 --> 01:04:34,018 It knew what I would say before I made that promise. 758 01:04:35,658 --> 01:04:38,856 Knew it would keep me to it. 759 01:04:38,928 --> 01:04:41,523 Knew me the way his hands knew me. 760 01:04:42,632 --> 01:04:44,498 Sarah, darling. 761 01:04:47,270 --> 01:04:48,363 You. 762 01:04:48,438 --> 01:04:50,430 Knew I would meet him on the stairs. 763 01:04:50,507 --> 01:04:52,442 - Been out for a walk? - Yes. 764 01:04:52,509 --> 01:04:53,807 It's a filthy night. 765 01:04:53,877 --> 01:04:56,870 You're wet through. One day you'll catch your death of cold. 766 01:04:56,946 --> 01:04:58,073 Good night. 767 01:04:59,015 --> 01:05:01,507 Knew he would hate me. 768 01:05:07,624 --> 01:05:09,991 - Wednesday. - Wednesday. Let me check. 769 01:05:12,428 --> 01:05:14,863 - Would Thursday do? - Thursday then. 770 01:05:14,931 --> 01:05:17,366 The Park Lane Hotel at 1:00. 771 01:05:21,671 --> 01:05:25,733 I took my time. I didn't want to be early. 772 01:05:26,809 --> 01:05:28,869 Why did you want to meet? 773 01:05:28,945 --> 01:05:33,747 I wanted to tell you I'd been dead for the last two years. 774 01:05:33,816 --> 01:05:36,843 I can't be without you any longer. 775 01:05:36,920 --> 01:05:38,218 I think he's lonely. 776 01:05:38,288 --> 01:05:40,280 But, of course, I didn't. 777 01:05:40,356 --> 01:05:43,622 You know he's never really noticed me, not for years. 778 01:05:46,129 --> 01:05:48,462 Maybe you've given him reason. 779 01:05:48,531 --> 01:05:50,898 What reason could I give? 780 01:05:52,402 --> 01:05:54,837 What reason did you give me? 781 01:05:59,909 --> 01:06:01,138 None. 782 01:06:11,487 --> 01:06:14,480 - Are you on a new book? - Of course. 783 01:06:14,557 --> 01:06:17,755 It's not about us, is it? The one you threatened to write. 784 01:06:17,827 --> 01:06:19,591 A book takes a year to write. 785 01:06:19,662 --> 01:06:21,597 It's too hard work for revenge. 786 01:06:22,699 --> 01:06:24,827 If you knew how little you had to revenge-- 787 01:06:24,901 --> 01:06:27,598 No, I'm joking. We had a good time together. 788 01:06:27,670 --> 01:06:29,605 I mean, we're adults and... 789 01:06:29,672 --> 01:06:32,665 we knew it had to end sometime. 790 01:06:32,742 --> 01:06:35,871 And now we can lunch and talk about Henry. 791 01:06:40,850 --> 01:06:44,048 In the old days, he would have followed. 792 01:06:44,120 --> 01:06:47,784 We would have made up or made love. 793 01:07:06,109 --> 01:07:11,173 I said to God, as I might have said to my father... 794 01:07:11,247 --> 01:07:13,876 "Dear God, I'm tired. 795 01:07:14,951 --> 01:07:18,479 I'm tired of being without him. 796 01:07:18,554 --> 01:07:21,149 And it's all because of You." 797 01:07:23,426 --> 01:07:27,193 Dr. Gilbert's appointment. I'd almost forgotten. 798 01:07:28,231 --> 01:07:30,200 He asked me how I felt. 799 01:07:31,267 --> 01:07:33,964 I said I felt nothing. 800 01:07:34,037 --> 01:07:37,007 There was a stone where my heart should be. 801 01:07:39,442 --> 01:07:41,377 I need help, Father. 802 01:07:43,212 --> 01:07:45,147 You know, Sarah, God granted us free will. 803 01:07:45,214 --> 01:07:48,582 Good. So it's settled. I'm leaving my husband. 804 01:07:48,651 --> 01:07:52,713 - You can't. - Why can't I? I'm a whore and a liar. 805 01:07:52,789 --> 01:07:55,156 I'm asking Henry for a divorce. 806 01:08:01,397 --> 01:08:03,559 You can't because you're good. 807 01:08:05,468 --> 01:08:08,267 Better than any person I know. 808 01:08:08,338 --> 01:08:12,298 You're wrong, Father, and you don't know me. 809 01:08:14,310 --> 01:08:17,542 I found a small boy sleeping on the steps... 810 01:08:17,613 --> 01:08:20,481 with a birthmark covering his face... 811 01:08:20,550 --> 01:08:23,987 and wondered what kind of God would give a child that. 812 01:08:24,053 --> 01:08:26,079 Are you lost? 813 01:08:26,155 --> 01:08:29,125 It's all right. It's all right. 814 01:08:29,192 --> 01:08:31,161 Where do you live then? 815 01:08:33,329 --> 01:08:35,457 - You'll be all right now? - Yes, ma'am. 816 01:08:35,531 --> 01:08:40,595 I kissed his cheek and wished I could wash it away. 817 01:08:40,670 --> 01:08:42,605 And suddenly I felt happy again. 818 01:08:43,673 --> 01:08:45,608 I could free myself of this. 819 01:08:46,576 --> 01:08:49,307 I am... 820 01:08:49,379 --> 01:08:51,211 leaving you. 821 01:08:52,281 --> 01:08:56,309 For the last five years... 822 01:08:57,487 --> 01:09:00,480 I have been... 823 01:09:00,556 --> 01:09:02,491 in love... 824 01:09:02,558 --> 01:09:04,857 with Maurice. 825 01:09:04,927 --> 01:09:07,795 I love you. 826 01:09:07,864 --> 01:09:09,924 Do you know that? 827 01:09:15,004 --> 01:09:17,633 Why now, Henry? 828 01:09:17,707 --> 01:09:19,642 Why do you say that now? 829 01:09:22,812 --> 01:09:24,940 I had a drink with Bendrix. 830 01:09:31,354 --> 01:09:33,516 A horrible drink. 831 01:09:35,691 --> 01:09:37,853 I can't do without you. 832 01:09:38,928 --> 01:09:41,329 Oh, yes, you can, I thought. 833 01:09:41,397 --> 01:09:45,300 You changed your newspaper once and you soon got used to it. 834 01:09:45,368 --> 01:09:47,462 What's wrong, Henry? 835 01:09:47,537 --> 01:09:50,598 Did Bendrix upset you in some way? 836 01:09:53,543 --> 01:09:56,479 I know I haven't been much of a husband to you, my dear. 837 01:09:56,546 --> 01:09:58,515 We are good friends. 838 01:10:00,049 --> 01:10:02,848 You can do without a friend. 839 01:10:04,053 --> 01:10:05,988 Don't leave me, Sarah. 840 01:10:08,558 --> 01:10:10,891 Stick it out a few more years. 841 01:10:12,128 --> 01:10:15,257 I'll try. I promise. 842 01:10:20,503 --> 01:10:24,133 Is this coincidence? I wondered. 843 01:10:24,207 --> 01:10:27,006 Or the way life happens? 844 01:10:27,076 --> 01:10:31,810 And if this is life, am I stuck with it? 845 01:10:31,881 --> 01:10:34,282 But whatever it is... 846 01:10:34,350 --> 01:10:36,342 I can't fight it anymore. 847 01:10:37,086 --> 01:10:40,955 It has won and we have lost. 848 01:10:56,672 --> 01:10:58,607 - Hello? - Sarah. 849 01:10:59,675 --> 01:11:01,507 She's not here. 850 01:11:01,577 --> 01:11:04,706 I know your voice, Sarah. Talk to me. 851 01:11:53,896 --> 01:11:55,159 Stop here. 852 01:11:57,033 --> 01:11:59,662 - Thank you. - Thank you very much, guv. 853 01:12:10,980 --> 01:12:12,778 One, please. 854 01:12:15,851 --> 01:12:17,444 Thank you, sir. 855 01:13:08,304 --> 01:13:10,500 How did you get it? 856 01:13:14,944 --> 01:13:17,277 You had a drinks party last week. 857 01:13:18,948 --> 01:13:21,884 - Yes. That small man. - Yes. 858 01:13:22,952 --> 01:13:24,921 He is my snoop. 859 01:13:28,190 --> 01:13:29,624 How ridiculous. 860 01:13:31,260 --> 01:13:34,389 It's no more ridiculous than you. 861 01:13:34,463 --> 01:13:36,625 Why didn't you tell me? 862 01:13:36,699 --> 01:13:41,637 I tried. Each time I tried, something would happen. 863 01:13:41,704 --> 01:13:45,800 - That's mumbo jumbo, Sarah. - It doesn't work like that. 864 01:13:45,875 --> 01:13:47,309 Accidents. 865 01:13:47,376 --> 01:13:52,178 Little things. God is in the details, Maurice. 866 01:13:52,248 --> 01:13:54,046 You can't believe that. 867 01:13:54,116 --> 01:13:56,745 Do you believe in things you can't see? 868 01:13:59,121 --> 01:14:01,090 - You mean Him? - I mean you. 869 01:14:03,626 --> 01:14:07,791 You see, I never stopped loving you, even though I couldn't see you. 870 01:14:10,733 --> 01:14:13,897 My mother baptized me a Catholic. 871 01:14:13,969 --> 01:14:17,599 My father was Jewish, so we never practiced. 872 01:14:17,673 --> 01:14:21,303 But she always said she hoped it would take. 873 01:14:21,377 --> 01:14:23,175 Like a vaccination. 874 01:14:25,147 --> 01:14:29,482 I've only made two promises in my life. 875 01:14:29,552 --> 01:14:32,351 One was to marry Henry... 876 01:14:32,421 --> 01:14:34,890 the other to stop seeing you. 877 01:14:36,926 --> 01:14:39,589 And I'm too weak to keep either. 878 01:14:42,932 --> 01:14:45,197 I know you don't believe in Him... 879 01:14:47,536 --> 01:14:49,801 but try to. 880 01:14:49,872 --> 01:14:51,738 Talk to Him. 881 01:14:52,808 --> 01:14:54,140 I can't. 882 01:14:54,210 --> 01:14:56,145 Tell Him I'm sorry. 883 01:14:56,212 --> 01:14:58,511 I'm too human... 884 01:14:58,581 --> 01:15:01,141 too weak. 885 01:15:01,217 --> 01:15:06,155 Tell Him I can't keep my promises. 886 01:15:06,222 --> 01:15:09,124 I'm tired of being without you. 887 01:15:12,228 --> 01:15:16,324 - Let's get you home. - I don't want to go home. 888 01:15:17,233 --> 01:15:18,667 I know. 889 01:16:03,379 --> 01:16:05,939 So have we broken the spell? 890 01:16:09,885 --> 01:16:11,877 The world didn't end, did it? 891 01:16:11,954 --> 01:16:14,287 It did, in a way. 892 01:16:14,356 --> 01:16:16,325 But then, it always did. 893 01:16:18,460 --> 01:16:20,395 Can I sleep now, Maurice? 894 01:16:21,463 --> 01:16:23,398 Please let me sleep. 895 01:16:51,293 --> 01:16:53,262 - It's Henry. - Don't answer it. 896 01:16:53,329 --> 01:16:56,458 Why not? We'll have to tell him sometime. 897 01:16:56,532 --> 01:16:59,058 - Come away with me. - Where? 898 01:16:59,134 --> 01:17:01,296 Anywhere. Brighton. 899 01:17:02,071 --> 01:17:04,438 I want a few days peace before the arguments begin. 900 01:17:05,574 --> 01:17:08,635 - Well, Henry never argues. - I wasn't talking about Henry. 901 01:17:14,450 --> 01:17:16,646 Pain is easy to write. 902 01:17:17,720 --> 01:17:20,918 In pain, we're all drably individual. 903 01:17:22,024 --> 01:17:23,959 But what can one write about happiness? 904 01:17:49,518 --> 01:17:52,147 It doesn't suit you. And it's mine. 905 01:17:52,221 --> 01:17:54,884 - You want it? There's a price. - How much? 906 01:17:59,662 --> 01:18:01,597 Can I pay again? 907 01:18:04,400 --> 01:18:07,837 - I want children, you know. - How many? 908 01:18:07,903 --> 01:18:11,135 - I'll start with one. - Only one? 909 01:18:11,206 --> 01:18:13,141 You want to start with two? 910 01:18:14,176 --> 01:18:16,304 Is that a promise? 911 01:18:16,378 --> 01:18:17,812 Yes. 912 01:18:25,955 --> 01:18:27,890 Let's get you back to the hotel. 913 01:18:32,928 --> 01:18:35,898 - Just those two. - Very good, sir. 914 01:18:48,410 --> 01:18:50,811 It is a bit of a mess. Yeah, you're right. 915 01:18:55,084 --> 01:18:57,553 - Business going well? - Yes, it's going-- 916 01:18:57,619 --> 01:18:59,554 Still on the job? Don't worry. 917 01:18:59,621 --> 01:19:01,852 - Oh, dear. - Here. Come with me. 918 01:19:01,924 --> 01:19:04,689 Come. So where's your boy this time? 919 01:19:04,760 --> 01:19:06,820 I left him at home, sir. 920 01:19:06,895 --> 01:19:10,491 Hardly a wise move. He'd have had the sense not to get noticed. 921 01:19:10,566 --> 01:19:13,764 You think so, sir? Perhaps I wasn't cut out for this job. 922 01:19:13,836 --> 01:19:17,102 Tell your employer the circumstances are unique. 923 01:19:17,172 --> 01:19:21,610 What was your phrase? The party in question is a writer. 924 01:19:21,677 --> 01:19:25,114 - They notice everything. - They certainly seem to, sir. 925 01:19:26,882 --> 01:19:30,375 - So who's hired you this time? - I'm not at liberty to say, sir. 926 01:19:30,452 --> 01:19:33,012 Let me guess. The jealous husband. 927 01:19:35,824 --> 01:19:38,191 I never expected to be recalled to this case, sir. 928 01:19:38,260 --> 01:19:40,229 Yours is a secure profession. 929 01:19:40,295 --> 01:19:43,993 As long as fools like us love, your employment never ends. 930 01:19:44,066 --> 01:19:46,001 You could put it like that. 931 01:19:46,068 --> 01:19:48,469 And love never ends, does it? 932 01:19:49,638 --> 01:19:51,231 It seems not. 933 01:19:51,306 --> 01:19:53,332 So what do you need? 934 01:19:53,409 --> 01:19:56,140 Photographs of us in flagrante delicto? 935 01:19:56,211 --> 01:20:00,581 Copies of hotel bills? Evidence of soiled sheets? We'd be happy to oblige. 936 01:20:00,649 --> 01:20:05,314 No, my brief is to follow you. Inform him as to your whereabouts. 937 01:20:05,387 --> 01:20:07,322 Which, of course, you'll do. 938 01:20:07,389 --> 01:20:10,450 I'm obliged to, sir, under the terms of my employment, posthaste. 939 01:20:10,526 --> 01:20:14,019 Won't you need supplementary evidence? The divorce courts will demand it. 940 01:20:16,398 --> 01:20:19,493 They generally do, sir, if it come to that. 941 01:20:19,568 --> 01:20:23,232 Well, Exhibit "A." 942 01:20:23,305 --> 01:20:27,766 Receipt for two sandwiches bought on the train to Brighton. 943 01:20:27,843 --> 01:20:31,302 Mutual sandwiches are surely evidence of intimacy, aren't they? 944 01:20:31,380 --> 01:20:34,179 - They could be so construed, sir. - Exhibit "B." 945 01:20:34,249 --> 01:20:36,184 Two tickets for a Big Dipper. 946 01:20:36,251 --> 01:20:39,483 - You seem to be doing my job for me. - Yes, but we haven't quite got there. 947 01:20:39,555 --> 01:20:42,150 What would clinch it for us? 948 01:20:42,224 --> 01:20:45,456 What would make divorce a certainty? 949 01:20:50,632 --> 01:20:55,661 Generally, sir, some kind of photographic evidence of-- 950 01:20:57,673 --> 01:20:59,642 Of intimacy. 951 01:21:02,311 --> 01:21:06,510 Would be most useful, sir, if it came to such a pass. 952 01:21:06,582 --> 01:21:10,383 It will, Parkis. It most certainly will. 953 01:21:42,117 --> 01:21:43,551 Here. 954 01:21:50,759 --> 01:21:52,728 I dreamt we had a child. 955 01:21:52,794 --> 01:21:54,820 We will. 956 01:21:54,897 --> 01:21:56,991 We were on the bed together. 957 01:21:57,065 --> 01:22:01,127 The room filled up with water. There was a child between us. 958 01:22:01,203 --> 01:22:03,502 Why water? 959 01:22:03,572 --> 01:22:06,167 The sea had come in the window. 960 01:22:23,559 --> 01:22:26,188 So you'll marry me. 961 01:22:29,431 --> 01:22:31,627 That's a promise. 962 01:23:01,997 --> 01:23:05,991 The prince regent began building it for his mistress, Mrs. Fitzherbert. 963 01:23:06,068 --> 01:23:08,037 Beautiful but flawed. 964 01:23:08,103 --> 01:23:11,130 - How was she flawed? - She was Catholic. 965 01:23:11,206 --> 01:23:13,402 Impossible, of course. 966 01:23:13,475 --> 01:23:15,103 So he loved her. 967 01:23:15,177 --> 01:23:20,377 Yes, but he married Princess Caroline of Brunswick who was Protestant... 968 01:23:20,449 --> 01:23:22,145 but huge. 969 01:23:22,217 --> 01:23:26,211 And he built this huge folly to impossibility. 970 01:23:26,288 --> 01:23:29,019 - Not now, Henry. - Forgive me, Sarah. I had to. 971 01:23:29,091 --> 01:23:32,960 - Oh, God, please. Henry, not now. - You had to what, Henry? 972 01:23:34,863 --> 01:23:37,059 - Talk. - Go back home. 973 01:23:37,132 --> 01:23:39,363 - You can't hold on to her forever. - I know, but-- 974 01:23:39,434 --> 01:23:43,667 It hardly suits you, Henry, the role of a jealous husband. 975 01:23:43,739 --> 01:23:45,970 Please, I don't mean to make a scene. 976 01:23:46,041 --> 01:23:49,011 Henry, go home. 977 01:23:49,077 --> 01:23:51,569 I'm not jealous, Bendrix. 978 01:23:52,648 --> 01:23:54,583 What was it you said? 979 01:23:54,650 --> 01:23:58,678 Lovers are jealous. Husbands are ridiculous. 980 01:24:00,956 --> 01:24:03,448 I was never her lover. 981 01:24:03,525 --> 01:24:05,585 Not much of a husband either, I'm afraid. 982 01:24:05,661 --> 01:24:07,926 But you hired our detective. 983 01:24:07,996 --> 01:24:10,261 I had to find out where she was. 984 01:24:10,332 --> 01:24:14,736 So you know. She wants a divorce. 985 01:24:14,803 --> 01:24:18,035 That won't be possible, old man. 986 01:24:18,106 --> 01:24:20,041 You'll contest it? 987 01:24:20,108 --> 01:24:23,306 No, but it would take at least three months. 988 01:24:23,378 --> 01:24:26,746 Well, what's three months, Henry, out of a lifetime? 989 01:24:28,183 --> 01:24:30,482 Half. 990 01:24:30,552 --> 01:24:33,044 Half of what? 991 01:24:33,121 --> 01:24:35,590 Of a lifetime, I'm afraid. 992 01:24:37,526 --> 01:24:40,519 Sarah's dying. 993 01:24:40,595 --> 01:24:44,623 Her doctor called the night she didn't come back... 994 01:24:44,700 --> 01:24:47,033 with the result of some tests. 995 01:24:48,770 --> 01:24:50,762 I knocked on your door. 996 01:24:52,541 --> 01:24:54,942 I imagined you were both there. 997 01:24:58,180 --> 01:25:00,979 How oddly we behave at such moments. 998 01:25:17,699 --> 01:25:20,066 You shouldn't get wet, darling. 999 01:25:20,135 --> 01:25:22,798 - Don't you like the rain, Henry? - Yes, dear, but-- 1000 01:25:22,871 --> 01:25:27,002 You've heard news, Henry. Is it good? 1001 01:25:28,276 --> 01:25:29,744 No, dear. 1002 01:25:31,113 --> 01:25:35,847 You see, Maurice, never make a promise. You may have to keep it. 1003 01:25:43,558 --> 01:25:47,552 You should never have been jealous of me, Bendrix. 1004 01:25:52,401 --> 01:25:57,999 I did Sarah a great disservice when I married her. I realize that now. 1005 01:25:59,408 --> 01:26:01,877 I'm not the sort that makes a lover. 1006 01:26:04,179 --> 01:26:06,774 She wanted someone like you. 1007 01:26:07,616 --> 01:26:10,108 I'm not sure it's as simple as that. 1008 01:26:14,156 --> 01:26:16,648 If you don't mind me asking... 1009 01:26:17,926 --> 01:26:21,158 I'd like you there when the time comes. 1010 01:26:21,229 --> 01:26:22,720 It may not come. 1011 01:26:24,933 --> 01:26:28,028 You of all people don't believe in miracles. 1012 01:26:28,103 --> 01:26:30,470 No, but Sarah does. 1013 01:26:34,009 --> 01:26:37,946 I'd always believed that I'd be the one to die first... 1014 01:26:39,648 --> 01:26:42,345 and that Sarah would know what to do. 1015 01:26:45,921 --> 01:26:47,981 Are you at a loss, Henry? 1016 01:26:51,927 --> 01:26:53,862 I am quite. 1017 01:26:56,865 --> 01:27:01,064 And it would save you a bit if you moved in with us. 1018 01:27:01,136 --> 01:27:05,904 Sarah always said your books weren't as successful as they should have been. 1019 01:27:09,244 --> 01:27:14,945 You could be there, working in the daytime, while I'm at the ministry. 1020 01:27:15,016 --> 01:27:19,579 And at night, we could both-- 1021 01:27:26,495 --> 01:27:30,296 And so I moved to the north side of the common... 1022 01:27:30,365 --> 01:27:34,302 and, oddly enough, I felt instantly at home. 1023 01:27:43,812 --> 01:27:45,576 Can I help you, Father? 1024 01:27:47,516 --> 01:27:50,247 - I've come about Mrs. Miles. - She's indisposed. 1025 01:27:50,318 --> 01:27:53,550 You mean, she's ill, don't you? 1026 01:27:53,622 --> 01:27:57,150 - Yes, I suppose I do. - Yes. 1027 01:27:58,226 --> 01:28:02,027 She's been to see me several times, and I know she'd like to see me before-- 1028 01:28:02,097 --> 01:28:05,192 She's left word with me she's not to be disturbed. 1029 01:28:05,267 --> 01:28:07,202 Is her husband here? 1030 01:28:15,277 --> 01:28:19,647 - She told me about you. - I know she did. 1031 01:28:19,714 --> 01:28:21,649 I'm the lover, Father. 1032 01:28:35,964 --> 01:28:37,899 Who was that? 1033 01:28:45,307 --> 01:28:46,741 The postman. 1034 01:28:49,878 --> 01:28:51,847 What did he bring? 1035 01:28:54,115 --> 01:28:56,584 He had the wrong address. 1036 01:29:00,789 --> 01:29:03,623 How odd for a postman. 1037 01:29:13,969 --> 01:29:16,939 You know what happened that day? 1038 01:29:19,107 --> 01:29:21,667 You thought I was dead... 1039 01:29:21,743 --> 01:29:23,678 and I wasn't. 1040 01:29:26,014 --> 01:29:27,482 No, darling. 1041 01:29:29,417 --> 01:29:31,886 Something happened in that room. 1042 01:29:33,688 --> 01:29:37,750 There were the same walls around me... 1043 01:29:37,826 --> 01:29:41,285 the same sunlight coming in the window... 1044 01:29:43,498 --> 01:29:46,866 but nothing will ever be the same again. 1045 01:29:48,303 --> 01:29:51,068 You can't believe this, Sarah. 1046 01:29:53,375 --> 01:29:55,776 But it's true. 1047 01:29:57,145 --> 01:30:00,377 I never loved anyone as I loved you. 1048 01:30:02,017 --> 01:30:05,715 And when you came through that door with blood on your face... 1049 01:30:08,123 --> 01:30:10,786 another kind of love came with you. 1050 01:30:12,527 --> 01:30:15,019 And I caught belief... 1051 01:30:15,096 --> 01:30:16,689 like a disease. 1052 01:30:17,999 --> 01:30:20,525 I fell into belief like I'd... 1053 01:30:21,936 --> 01:30:24,030 fallen into love. 1054 01:30:25,106 --> 01:30:27,598 And I tried to fight it... 1055 01:30:30,311 --> 01:30:33,247 but I haven't any fight left. 1056 01:30:55,036 --> 01:30:57,335 It wasn't the postman, was it? 1057 01:30:59,307 --> 01:31:01,208 No, it wasn't. 1058 01:31:03,344 --> 01:31:06,473 Dear Maurice, you can't go on fighting. 1059 01:31:06,548 --> 01:31:09,143 It's only love, after all. 1060 01:31:45,186 --> 01:31:48,247 So You're taking her... 1061 01:31:48,323 --> 01:31:51,054 but You haven't got me yet. 1062 01:31:51,126 --> 01:31:54,153 I don't want Your peace and Your love. 1063 01:31:55,430 --> 01:31:58,559 I wanted Sarah for a lifetime... 1064 01:31:58,633 --> 01:32:01,034 and You're taking her from me. 1065 01:32:02,103 --> 01:32:04,698 So I hate You, God. 1066 01:32:05,774 --> 01:32:09,802 I hate You as though You existed. 1067 01:32:26,728 --> 01:32:30,529 You have to help me, Bendrix. I can't. 1068 01:32:30,598 --> 01:32:32,430 I will. 1069 01:32:32,500 --> 01:32:35,231 I can't live in a world where she's gone. 1070 01:32:38,940 --> 01:32:41,068 I'll help you. 1071 01:32:57,325 --> 01:33:01,194 I would have taken care of all the arrangements, if I'd known. 1072 01:33:01,262 --> 01:33:03,424 Surely you disapprove of cremation? 1073 01:33:03,498 --> 01:33:05,524 I would have arranged a Catholic burial. 1074 01:33:05,600 --> 01:33:07,865 But she wasn't a Catholic, was she, Henry? 1075 01:33:07,936 --> 01:33:10,371 We recognize the baptism of desire. 1076 01:33:12,473 --> 01:33:15,068 She said things that seemed like prayers. 1077 01:33:15,143 --> 01:33:18,307 We've made all the arrangements. We can't alter things now, Father. 1078 01:33:18,379 --> 01:33:20,871 You wouldn't want talk, Henry. There's the notice in the Times. 1079 01:33:23,351 --> 01:33:26,515 If you'd come a little sooner, Father-- Please, don't think-- 1080 01:33:26,588 --> 01:33:28,557 I think nothing bad of you, Mr. Miles. 1081 01:33:28,623 --> 01:33:31,092 - Perhaps me? - Don't worry, Mr. Bendrix. 1082 01:33:31,159 --> 01:33:33,719 Nothing you can do will affect her now. 1083 01:33:37,632 --> 01:33:40,227 - She was a good woman. - She was nothing of the sort. 1084 01:33:40,301 --> 01:33:42,236 She could put the blinkers on any man. 1085 01:33:42,303 --> 01:33:44,704 She deceived you, Father, as she deceived her husband and me. 1086 01:33:44,772 --> 01:33:46,707 - She was a consummate liar. - You've no right. 1087 01:33:46,774 --> 01:33:49,573 - Let the poor man rave. - Don't give me your professional pity! 1088 01:33:49,644 --> 01:33:52,944 - Keep it for your confessional! - You can find me there anytime you want. 1089 01:33:53,014 --> 01:33:54,607 I don't want you. I'm no Sarah. 1090 01:33:54,682 --> 01:33:56,446 - I'm sorry, Father. - No need to be. 1091 01:33:57,652 --> 01:33:59,678 I know when a man is in pain. 1092 01:34:02,056 --> 01:34:05,151 I'm not in pain, Father. I'm in hate. 1093 01:34:05,226 --> 01:34:08,628 I hate Sarah, because she was a tart to your mumbo jumbo. 1094 01:34:08,696 --> 01:34:11,063 I hate Henry, because she stuck to him. 1095 01:34:11,132 --> 01:34:16,036 And I hate you and your imaginary God, because you took her away from us. 1096 01:34:18,439 --> 01:34:21,534 - You are a good hater. - To hell with all of you! 1097 01:35:00,882 --> 01:35:03,147 I'm sorry, Henry. 1098 01:35:10,124 --> 01:35:12,320 The thing is, Bendrix... 1099 01:35:14,128 --> 01:35:16,188 I always knew. 1100 01:35:18,499 --> 01:35:20,730 I knew she was with someone... 1101 01:35:22,737 --> 01:35:24,968 but I never thought you. 1102 01:35:28,443 --> 01:35:30,412 But the odd thing is... 1103 01:35:32,280 --> 01:35:34,249 I'm glad it was. 1104 01:35:54,002 --> 01:35:57,495 It's a sad pleasure to see you here, sir... 1105 01:35:57,572 --> 01:35:59,541 where bygones are always bygones. 1106 01:35:59,607 --> 01:36:02,873 Do you always follow your people as far as this? 1107 01:36:03,945 --> 01:36:06,744 She was a very fine lady, sir. 1108 01:36:06,814 --> 01:36:09,716 At a cocktail party, she handed me a glass of sherry. 1109 01:36:09,784 --> 01:36:12,253 Was it South African sherry? 1110 01:36:12,320 --> 01:36:14,289 I wouldn't know, sir. 1111 01:36:14,355 --> 01:36:16,950 There weren't many like her. 1112 01:36:17,025 --> 01:36:19,824 My boy, now, he's always speaking of her. 1113 01:36:19,894 --> 01:36:22,659 How is your boy, Parkis? 1114 01:36:22,730 --> 01:36:26,724 He's exceptionally well, sir. Though he's a bit upset today. 1115 01:36:26,801 --> 01:36:29,737 He imagined she'd be buried in a Catholic way. 1116 01:36:29,804 --> 01:36:32,069 And why would he think that? 1117 01:36:32,140 --> 01:36:34,905 Young boys, sir, they get these ideas. 1118 01:36:34,976 --> 01:36:38,435 Though I have to admit, even I can't explain it. 1119 01:36:38,513 --> 01:36:41,176 Explain what? 1120 01:36:41,249 --> 01:36:46,017 On the day of her assignation, she walked him to a tube. 1121 01:36:46,087 --> 01:36:50,388 She thought he was lost, gave him a coin and kissed him on his cheek. 1122 01:36:50,458 --> 01:36:52,518 On his afflicted cheek, sir. 1123 01:36:52,593 --> 01:36:54,585 And over the weeks that followed... 1124 01:36:54,662 --> 01:36:57,188 his affliction gradually went away. 1125 01:36:57,265 --> 01:37:00,599 I tried to keep him rational, but he swears it was because of her. 1126 01:37:02,737 --> 01:37:05,172 Say hello to Mr. Bendrix, Lance. 1127 01:37:23,724 --> 01:37:25,556 Hello, sir. 1128 01:37:37,305 --> 01:37:41,436 I wrote at the start that this was a diary of hate. 1129 01:37:41,509 --> 01:37:44,707 I hated You as though You existed. 1130 01:37:44,779 --> 01:37:47,681 Now I am tired of hating... 1131 01:37:47,748 --> 01:37:49,740 but You're still there. 1132 01:37:49,817 --> 01:37:53,777 So Your cunning is infinite. 1133 01:37:53,921 --> 01:37:56,948 You used my hate to win my acknowledgement. 1134 01:37:57,024 --> 01:37:58,424 Thank you, Henry. 1135 01:37:58,493 --> 01:38:00,621 And I've only one prayer left. 1136 01:38:02,163 --> 01:38:05,031 Dear God, forget about me. 1137 01:38:06,100 --> 01:38:09,662 Look after her and Henry.