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-He doesn't want to come out.
-What?
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He wants to stay inside.
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Why?
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He says the world's too fucked up.
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Do you have any allergies?
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-No, but…
-Please, don't move.
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-Okay.
-Open your legs, please.
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Just breathe.
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-Relax.
-Yes.
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You can do it, little guy.
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That's it, it's over.
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-You did well.
-Great job.
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That's it.
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Well done.
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What happened?
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-He decided to stay inside.
-Who?
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Mateo. He doesn't want to come out.
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I saw some scissors back there.
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Now what?
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I don't know.
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How's he going to feed himself?
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He'll eat me, I guess.
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And you.
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BARDO, FALSE CHRONICLE
OF A HANDFUL OF TRUTHS
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Is that normal?
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That sound, is it normal?
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Shit!
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We must celebrate
this economic integration
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of imperial dimensions.
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Negotiation, not invasion.
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It is the Mexican people
this sale will benefit…
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Exalted compatriots!
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Before it falls in the hands of the enemy,
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I take with me the flag of the fatherland!
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May the myth rise over Mexico
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and give shelter to us forevermore!
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-Got a headache?
-A little.
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The altitude and the pollution
always kill me
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my first few days back in Mexico.
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The same happens to my dad
when he comes back to the capital.
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He says Mexico's not a country
but a state of mind.
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That's a good one. How is your dad?
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Good. Stuck in Oaxaca.
His emphysema's killing him.
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That's too bad. Say hi to him for me.
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Sure. You want me to stop at a pharmacy?
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Nah. Thanks, Antonio.
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So I heard on the radio you're going to be
on Luis Valdivia's TV show.
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Yeah. I didn't want to,
but you know how Lucía is.
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She forced me to take the invite.
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But… Didn't you see what he said
about your last documentary?
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Luis? No. What'd he say?
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Nothing good, sir.
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He said you were worse than Malinche.
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That you disrespected journalism
and who knows what else.
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It's docufiction, Antonio.
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If you don't know how to play around,
you don't deserve to be taken seriously.
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Truth is, I didn't watch
your documentary, sir.
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But I did see that guy on TV,
and he pissed me off.
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Luis is wrapping up a meeting,
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but he told me
he'll find you in makeup, okay?
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Congratulations, maestro. Welcome back.
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Thanks!
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Hey, when's the last time
you were on here?
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More than 30 years ago, I guess.
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Thirty? That's my age.
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Welcome again. Go ahead.
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Welcome.
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Hey, can you open up?
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We're back on Bocaguanga.
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We've got a breaking story
you won't believe.
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No one lifted a finger to help him.
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At the train's last stop,
he was the last passenger.
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Fucking gringos.
A cleaning woman found him.
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A compatriot of ours,
Doña Refugio Domínguez.
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Hello, Refugio.
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-Hi.
-We managed to catch up with her today.
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We'll have the pleasure
of speaking with her.
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Thanks for joining us.
Tell us what happened.
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I went in to clean the train car,
as usual,
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and saw it wasn't empty.
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I thought at first the guy might be
a drunk because that's common here.
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But then I saw the fish on the floor.
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They were all dead…
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Come on! Yeah, go on! Attention!
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Don't go! I…
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-…seven, eight…
-You can't go there!
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Wait!
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Silverio, I… Sorry, I'm sorry!
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Silverio, wait.
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Stop!
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You're out of sync!
Tania, I said to the right!
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Fuck you, dickhead! What do you know?
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Tania, it's always the same shit with you.
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Everyone, take your positions!
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Priscilla, on your mark.
Five, six, seven, eight.
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This way.
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We are here. I'm going to leave you here.
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-Thanks.
-No problem.
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Do my eyes deceive me?
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Hello, Marta.
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Silverio Gama.
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I thought you stepped on a landmine
in Afghanistan and got blown to bits.
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I'm still here. In one piece. For now.
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-How long has it been?
-Ages.
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Centuries.
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-Sorry, I was really…
-Busy. I know.
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But you could have found a minute
between documentaries to visit me.
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Come on, sit down.
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-Is this what you're wearing?
-Should I take it off?
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Yeah, right?
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Luis tried very hard to be happy for you.
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He sent me six bottles of prosecco.
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That's his way of congratulating you
without saying it.
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He never got over you abandoning him.
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I didn't abandon him.
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I left for a year and it turned into 20.
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I ran away from the censors,
and now look where we are.
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I worked hard to make a name for myself
as an independent journalist,
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then as a filmmaker.
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My mother still thinks
it was the worst decision of my life.
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Luis could have gone too.
No one put a gun to his head.
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Well… one time he criticized
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the ineptitude of Mexico's president
and his apostles and…
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The head of the station
comes through swinging his dick,
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calls him while he's on air,
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and nearly strings him up
by his balls on stage.
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It's a miracle he's still got his show.
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There are no heroes on this channel.
We all eat the same shit.
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We're terrified of losing
what little we've got.
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Tania?
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What?
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Tania Kristel?
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-What are you looking at?
-Sorry.
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Do I know you?
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No, but I know you.
I used to watch you on TV all the time.
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What are you thinking?
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Don Silverio Gama!
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-Luis, my man.
-Where have you been, cabrón?
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Hey.
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Give me a hug, cabrón.
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-Leave him alone, Marta.
-I will when I'm done.
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There's no fixing that face.
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Give me five.
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-Don't move.
-What are you doing?
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-Epic. My Twitter's going to blow up.
-Enough!
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-Don't be an asshole, cabrón.
-Look at him.
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He's still mad
I left him in the lurch, right?
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Furious!
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I've got the top-rated talk show
in Mexico, Papá.
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Yeah, you only interview YouTubers.
Nice stuff.
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That's news too, isn't it?
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Ready.
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Give me a hug, bro.
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-I missed you. Here is where we started.
-That's right.
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-How many days are you staying?
-Not many.
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Did you already prepare your speech
for the ceremony?
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No.
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I figured.
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Hey, I loved your last documentary.
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False Chronicle of a Handful of Truths.
Crazy stuff.
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-You liked it?
-Tons.
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But the part where you share a smoke
with Hernán Cortés was a bit much.
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How are you supposed to know
what Cortés or Juan Escutia was thinking?
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Did you run out of living people
to interview, or what?
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-You already working on the next one?
-Yeah, I mean, I'm raising money.
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It's going to be months of research,
lots of travel.
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I don't know how you can spend
so much time on one thing.
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The world changes with every week,
every day, every tweet.
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-Ten seconds.
-My questions?
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-I already gave them to you.
-I don't have my questions.
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Wait, yeah, I've got them. Good to go.
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Come on!
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Relax.
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Welcome to another episode
of Let's Suppose.
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We've got a special show today.
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Here with me is my close friend
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and former co-presenter
on the 8 o'clock news, Silverio Gama.
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Renowned documentary filmmaker,
and the first, that's right,
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the first Mexican to receive
the Alethea Award for journalistic ethics,
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given every four years
by the American Society of Journalists.
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You'll be getting it in Los Angeles
in just a few days.
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This interview is sponsored
by Los Molinos Coffee.
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Simply delicious.
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How are you?
How do you feel being back in your Mexico?
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I can't imagine how nervous you are.
A lot is riding on this award, no?
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Silverio?
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Are you with us?
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Can we check his mic?
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I think we've got a mic problem.
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My apologies.
This is the risk of doing live TV.
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Let me shoot straight, Silverio.
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Some of our colleagues say
American liberals are using you,
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and this award is to compensate for
the far right's attacks on our country.
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Are you aware of this?
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Let's suppose
they're giving you this award
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to please a community full of Mexicans…
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in Los Angeles.
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Do you not want to talk about it?
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Let's talk about your private life then.
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As the great Sainte-Beuve said,
a man's private life, what he does,
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the decisions he makes every day,
even what he eats, all define his work.
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Is it true it upset you
that they called you "darky" as a child?
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That it embarrassed your mother
and grandmother that you looked…
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well… darker than you should?
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More Indigenous than white?
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Was this disdain real?
It's your family, no?
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Señor…
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Alejandra Bravo told us, on Instagram…
Remember your first girlfriend?
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At 16, you ran away with her
to have a great adventure,
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but you refused
to take off your underwear!
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Because you were scared
of God's wrath, of Hell.
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What were you thinking?
You'd show up at the altar a virgin?
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The great Silverio Gama
was a dark-skinned car washer,
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a chump, a two-bit radio announcer.
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But today he has an honorary degree
from the UNAM.
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He's a Chevalier des Arts in France,
and he didn't even finish college.
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He's an entitled bougie bastard
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on a mission to portray misery
and poverty and society's outcasts,
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but he's best friends
with this station's owner
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and his family supports
the Club América de Fútbol.
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Now that the "guard dog of the truth" is
on the receiving end, how's it feel?
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You spent years
making TV ads for capitalism,
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but all of a sudden you're an artiste.
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I guess our friend
doesn't feel like talking.
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A word to the wise is sufficient.
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Amazing, Silverio.
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You'll gladly run your trap
for the gringos and whoever else,
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but here you clam up.
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A real shame.
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We're going to take a quick
commercial break. We'll be back.
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Silverio.
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Can you hear me?
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I got held up.
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Where are you?
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I was trying to get
an interview with Halbrook.
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I feel you can hear me.
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I hear you, Lucía.
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-There you are. Where'd you get off to?
-I don't know.
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-What do you mean?
-I was out and about.
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Why didn't you show up
for your interview with Luis?
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You want something to drink?
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The producers of Let's Suppose
haven't stopped calling.
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I didn't know what to say.
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-I'll call them later.
-Luis was calling all day.
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He's furious. He told me they spent
the whole week hyping up the interview.
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You're the one who accepted.
I didn't want to go.
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So now it's my fault.
248
00:30:49,083 --> 00:30:53,250
I was afraid they'd humiliate me,
make me a laughingstock.
249
00:30:53,333 --> 00:30:54,958
Why would they?
250
00:30:56,625 --> 00:30:59,000
Because the whole thing's a joke.
251
00:30:59,083 --> 00:31:00,458
What is?
252
00:31:01,958 --> 00:31:05,916
I go around seeking approval
from people who despise me.
253
00:31:08,416 --> 00:31:13,083
I act before I think,
hoping to get what I want, then when I do,
254
00:31:13,166 --> 00:31:14,708
I detest it.
255
00:31:15,708 --> 00:31:19,625
And then I'm ashamed I ever wanted it.
256
00:31:19,708 --> 00:31:21,833
What are you talking about?
257
00:31:21,916 --> 00:31:25,458
I spend my life trying to convince myself
of the importance of what I do,
258
00:31:25,541 --> 00:31:28,541
of the value of recognition.
259
00:31:28,625 --> 00:31:31,291
But when I get it, I feel nothing.
260
00:31:31,375 --> 00:31:33,583
The one thing I feel
is I don't deserve it.
261
00:31:33,666 --> 00:31:36,875
-Of course you deserve it.
-What do I deserve? That's hubris.
262
00:31:36,958 --> 00:31:41,083
Your lack of humility is hubris, Silverio.
You always do the same thing.
263
00:31:41,166 --> 00:31:44,416
You work and hide in a corner for years
and then when you show your work
264
00:31:44,500 --> 00:31:46,791
and get recognition,
you turn bitter, give up,
265
00:31:46,875 --> 00:31:48,750
get depressed, and play the victim.
266
00:31:48,833 --> 00:31:50,875
-I know.
-It's exhausting, Silverio.
267
00:31:50,958 --> 00:31:53,375
I am incapable of changing many things
I would like to, but I just can't.
268
00:31:53,458 --> 00:31:56,958
-And believe me, I've tried.
-Your imposter syndrome is pathetic.
269
00:31:57,041 --> 00:31:59,000
You could have at least called.
270
00:31:59,083 --> 00:32:01,125
That's what Luis and everyone else thinks.
271
00:32:01,208 --> 00:32:02,916
-They all know it.
-It's craziness.
272
00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:08,166
You inevitably turn into
what you think others think you are.
273
00:32:08,250 --> 00:32:11,416
All anyone's interested in
is the inanities of our personal life,
274
00:32:11,500 --> 00:32:14,208
otherwise, nothing we do matters to them.
275
00:32:15,083 --> 00:32:17,458
And you're just figuring that out now?
276
00:32:17,541 --> 00:32:20,125
Not going was worse.
Luis is smearing you all over the web.
277
00:32:20,208 --> 00:32:23,125
Now it's not a studio audience laughing,
it's his three million followers.
278
00:32:23,208 --> 00:32:24,791
Look what he posted.
279
00:32:26,625 --> 00:32:31,375
I'm telling you, life is nothing
but a series of idiotic images.
280
00:32:31,458 --> 00:32:33,750
Exposure at any price.
281
00:32:33,833 --> 00:32:37,250
Repeating the same scenes of us shitting,
wiping our asses,
282
00:32:37,333 --> 00:32:38,875
and being ridiculed.
283
00:32:38,958 --> 00:32:40,541
Quit it.
284
00:32:41,333 --> 00:32:43,791
-What?
-Your lips aren't moving.
285
00:32:43,875 --> 00:32:46,208
-Does that bother you?
-Yeah, quit.
286
00:32:46,291 --> 00:32:47,833
Fine, I'll stop.
287
00:33:09,000 --> 00:33:11,791
Sooner or later you'll have to call Luis.
288
00:33:12,500 --> 00:33:13,708
I know.
289
00:33:13,791 --> 00:33:16,583
How dare you leave him hanging
on a live TV show?
290
00:33:18,500 --> 00:33:19,958
I'm going to Uruapan.
291
00:33:20,041 --> 00:33:21,083
When?
292
00:33:21,166 --> 00:33:23,250
I already told you, tomorrow.
293
00:33:23,333 --> 00:33:27,083
It's the biggest fair,
and I can't let Lucero go alone.
294
00:33:27,166 --> 00:33:29,083
I've been gone too long.
295
00:33:41,250 --> 00:33:42,583
So…?
296
00:33:45,375 --> 00:33:48,291
It's got to be today, then.
297
00:33:48,375 --> 00:33:50,041
What choice do we have?
298
00:34:51,208 --> 00:34:53,041
I found you.
299
00:36:25,083 --> 00:36:26,875
Will you marry me?
300
00:37:51,125 --> 00:37:51,958
Pa.
301
00:37:55,875 --> 00:37:56,708
Lorenzo?
302
00:37:58,750 --> 00:38:00,083
What time is it?
303
00:38:00,708 --> 00:38:02,041
Late…
304
00:38:02,125 --> 00:38:03,791
Early. I don't know.
305
00:38:03,875 --> 00:38:05,916
You don't have to get up for a while.
306
00:38:06,958 --> 00:38:10,125
-I had a nice dream.
-What did you dream?
307
00:38:10,208 --> 00:38:13,875
You were chasing Mamá
around the apartment.
308
00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:15,666
You were both laughing.
309
00:38:15,750 --> 00:38:18,125
Mamá had her boobies out.
310
00:38:18,208 --> 00:38:19,833
You saw us?
311
00:38:19,916 --> 00:38:22,333
No, it was just a dream.
312
00:38:23,958 --> 00:38:24,833
But…
313
00:38:25,541 --> 00:38:27,958
I had a nightmare afterward.
314
00:38:29,500 --> 00:38:34,208
I had a clear plastic tube
315
00:38:34,291 --> 00:38:37,666
in my mouth
and it was blowing all this air
316
00:38:37,750 --> 00:38:40,125
and I swelled up like a balloon.
317
00:38:40,958 --> 00:38:45,541
I couldn't breathe,
it was blocking my throat.
318
00:38:45,625 --> 00:38:47,083
So
319
00:38:47,166 --> 00:38:48,708
I pulled it out
320
00:38:49,500 --> 00:38:50,458
with my hands.
321
00:38:50,541 --> 00:38:53,458
Talk softer,
you're going to wake up your sister.
322
00:38:54,375 --> 00:38:56,375
She's not going to wake up.
323
00:38:56,458 --> 00:38:59,500
She's asleep, same as me.
324
00:39:00,833 --> 00:39:05,833
There were people
in the windows watching me,
325
00:39:05,916 --> 00:39:08,416
but they didn't say anything.
326
00:39:08,500 --> 00:39:11,666
My brother Mateo was there too.
327
00:39:11,750 --> 00:39:16,083
And the people left
and you sat down on my bed
328
00:39:17,041 --> 00:39:22,333
and looked at me with sad eyes.
329
00:39:22,416 --> 00:39:26,833
As you are looking at me now,
and that's what I'm dreaming.
330
00:39:26,916 --> 00:39:28,958
And so are you.
331
00:39:29,041 --> 00:39:31,833
-But we're awake.
-No.
332
00:39:31,916 --> 00:39:34,666
I'm dreaming you.
333
00:39:34,750 --> 00:39:38,416
-You can't dream that you're dreaming.
-I can.
334
00:39:38,500 --> 00:39:39,833
Yes, I can.
335
00:39:39,916 --> 00:39:42,208
Does this hurt?
336
00:39:42,291 --> 00:39:43,250
No.
337
00:39:43,333 --> 00:39:45,583
Really? What about now?
338
00:39:45,666 --> 00:39:47,333
-No.
-And now?
339
00:39:47,416 --> 00:39:50,541
No, because I'm dreaming.
340
00:39:50,625 --> 00:39:52,208
Here's what we'll do then.
341
00:39:52,291 --> 00:39:55,458
I'll cut off a lock of your hair
342
00:39:55,541 --> 00:39:58,916
and put it in the nightstand.
343
00:39:59,000 --> 00:40:03,458
If you find it when you wake up tomorrow,
that means we're awake.
344
00:40:07,208 --> 00:40:08,916
Here we go.
345
00:40:19,583 --> 00:40:20,958
Good night.
346
00:40:26,000 --> 00:40:27,500
Pa?
347
00:40:28,541 --> 00:40:29,625
Paco's sick.
348
00:40:32,833 --> 00:40:34,416
How do you know?
349
00:40:34,500 --> 00:40:36,125
There are worms.
350
00:40:37,708 --> 00:40:39,291
Looks fine to me.
351
00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:42,875
-Pa?
-Yes?
352
00:40:42,958 --> 00:40:45,166
Why's it called Los Angeles?
353
00:40:45,250 --> 00:40:46,250
I don't know.
354
00:40:46,333 --> 00:40:48,625
Are there angels in Los Angeles?
355
00:40:48,708 --> 00:40:51,291
Maybe. Get some sleep.
356
00:40:52,041 --> 00:40:53,041
Pa?
357
00:40:54,250 --> 00:40:56,166
I don't want to leave them here.
358
00:40:56,250 --> 00:40:59,333
-Who?
-Paco, Guido, and Ernesto.
359
00:40:59,875 --> 00:41:02,083
I want us to take them.
360
00:41:02,166 --> 00:41:05,708
We'll talk about that tomorrow.
It's sleepy time now.
361
00:41:24,208 --> 00:41:25,750
Where were you?
362
00:41:27,583 --> 00:41:30,666
-You didn't close the door.
-It doesn't matter.
363
00:41:32,208 --> 00:41:34,166
They can't hear us.
364
00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:17,708
What are you doing?
365
00:42:22,833 --> 00:42:24,791
He's back.
366
00:42:26,708 --> 00:42:27,833
Again?
367
00:42:34,750 --> 00:42:36,083
Push him back in.
368
00:42:45,166 --> 00:42:48,125
-What is it?
-He doesn't want to go.
369
00:42:49,250 --> 00:42:50,208
Wait.
370
00:43:07,958 --> 00:43:11,875
He keeps coming back. I think
he wanted to tell us something this time.
371
00:43:11,958 --> 00:43:14,291
He's a baby. What's he going to say?
372
00:43:14,375 --> 00:43:16,875
-He's trying to blame us.
-For what?
373
00:43:16,958 --> 00:43:18,958
For the distance between us.
374
00:43:19,500 --> 00:43:22,041
For my selfishness.
375
00:43:22,125 --> 00:43:25,291
Remember how I blew up the night before?
376
00:43:25,375 --> 00:43:27,000
That's why we lost him.
377
00:43:27,083 --> 00:43:30,375
We didn't lose him. He chose not to come.
378
00:43:34,083 --> 00:43:37,583
Lorenzo told me he saw Mateo in a dream.
379
00:43:38,250 --> 00:43:41,000
How could he dream of him
if Lorenzo was born a year later?
380
00:43:41,083 --> 00:43:43,791
It doesn't matter. They remember him.
381
00:43:43,875 --> 00:43:46,625
We told the kids over and over
Mateo wasn't here
382
00:43:46,708 --> 00:43:50,416
because he was flying around Heaven
with his little wings.
383
00:43:50,500 --> 00:43:51,333
Remember?
384
00:43:53,125 --> 00:43:55,541
Mateo's just an idea now.
385
00:43:55,625 --> 00:43:57,125
He's not a person.
386
00:44:00,166 --> 00:44:02,041
People come and go.
387
00:44:04,375 --> 00:44:06,916
Ideas are what remain.
388
00:44:09,458 --> 00:44:11,541
I don't remember his face.
389
00:44:11,625 --> 00:44:15,208
How can a child just transform
into a vague memory?
390
00:44:17,500 --> 00:44:19,458
He didn't give me the chance.
391
00:44:19,541 --> 00:44:20,916
To what?
392
00:44:21,000 --> 00:44:23,125
I know I can be a good father.
393
00:44:24,916 --> 00:44:26,291
Poor little boy.
394
00:44:27,708 --> 00:44:31,875
If I saw that face of yours, I'd want
to crawl back inside my mother too.
395
00:44:32,666 --> 00:44:34,708
He must have been horrified
when he saw you.
396
00:44:34,791 --> 00:44:37,208
Poor Lorenzo and Camila
didn't have a choice,
397
00:44:37,291 --> 00:44:39,875
they have to look at this mug every day.
398
00:44:47,166 --> 00:44:49,458
We should let Mateo go.
399
00:44:59,958 --> 00:45:02,750
We could start
by taking him out of this room.
400
00:45:07,583 --> 00:45:10,000
We need to find a new place for him.
401
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:12,750
Somewhere he can rest.
402
00:45:36,333 --> 00:45:38,375
Get up, Silverio.
403
00:45:39,500 --> 00:45:41,333
I'm making breakfast.
404
00:45:47,916 --> 00:45:48,750
Who's coming?
405
00:45:49,875 --> 00:45:51,791
Hello? Come on up.
406
00:45:51,875 --> 00:45:53,291
-It's Miguel.
-Miguel who?
407
00:45:53,375 --> 00:45:55,125
The hairdresser, he's been here before.
408
00:45:55,208 --> 00:45:57,666
-So early?
-They're picking us up at 7:00 p.m.
409
00:45:57,750 --> 00:46:00,416
It's 10:00 a.m. Will you spend
nine hours with your hair done up?
410
00:46:00,500 --> 00:46:03,333
Yeah, for you. You should be grateful.
411
00:46:05,125 --> 00:46:09,208
You could have shut the door last night
before doing whatever you were doing.
412
00:46:09,291 --> 00:46:11,208
Good morning, Lorenzo. How'd you sleep?
413
00:46:13,250 --> 00:46:14,958
I'm making eggs, does anyone want some?
414
00:46:16,208 --> 00:46:17,750
Silverio?
415
00:46:17,833 --> 00:46:18,666
Eggs?
416
00:46:21,625 --> 00:46:22,708
Who's that?
417
00:46:22,791 --> 00:46:23,833
Miguel.
418
00:46:23,916 --> 00:46:26,375
-Miguel who?
-The hairdresser.
419
00:46:32,625 --> 00:46:35,541
Go into the living room,
I'll meet you there.
420
00:46:36,708 --> 00:46:39,291
Today's the journalist union party.
421
00:46:39,375 --> 00:46:42,041
-I thought it was tomorrow.
-No, it's today.
422
00:46:43,750 --> 00:46:46,500
Thanks for being so nice with Miguel.
423
00:46:48,625 --> 00:46:49,875
Hey.
424
00:46:49,958 --> 00:46:51,791
What do you think of this?
425
00:46:54,125 --> 00:46:56,625
-What is it?
-My neighborhood. Colonia Narvarte.
426
00:46:56,708 --> 00:47:01,833
Martín wants us to start the video
with images and photos of my roots.
427
00:47:01,916 --> 00:47:05,250
I like the idea, but don't use that music.
428
00:47:06,416 --> 00:47:07,625
Why?
429
00:47:07,708 --> 00:47:09,416
Who gives a shit about roots, Pa?
430
00:47:11,125 --> 00:47:13,541
But not everyone knows where I'm from.
431
00:47:14,333 --> 00:47:19,125
But you're right.
If I don't care, who the fuck would?
432
00:47:20,666 --> 00:47:24,500
-Do you want to watch a movie?
-Moo… mie.
433
00:47:24,583 --> 00:47:27,208
What do you think of this?
434
00:47:27,291 --> 00:47:29,041
Who is that? Me?
435
00:47:29,541 --> 00:47:32,958
No, you can't put that on,
it's embarrassing.
436
00:47:36,416 --> 00:47:39,166
Where'd you find that?
I haven't heard it in years.
437
00:47:39,250 --> 00:47:41,541
We recorded it on the way to Zihuatanejo.
438
00:47:41,625 --> 00:47:42,458
Mamá, stop.
439
00:47:42,541 --> 00:47:45,291
Your dad and I recorded
everything for the first…
440
00:47:45,375 --> 00:47:47,208
What? Twelve years.
441
00:47:47,291 --> 00:47:50,583
Every sound on every trip we took.
We even recorded your farts.
442
00:47:50,666 --> 00:47:52,541
Wait, listen to this.
443
00:47:53,125 --> 00:47:54,458
Is that Japan?
444
00:47:55,125 --> 00:47:56,083
Incredible…
445
00:47:57,500 --> 00:47:58,750
Why not?
446
00:48:00,416 --> 00:48:03,291
Jesus, wash your hair.
What time is Camila coming?
447
00:48:03,375 --> 00:48:05,791
After lunch.
She's going to call me when she lands.
448
00:48:07,500 --> 00:48:09,541
Your chilaquiles are ready.
449
00:48:09,625 --> 00:48:12,791
You need to eat, Silverio,
you've got a long day.
450
00:48:13,750 --> 00:48:17,166
There are no eggs.
I'll be right back, I'm going with Miguel.
451
00:48:17,250 --> 00:48:18,583
No eggs?
452
00:48:27,333 --> 00:48:30,833
That's one of the strangest and most
emotional documentaries I've done.
453
00:48:30,916 --> 00:48:33,375
On their way to the US border
to seek asylum,
454
00:48:33,458 --> 00:48:37,083
the people in the caravan stopped to pray
at the Cerro de las Piedras.
455
00:48:37,166 --> 00:48:39,875
And Our Lady
of San Juan de los Lagos appeared.
456
00:48:39,958 --> 00:48:43,208
There were many of them,
but they never made it to the border.
457
00:48:43,291 --> 00:48:45,208
When we tried to find them,
458
00:48:46,041 --> 00:48:49,166
all that was left was their clothes,
some belongings.
459
00:48:49,250 --> 00:48:51,625
No sign of the bodies.
460
00:48:51,708 --> 00:48:56,250
Some say Our Lady of San Juan de Los Lagos
came to take them away.
461
00:48:56,333 --> 00:48:59,875
Maybe it was an answer
to so much faith and despair.
462
00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:02,833
-And you believe it?
-No.
463
00:49:02,916 --> 00:49:05,333
I mean,
I don't believe anything until I see it.
464
00:49:05,416 --> 00:49:08,041
But a documentarian
shouldn't believe or not believe,
465
00:49:08,125 --> 00:49:11,500
he just needs to look
and know where to focus.
466
00:49:11,583 --> 00:49:15,500
And some of these people
told the camera incredible stories.
467
00:49:16,125 --> 00:49:19,916
-You're going to put that in your video?
-Yeah, I think so.
468
00:49:21,750 --> 00:49:25,291
Because it's a big part of what we are,
a country of immigrants.
469
00:49:25,375 --> 00:49:28,458
These people make sacrifices
and leave everything behind,
470
00:49:28,541 --> 00:49:32,000
because here they're nothing,
they're looking for something better.
471
00:49:32,083 --> 00:49:34,958
Cleaning the bathrooms
at an In-N-Out is better?
472
00:49:35,041 --> 00:49:37,666
Yeah, for many of them it is.
473
00:49:37,750 --> 00:49:40,500
No. They go 'cause they want to.
We left too.
474
00:49:40,583 --> 00:49:41,541
No, it's not the same.
475
00:49:43,375 --> 00:49:45,250
Yeah, but they don't have a choice.
476
00:49:45,333 --> 00:49:49,166
They leave because there's no work.
Here, people kill them, extort them.
477
00:49:49,250 --> 00:49:53,125
We didn't lack anything,
we're first-class immigrants.
478
00:49:57,083 --> 00:49:58,208
What?
479
00:50:11,500 --> 00:50:13,875
Who made you king shit?
480
00:50:15,125 --> 00:50:18,416
You're 17 years old
and you act like you know everything.
481
00:50:18,500 --> 00:50:19,583
When I was your age,
482
00:50:19,666 --> 00:50:22,625
I was on a fishing boat,
working my way around the world.
483
00:50:24,166 --> 00:50:26,666
That's what happens
when you give someone everything
484
00:50:26,750 --> 00:50:28,500
and they never learn shit.
485
00:50:28,583 --> 00:50:31,750
You don't appreciate anything
because you've never worked for it.
486
00:50:31,833 --> 00:50:34,666
You've got no responsibilities.
487
00:50:36,500 --> 00:50:37,333
What?
488
00:50:39,166 --> 00:50:42,833
No one told me.
No one ever warns you about it.
489
00:50:42,916 --> 00:50:47,208
Your kid becomes a teenager
and it's a full-time job.
490
00:50:47,291 --> 00:50:50,166
Everything's a fucking problem.
491
00:50:56,041 --> 00:50:58,208
You realize that, right?
492
00:50:58,291 --> 00:51:02,500
That you don't respect anyone or anything,
not even your parents.
493
00:51:02,583 --> 00:51:05,125
And those people,
whose lives you find depressing,
494
00:51:05,208 --> 00:51:08,041
at least they respect who they are,
their ancestors,
495
00:51:08,125 --> 00:51:09,708
their customs…
496
00:51:09,791 --> 00:51:13,083
Their rituals existed way before the USA,
497
00:51:13,166 --> 00:51:17,125
a country that only respects money,
learned to walk.
498
00:51:32,625 --> 00:51:33,625
Yes, I insist.
499
00:51:39,000 --> 00:51:40,833
Speak Spanish, dammit.
500
00:51:41,958 --> 00:51:45,291
Because we're in Mexico,
we're Mexicans and we speak Spanish!
501
00:51:45,375 --> 00:51:47,666
You couldn't pick up the phone?
502
00:51:47,750 --> 00:51:48,666
Hello?
503
00:51:50,458 --> 00:51:51,416
What?
504
00:52:01,166 --> 00:52:02,458
Lorenzo, stop…
505
00:52:02,958 --> 00:52:04,000
Enough!
506
00:52:08,500 --> 00:52:09,458
That was Reynolds.
507
00:52:09,541 --> 00:52:13,625
He said the rehearsal for the award
is next Tuesday at 5:00 p.m. LA time.
508
00:52:30,583 --> 00:52:33,416
Our Lady de Los Lagos
didn't make those immigrants disappear,
509
00:52:33,500 --> 00:52:36,208
they disappeared
because they fucking died.
510
00:52:49,541 --> 00:52:53,666
-You know you're no different, right?
-What?
511
00:52:53,750 --> 00:52:56,791
If someone praises Mexico,
you lecture them about how fucked it is.
512
00:52:56,875 --> 00:52:58,625
But if a gringo criticizes it,
513
00:52:58,708 --> 00:53:01,375
you recite all the reasons why Mexico is
514
00:53:01,458 --> 00:53:04,875
the most fascinating gastronomical,
anthropological, and cultural experiment
515
00:53:04,958 --> 00:53:06,375
the world's ever known.
516
00:53:06,458 --> 00:53:09,833
Lucía, all I'm saying
is you have to leave Mexico
517
00:53:09,916 --> 00:53:13,250
to realize what you've lost
and what they've stolen and destroyed.
518
00:53:13,333 --> 00:53:15,916
Lorenzo was just trying to tell you
he thinks it's a poor country.
519
00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:18,333
It's not poor, it's unequal.
There's a difference.
520
00:53:18,416 --> 00:53:21,208
Perfect. You win again, Silverio.
521
00:53:21,291 --> 00:53:23,375
Your justifications are faultless.
522
00:53:23,458 --> 00:53:26,875
As always. When's the last time
you even strolled around Mexico City?
523
00:53:30,541 --> 00:53:32,291
Let it go.
524
00:53:34,000 --> 00:53:36,166
You really want another chance?
525
00:53:36,250 --> 00:53:38,458
-At what?
-At being a good father.
526
00:53:39,666 --> 00:53:41,916
-Yeah.
-Well, you've got one.
527
00:53:42,000 --> 00:53:44,291
With Lorenzo and Camila.
They're still young.
528
00:53:44,375 --> 00:53:48,500
-You just need to learn to be present.
-I'm here, Lucía.
529
00:53:48,583 --> 00:53:52,041
Yeah, with your laptop
working on your fucking award video.
530
00:53:55,875 --> 00:53:58,041
I'm going to pick up the clothes!
531
00:55:05,541 --> 00:55:08,041
This desert is a killing machine.
532
00:55:08,125 --> 00:55:12,791
If the heat and mountains don't kill you,
a snake or a scorpion will.
533
00:55:12,875 --> 00:55:16,625
-Where are you going?
-Arizona.
534
00:55:16,708 --> 00:55:19,208
We're going to cross through Nogales.
535
00:55:19,291 --> 00:55:22,375
We're taking the god Centéotl
so they'll bring him back to life.
536
00:55:22,458 --> 00:55:24,625
What happened to the god Centéotl?
537
00:55:24,708 --> 00:55:28,583
He died. There's no corn left.
We're starving to death.
538
00:55:28,666 --> 00:55:31,583
You don't have to die to go to Hell.
539
00:55:31,666 --> 00:55:34,083
Just go to Chalchihuites
and you'll find it.
540
00:55:34,166 --> 00:55:38,000
There, in our village,
everything is death, hunger, violence.
541
00:55:39,791 --> 00:55:41,541
Are there more people with you?
542
00:55:41,625 --> 00:55:43,541
Our grandkids.
543
00:55:43,625 --> 00:55:45,666
Back there, they've got Centéotl.
544
00:55:46,166 --> 00:55:48,958
My two kids were killed.
545
00:55:49,041 --> 00:55:51,833
So we're going north to meet my brother.
546
00:55:53,791 --> 00:55:54,833
Thanks.
547
00:55:54,916 --> 00:55:56,041
Safe travels.
548
00:56:42,083 --> 00:56:43,791
Do you have enough water?
549
00:56:44,708 --> 00:56:47,416
There she is! They found her!
550
00:57:00,458 --> 00:57:06,541
Listen to my sister! She's on the phone!
551
00:57:07,416 --> 00:57:11,958
She says Our Lady of Los Lagos appeared
to them on the Cerro de las Piedras.
552
00:57:24,166 --> 00:57:29,000
As they reached the top of the hill,
night turned to day.
553
00:57:29,083 --> 00:57:33,041
And then she appeared!
She's blessing them!
554
00:58:47,833 --> 00:58:48,833
Silverio…
555
00:58:52,375 --> 00:58:53,416
Silverio…
556
00:58:57,333 --> 00:58:59,666
Silverio, how are you feeling?
557
00:59:02,625 --> 00:59:04,458
You seem tired.
558
00:59:07,791 --> 00:59:08,958
Peaceful.
559
00:59:12,166 --> 00:59:13,166
Tranquil.
560
00:59:54,583 --> 00:59:56,166
You're not scared?
561
00:59:59,166 --> 01:00:00,791
Scared of what?
562
01:00:02,291 --> 01:00:03,833
Of dying.
563
01:00:09,958 --> 01:00:13,208
For you people,
death is a Christian affair,
564
01:00:13,291 --> 01:00:17,083
a comfortable heart attack in bed.
565
01:00:18,208 --> 01:00:22,333
For us, it's our daily bread.
Getting tossed in a mass grave.
566
01:00:22,416 --> 01:00:25,583
Here in jail,
no one can come in and kill me.
567
01:00:25,666 --> 01:00:28,750
But I can have you killed out there.
568
01:00:29,250 --> 01:00:31,666
I used to be poor, invisible.
569
01:00:31,750 --> 01:00:33,916
You all ignored me for decades.
570
01:00:34,000 --> 01:00:35,708
Now…
571
01:00:35,791 --> 01:00:38,625
I've got you by the balls.
572
01:00:42,416 --> 01:00:44,416
We're walking bombs.
573
01:00:44,500 --> 01:00:47,666
There are millions of us
in the poor villages.
574
01:00:47,750 --> 01:00:51,041
We stand at the heart of the paradox.
575
01:00:51,125 --> 01:00:53,000
We're a new species.
576
01:00:53,083 --> 01:00:56,000
A different beast. We're not like you.
577
01:00:56,083 --> 01:00:57,791
What should we have done?
578
01:01:00,416 --> 01:01:03,583
You intellectuals
579
01:01:03,666 --> 01:01:07,208
love running your mouths
about class struggle, the marginalized.
580
01:01:07,291 --> 01:01:10,750
Then we show up.
581
01:01:15,625 --> 01:01:20,250
The proletariat, the dejected,
the exploited, all that's old news.
582
01:01:20,333 --> 01:01:24,708
There's something new out there,
raised in the mud,
583
01:01:24,791 --> 01:01:27,083
schooled on the purest illiteracy,
584
01:01:28,083 --> 01:01:30,708
and it lurks like an alien monster
on the corners of the city.
585
01:01:31,333 --> 01:01:33,750
You're looking at
what you might call "post-poverty."
586
01:01:33,833 --> 01:01:37,416
What changed out in the slums?
587
01:01:37,500 --> 01:01:38,458
Cash.
588
01:01:38,541 --> 01:01:40,458
We've got millions,
589
01:01:40,541 --> 01:01:43,625
and you are all bankrupt
and are led by incompetents.
590
01:01:43,708 --> 01:01:45,791
Damn straight!
591
01:01:45,875 --> 01:01:46,916
Do you get it?
592
01:01:47,000 --> 01:01:50,125
Our methods are agile,
593
01:01:50,208 --> 01:01:52,541
you're slow and bureaucratic.
594
01:01:52,625 --> 01:01:56,208
We don't fear death, you're dying of fear.
595
01:01:56,291 --> 01:02:00,666
We pack real guns, you pack .38s.
596
01:02:01,166 --> 01:02:04,750
We attack, you defend.
597
01:02:04,833 --> 01:02:06,958
You say "human rights,"
598
01:02:07,041 --> 01:02:09,541
we're cruel and show no mercy.
599
01:02:10,041 --> 01:02:14,750
You've made us TV stars,
we've made you clowns.
600
01:02:14,833 --> 01:02:18,916
The slum dwellers help us,
out of love or fear,
601
01:02:19,000 --> 01:02:20,333
but they hate you.
602
01:02:20,416 --> 01:02:24,500
You're regional, provincial,
nationalist, corrupt.
603
01:02:24,583 --> 01:02:27,958
We've got 50 million
captive gringo junkies.
604
01:02:28,041 --> 01:02:31,291
Our guns come from overseas,
from the Yankees, we're global.
605
01:02:31,375 --> 01:02:35,500
We don't forget about you,
you're our customers.
606
01:02:35,583 --> 01:02:39,708
You forget us as soon as the shock
of the violence we provoke has passed.
607
01:02:45,541 --> 01:02:48,083
HONORARY MEMBER
OF THE MEXICAN JOURNALISTS UNION
608
01:03:19,000 --> 01:03:21,708
How's it feel being
in front of the camera?
609
01:03:21,791 --> 01:03:23,916
What's going through your head right now?
610
01:03:24,000 --> 01:03:28,333
If I told you what I was thinking
right now, I'd get locked up for life.
611
01:03:28,416 --> 01:03:31,041
Silverio, do you feel more gringo
or more Mexican?
612
01:03:31,125 --> 01:03:33,875
My nationality is no nationality.
613
01:03:33,958 --> 01:03:36,208
Do you understand
what's going on in your country?
614
01:03:36,291 --> 01:03:39,000
No. Honestly,
I can't understand my country,
615
01:03:39,083 --> 01:03:40,500
all I can do is love it.
616
01:03:40,583 --> 01:03:43,625
How should we respond to
the most dangerous cartel on the planet?
617
01:03:43,708 --> 01:03:46,291
The corporate cartel of the USA?
618
01:03:47,583 --> 01:03:50,041
Will you take a photo with me?
619
01:03:51,500 --> 01:03:52,333
Thanks.
620
01:03:52,416 --> 01:03:53,750
I love your work.
621
01:03:57,416 --> 01:03:58,916
I love your work too.
622
01:03:59,000 --> 01:04:00,916
Thank you. Good night.
623
01:04:14,416 --> 01:04:16,750
That arrogant son of a bitch.
624
01:04:18,166 --> 01:04:19,208
No mezcal around?
625
01:04:19,291 --> 01:04:22,708
I saw a waiter serving some over there.
626
01:04:25,416 --> 01:04:26,458
Pa!
627
01:04:26,541 --> 01:04:29,583
Darling! It's good to see you!
628
01:04:29,666 --> 01:04:33,375
The flight got delayed,
it won't stop snowing in Boston.
629
01:04:39,708 --> 01:04:42,208
So this whole party's just for you?
630
01:04:42,291 --> 01:04:43,541
So it seems.
631
01:04:43,625 --> 01:04:46,833
Horrible. Come on,
my aunts and uncles are over there.
632
01:04:46,916 --> 01:04:49,916
-The whole family's waiting for you.
-Where are they?
633
01:05:03,375 --> 01:05:06,833
-Where are they?
-In the back, Ma.
634
01:05:28,125 --> 01:05:29,333
Brother-in-law!
635
01:05:29,416 --> 01:05:33,333
Who paid for this blowout?
Thought you journalists were broke.
636
01:05:33,416 --> 01:05:36,375
No matter if they treat you nice
or bad, you bitch anyway.
637
01:05:36,458 --> 01:05:39,000
-Have a fucking drink, they're free.
-In that case…
638
01:05:39,083 --> 01:05:41,208
My darky!
639
01:05:41,291 --> 01:05:42,666
My dear sister!
640
01:05:42,750 --> 01:05:46,375
I loved the documentary. So much.
641
01:05:46,458 --> 01:05:49,166
So good. But a little whiny, no?
642
01:05:49,250 --> 01:05:50,375
And a little long.
643
01:05:50,458 --> 01:05:53,916
It's 90 minutes long, you lazy bum.
644
01:05:57,500 --> 01:05:58,833
The jewel in the crown.
645
01:05:58,916 --> 01:06:00,875
I clean up pretty good, don't I?
646
01:06:00,958 --> 01:06:05,625
Maybe you can stick me in your next film,
even just in the corner as an extra.
647
01:06:05,708 --> 01:06:06,875
Congratulations.
648
01:06:16,875 --> 01:06:19,833
You finally made it, cabrón!
649
01:06:21,333 --> 01:06:22,541
I missed you guys.
650
01:06:22,625 --> 01:06:24,541
It's a miracle, cabrón.
651
01:06:24,625 --> 01:06:28,333
My daughter got married, you bailed.
My father died, you bailed.
652
01:06:28,416 --> 01:06:31,083
But they throw a party for you
and here you are.
653
01:06:31,166 --> 01:06:34,291
You think his lordship
will come to our bullshit get-togethers?
654
01:06:34,375 --> 01:06:36,875
Good to see you. Congratulations, cabrón.
655
01:06:36,958 --> 01:06:40,291
They won't leave you alone.
They're disguised complaints, brother.
656
01:06:40,375 --> 01:06:42,333
Who'd have thought you'd get an award
657
01:06:42,416 --> 01:06:45,708
from the same bastards
you've been criticizing your whole life?
658
01:06:45,791 --> 01:06:47,166
I know, right?
659
01:06:47,250 --> 01:06:49,875
-You've got something on your nose.
-What?
660
01:06:52,041 --> 01:06:56,333
A piece of shit
from kissing all that gringo ass.
661
01:06:56,416 --> 01:06:59,875
Honestly, considering you're
such a dumbass, you surprised all of us.
662
01:06:59,958 --> 01:07:02,791
Oh, piss off!
663
01:07:02,875 --> 01:07:06,125
Seriously, though. I really admire you.
664
01:07:07,041 --> 01:07:08,833
Thanks. I admire you too.
665
01:07:10,708 --> 01:07:12,916
Keep your feet on the ground, okay?
666
01:07:13,000 --> 01:07:15,250
How about you lift your fat ass off it?
667
01:07:15,333 --> 01:07:18,083
He fucking got me!
He's calling me a loser, cabrón.
668
01:07:18,166 --> 01:07:21,166
Go back to the other side
and kiss some more Mexican ass.
669
01:07:21,250 --> 01:07:24,041
Don't fuck with him,
you'll wind up in the papers.
670
01:07:24,125 --> 01:07:26,333
Look who's coming, Pablo Galindo!
671
01:07:26,416 --> 01:07:27,916
Pablito, run and hide, cabrón.
672
01:07:28,000 --> 01:07:32,583
You don't want word getting out
about your beach mansion in Baja.
673
01:07:32,666 --> 01:07:35,583
I couldn't give a fuck, pal.
674
01:07:37,416 --> 01:07:38,875
Here's to Silverio.
675
01:07:38,958 --> 01:07:40,958
A toast!
676
01:07:44,083 --> 01:07:48,000
-Cheers!
-Cheers!
677
01:07:52,458 --> 01:07:54,500
Give me a cigarette.
678
01:07:54,583 --> 01:07:56,541
These people are driving me nuts.
679
01:07:56,625 --> 01:07:58,875
-Who is that?
-Where?
680
01:07:58,958 --> 01:08:02,083
Over there.
The art critic. I forgot his name.
681
01:08:02,166 --> 01:08:03,875
As usual.
682
01:08:16,583 --> 01:08:18,166
Hey, Luis.
683
01:08:18,750 --> 01:08:20,750
Thanks for showing up.
684
01:08:20,833 --> 01:08:23,583
Thanks for not inviting me, cabrón.
685
01:08:23,666 --> 01:08:26,791
-Lucía, how are you?
-Good, Luis. So nice you came.
686
01:08:26,875 --> 01:08:29,250
I'm going for a mezcal, you want anything?
687
01:08:29,333 --> 01:08:30,666
No, thanks. I'm good.
688
01:08:30,750 --> 01:08:32,958
Mezcal, thanks.
689
01:08:34,416 --> 01:08:37,875
The illustrious Don Silverio Gama.
690
01:08:37,958 --> 01:08:40,291
Journalist, documentarian/artist.
691
01:08:40,375 --> 01:08:43,166
The icon looking down on us
from his pedestal.
692
01:08:43,250 --> 01:08:46,250
Who neither shows up for his interview
693
01:08:46,333 --> 01:08:48,666
nor cares about the efforts made
by an entire live TV crew.
694
01:08:48,750 --> 01:08:49,750
I'm sorry, Luis.
695
01:08:49,833 --> 01:08:53,583
'Cause, to you,
everyone at this party is just a peon.
696
01:08:53,666 --> 01:08:55,583
Yeah, each and every one of us.
697
01:08:55,666 --> 01:08:57,791
But you're wrong.
698
01:08:57,875 --> 01:09:00,958
Those of us who didn't high-tail it
out of Mexico, we're martyrs.
699
01:09:01,041 --> 01:09:05,458
-Luis, I swear--
-Ditching me wasn't enough?
700
01:09:05,541 --> 01:09:08,208
I've been trying to find you for days.
701
01:09:08,291 --> 01:09:09,583
Why didn't you face me?
702
01:09:09,666 --> 01:09:11,416
I know. I'm sorry, I am.
703
01:09:11,500 --> 01:09:12,500
Why?
704
01:09:13,958 --> 01:09:17,750
Luis, I'm thankful
you invited me on your show, but…
705
01:09:17,833 --> 01:09:19,291
But what, cabrón?
706
01:09:20,125 --> 01:09:22,833
I just couldn't do it.
707
01:09:23,750 --> 01:09:26,958
-My show isn't good enough for you?
-Don't do this to me. Please.
708
01:09:27,041 --> 01:09:29,375
You and I are friends.
709
01:09:29,458 --> 01:09:30,833
Exactly, cabrón.
710
01:09:30,916 --> 01:09:34,375
And when friends call, you pick up.
With friends, you shoot straight.
711
01:09:34,458 --> 01:09:35,666
Especially you.
712
01:09:35,750 --> 01:09:39,958
Mr. Truth, Mr. Critical Thinking.
713
01:09:40,458 --> 01:09:41,791
Give me a break.
714
01:09:43,791 --> 01:09:45,875
Come on, please.
715
01:09:55,541 --> 01:09:58,541
You've trashed my work publicly
thousands of times.
716
01:10:00,208 --> 01:10:01,041
Luis,
717
01:10:01,791 --> 01:10:03,458
why did you invite me?
718
01:10:03,541 --> 01:10:05,083
What do you mean, why?
719
01:10:05,166 --> 01:10:08,416
If you hate my work so much, why bother?
720
01:10:08,500 --> 01:10:10,625
I'm a journalist, not your fan or lackey.
721
01:10:10,708 --> 01:10:14,208
You're my friend and I think
that's what you've come to proclaim.
722
01:10:14,291 --> 01:10:18,333
But if you were, you'd say
the truth to my face, not publicly.
723
01:10:18,416 --> 01:10:19,916
-You want the truth?
-I do.
724
01:10:20,000 --> 01:10:22,208
You want to know
what I think of your documentary?
725
01:10:22,291 --> 01:10:24,000
Shoot. I can handle it.
726
01:10:24,083 --> 01:10:27,708
I think it's pretentious.
It's pointlessly oneiric.
727
01:10:27,791 --> 01:10:31,250
It's oneiric to cover up
for your mediocre writing.
728
01:10:31,333 --> 01:10:33,833
It's a mishmash of pointless scenes.
729
01:10:33,916 --> 01:10:37,625
Half the time I wanted to crack up,
the other half I was dying of boredom.
730
01:10:37,708 --> 01:10:40,458
It's supposed to be metaphorical,
731
01:10:40,541 --> 01:10:42,458
but it lacks poetic inspiration.
732
01:10:42,541 --> 01:10:47,375
It feels stolen. Plagiarized.
And you barely covered your tracks.
733
01:10:47,458 --> 01:10:50,375
What's so funny? It's banal, random.
734
01:10:50,458 --> 01:10:54,291
That shit with the soldiers
in blond wigs at Chapultepec Castle…
735
01:10:54,375 --> 01:10:56,083
Come on.
736
01:10:56,166 --> 01:10:59,791
First, the guy's on the train
with some axolotls,
737
01:10:59,875 --> 01:11:02,750
then, bang, he's in his apartment
in the middle of the desert.
738
01:11:02,833 --> 01:11:05,916
Just because. 'Cause that's how
it popped into your head.
739
01:11:06,000 --> 01:11:09,333
Why there and not, say,
the Estadio Azteca?
740
01:11:09,416 --> 01:11:12,541
-Why not?
-Because life isn't like that, man.
741
01:11:12,625 --> 01:11:15,583
There's chronology.
Order. Causes and consequences.
742
01:11:15,666 --> 01:11:19,041
It's a docufiction, Luis.
Humor's serious business.
743
01:11:19,125 --> 01:11:22,666
Unintentional humor because you broke
every rule of good journalism.
744
01:11:22,750 --> 01:11:27,916
Fuck objectivity,
neutrality, history, truth.
745
01:11:28,000 --> 01:11:30,125
You couldn't check your ego,
746
01:11:30,208 --> 01:11:33,833
you even put yourself
in the movie, cabrón.
747
01:11:34,583 --> 01:11:36,791
You used historical figures
to talk about yourself.
748
01:11:36,875 --> 01:11:39,333
Who the fuck do you think you are?
749
01:11:39,833 --> 01:11:41,791
Answer, cabrón!
750
01:11:41,875 --> 01:11:44,625
Gimme a smoke.
751
01:11:51,250 --> 01:11:55,500
If you want to talk about your life,
tell it straight.
752
01:11:55,583 --> 01:11:56,833
Write an autobiography.
753
01:11:56,916 --> 01:12:00,625
Screw that. Nothing could be more boring
or banal than my life.
754
01:12:00,708 --> 01:12:03,291
What the fuck were you trying to say?
755
01:12:05,958 --> 01:12:08,500
You talk about your private life
or the cosmos,
756
01:12:08,583 --> 01:12:10,541
your personal tragedies or politics.
757
01:12:10,625 --> 01:12:11,458
What was that?
758
01:12:11,541 --> 01:12:14,166
A memoir, a farce, or…
759
01:12:14,250 --> 01:12:17,750
I'm all those things
and none of them, Luis.
760
01:12:17,833 --> 01:12:20,625
Oh, you sound like an artiste.
761
01:12:20,708 --> 01:12:24,500
Maybe it's just a chronicle
of uncertainties. That suits me fine.
762
01:12:24,583 --> 01:12:28,458
You've got to be crazy. A chronicle
of uncertainties, cabrón? Fuck.
763
01:12:28,541 --> 01:12:31,541
Luis, I'm not interested
in talking about my life.
764
01:12:31,625 --> 01:12:35,833
Memory lacks truth,
all it has is emotional conviction.
765
01:12:35,916 --> 01:12:40,375
Anyway, I'm tired of saying
what I think and not what I feel.
766
01:12:40,458 --> 01:12:41,500
You're a journalist.
767
01:12:41,583 --> 01:12:44,500
You have to say what you think
and think what you say.
768
01:12:44,583 --> 01:12:46,541
At least you used to have solid ideas.
769
01:12:46,625 --> 01:12:53,208
What good are solid ideas in a world
that slips through our fingers?
770
01:12:55,083 --> 01:12:58,333
You're getting old, cabrón.
A clear case of a midlife crisis.
771
01:12:58,416 --> 01:13:02,083
Could be.
772
01:13:02,166 --> 01:13:04,375
At this age, life goes so fast
773
01:13:04,458 --> 01:13:07,750
it starts to feel like a convulsion.
774
01:13:09,583 --> 01:13:12,041
A tumult of images,
775
01:13:12,125 --> 01:13:17,833
memories, slivers all knotted together.
776
01:13:24,791 --> 01:13:27,708
How beautiful this ugly city is,
don't you think?
777
01:13:28,791 --> 01:13:31,791
For fuck's sake, cabrón.
778
01:13:32,958 --> 01:13:35,541
-Sorry to interrupt.
-No problem.
779
01:13:35,625 --> 01:13:37,750
Luis Valdivia!
Can we take a photo? Please?
780
01:13:37,833 --> 01:13:39,458
-Of course.
-Thank you.
781
01:13:39,541 --> 01:13:42,000
-In the middle, please.
-Yes.
782
01:13:42,083 --> 01:13:44,375
Perfect.
783
01:13:45,458 --> 01:13:46,791
One, two…
784
01:13:48,750 --> 01:13:50,500
-Excellent.
-Thanks so much.
785
01:13:50,583 --> 01:13:53,291
We're huge fans of your show.
786
01:13:53,375 --> 01:13:56,166
Thanks. Good night.
787
01:13:57,250 --> 01:13:59,083
Just don't forget, Silverio,
788
01:14:00,500 --> 01:14:04,041
where you come from
or who you were before you met me.
789
01:14:05,000 --> 01:14:06,625
What are you laughing at, dickhead?
790
01:14:09,000 --> 01:14:11,500
At your fucking certainties, cabrón.
791
01:14:11,583 --> 01:14:14,666
Categorical, like your journalism.
792
01:14:14,750 --> 01:14:18,250
Blinkered, like your acumen.
793
01:14:18,333 --> 01:14:21,875
As mediocre as your artistic aptitudes.
794
01:14:21,958 --> 01:14:24,666
I'm laughing at your short-sighted,
flag-waving nationalism.
795
01:14:24,750 --> 01:14:26,541
Your provincialism.
796
01:14:26,625 --> 01:14:28,541
How you bow down to an industry
797
01:14:28,625 --> 01:14:32,166
devoted to public humiliation
and online lynching.
798
01:14:32,250 --> 01:14:34,625
The clicks that tell us what to believe.
799
01:14:34,708 --> 01:14:37,500
The new gold mine for corporations.
800
01:14:37,583 --> 01:14:43,333
Luis, I am who I am because I got away
from you, from here, from TV.
801
01:14:43,416 --> 01:14:44,375
Look at you.
802
01:14:45,000 --> 01:14:46,333
Vulgar.
803
01:14:47,041 --> 01:14:50,375
Spiteful. And proud of it to boot.
804
01:14:51,708 --> 01:14:55,541
You're a fake.
Scrounging for likes on your socials.
805
01:14:55,625 --> 01:14:57,333
Strolling around with your goons.
806
01:14:57,416 --> 01:15:02,125
Rubbing elbows with the president,
pushing faddish ideologies and idiocies.
807
01:15:02,208 --> 01:15:06,208
You're the perfect image
of today's journalist, Luis.
808
01:15:06,291 --> 01:15:08,791
An entertainer, an opinion peddler.
809
01:15:09,583 --> 01:15:13,083
It's people like you
who've left us without truth.
810
01:15:13,583 --> 01:15:16,708
Beat it, go dance,
I'm tired of hearing you.
811
01:15:20,416 --> 01:15:22,791
That's my father's line,
and I forbid you to use it.
812
01:15:22,875 --> 01:15:24,666
Go, I'm sick of hearing your voice.
813
01:15:41,916 --> 01:15:44,291
I told you I'm sick of your voice.
814
01:15:59,625 --> 01:16:01,791
-Finally.
-How was it with Luis?
815
01:16:04,125 --> 01:16:05,250
Tell me.
816
01:16:09,541 --> 01:16:11,000
Marvelous.
817
01:16:11,083 --> 01:16:12,375
Seriously?
818
01:16:21,000 --> 01:16:22,500
Come on. Let's dance.
819
01:16:45,250 --> 01:16:47,375
-Let's have a mezcal.
-Let's dance instead.
820
01:16:47,458 --> 01:16:48,458
Please.
821
01:16:48,541 --> 01:16:50,541
-No, wait!
-Let's dance.
822
01:16:50,625 --> 01:16:51,541
I don't feel like it.
823
01:16:51,625 --> 01:16:55,333
There are 100 or more guys at this party
who'd kill for a dance with me.
824
01:17:00,041 --> 01:17:03,208
Oh, it seems the jungle's calling.
825
01:18:25,083 --> 01:18:27,041
Pa!
826
01:18:27,125 --> 01:18:28,625
You recognize this song?
827
01:18:28,708 --> 01:18:30,333
-Which one?
-This one.
828
01:21:09,625 --> 01:21:11,666
My apologies, everyone.
829
01:21:11,750 --> 01:21:14,000
The festivities will continue in a moment.
830
01:21:14,083 --> 01:21:17,208
Before we invite up our guest of honor,
831
01:21:17,291 --> 01:21:21,583
we'll hear a few words from our esteemed
832
01:21:21,666 --> 01:21:24,041
Secretary of the Interior,
833
01:21:24,125 --> 01:21:27,375
Mr. Siniestro Quiñones.
834
01:21:27,458 --> 01:21:29,333
Let's give him a round of applause.
835
01:21:32,125 --> 01:21:33,583
Thank you.
836
01:21:33,666 --> 01:21:36,666
Thank you so much.
837
01:21:37,500 --> 01:21:41,333
This celebration will close
with a major award.
838
01:21:41,416 --> 01:21:44,041
An award that fills us with pride,
that for the first time,
839
01:21:44,125 --> 01:21:47,541
will be given to a Mexican
840
01:21:47,625 --> 01:21:51,583
or Latin American journalist.
841
01:21:51,666 --> 01:21:54,125
Where is the guest of honor?
842
01:21:54,208 --> 01:21:57,916
Come up and say a few words.
843
01:21:58,000 --> 01:22:01,125
-Dad, where are you going?
-Where is he?
844
01:22:02,625 --> 01:22:04,958
He'll be here soon.
845
01:22:06,166 --> 01:22:07,958
It seems he's missing.
846
01:22:10,125 --> 01:22:12,250
Let's all shout his name!
847
01:22:13,916 --> 01:22:17,916
I've said my piece,
now it's Silverio's turn.
848
01:23:13,083 --> 01:23:14,750
What is this?
849
01:23:16,166 --> 01:23:17,916
Impossible.
850
01:23:19,625 --> 01:23:22,958
My little boy has turned so gray.
851
01:23:23,458 --> 01:23:27,125
-I'm nearly your age, Pa.
-You're an old man now.
852
01:23:28,791 --> 01:23:31,666
Age comes without warning.
853
01:23:31,750 --> 01:23:34,958
Then it turns into a full-time job.
854
01:23:35,583 --> 01:23:39,708
Walking, eating, using the bathroom…
everything's a problem.
855
01:23:40,625 --> 01:23:41,875
No one ever told me.
856
01:23:42,458 --> 01:23:45,166
Nobody ever warns you about it.
857
01:23:45,833 --> 01:23:47,916
I'm glad you came.
858
01:23:48,958 --> 01:23:51,708
How could I miss my boy's party?
859
01:23:52,833 --> 01:23:55,583
I'm sorry your mother couldn't be here.
860
01:23:56,125 --> 01:24:01,500
The thought that I'll never be
with her again is unbearable.
861
01:24:01,583 --> 01:24:05,708
But sometimes I visit her in her room
and I pull her by the legs.
862
01:24:15,291 --> 01:24:16,333
Son…
863
01:24:17,083 --> 01:24:20,916
I'm so sorry I never told you
864
01:24:21,000 --> 01:24:23,125
how proud I am of you.
865
01:24:23,916 --> 01:24:26,541
You did, though, Pa.
866
01:24:26,625 --> 01:24:29,250
In your way. Without saying it.
867
01:24:30,166 --> 01:24:32,291
I realized that eventually.
868
01:24:33,208 --> 01:24:34,583
You were a great father.
869
01:24:36,541 --> 01:24:38,958
I lost all I had.
870
01:24:39,041 --> 01:24:42,125
That's why I couldn't be more.
871
01:24:42,208 --> 01:24:44,916
A father and sometimes a husband.
872
01:24:45,541 --> 01:24:47,791
But I was always ashamed
873
01:24:47,875 --> 01:24:51,250
of what I could have been but wasn't.
874
01:24:52,375 --> 01:24:55,958
But you, you're a man of the world.
875
01:24:56,041 --> 01:24:57,958
You're very successful.
876
01:24:59,375 --> 01:25:01,625
And you were such a loser.
877
01:25:03,166 --> 01:25:06,333
I promise, your mother and I
never saw this coming.
878
01:25:06,416 --> 01:25:08,750
I know!
879
01:25:08,833 --> 01:25:10,541
Me neither!
880
01:25:12,416 --> 01:25:13,541
You know,
881
01:25:13,625 --> 01:25:15,916
sometimes I'm also ashamed of what I am
882
01:25:16,000 --> 01:25:18,000
and what I should have been.
883
01:25:22,083 --> 01:25:23,416
Are you okay?
884
01:25:24,375 --> 01:25:28,583
It sure would have helped me to know
how you felt about me back then.
885
01:25:28,666 --> 01:25:30,416
To hear it.
886
01:25:32,000 --> 01:25:34,625
To know you saw me.
887
01:25:36,375 --> 01:25:38,416
I did the best I could.
888
01:25:39,083 --> 01:25:41,916
We always do our best,
889
01:25:42,000 --> 01:25:43,875
but it's never enough.
890
01:25:45,416 --> 01:25:48,708
Success has been my biggest failure.
891
01:25:49,500 --> 01:25:51,416
I'd trade everything
892
01:25:51,500 --> 01:25:54,500
to give Camila and Lorenzo
what you gave us.
893
01:25:54,583 --> 01:25:58,833
Come on. Chin up. This is a party.
894
01:25:58,916 --> 01:26:04,250
Depression's a bourgeois illness,
fruit of too much leisure.
895
01:26:04,333 --> 01:26:07,291
We've got no time for sorrow.
896
01:26:13,708 --> 01:26:15,291
I see you every day.
897
01:26:15,875 --> 01:26:19,083
I feel you close to me,
because I let you go.
898
01:26:19,166 --> 01:26:22,708
I miss your big hands, your pure scent.
899
01:26:23,208 --> 01:26:27,500
I miss our talks.
You always brought out the best in me.
900
01:26:28,083 --> 01:26:30,041
I'm always here, son,
901
01:26:30,666 --> 01:26:32,958
whenever you need me.
902
01:26:36,458 --> 01:26:39,000
I still can't let Mateo go.
903
01:26:40,125 --> 01:26:42,750
You'll eventually learn how.
904
01:26:42,833 --> 01:26:46,750
Life is just a brief series
of senseless events.
905
01:26:46,833 --> 01:26:49,083
You must surrender to it.
906
01:26:49,166 --> 01:26:51,291
Clench your fists.
907
01:26:51,375 --> 01:26:52,916
Hold your head high.
908
01:26:53,625 --> 01:26:56,791
Let's drown our shame with a drink
909
01:26:56,875 --> 01:26:58,833
and toast to your success.
910
01:27:12,875 --> 01:27:14,666
-Cheers.
-Cheers.
911
01:27:30,666 --> 01:27:32,833
Remember what I always told you?
912
01:27:34,000 --> 01:27:37,458
-Take a swig of success.
-Take a swig of success.
913
01:27:37,541 --> 01:27:40,500
Swish it around, and spit it out.
914
01:27:40,583 --> 01:27:44,541
Otherwise, it'll poison you.
915
01:28:35,166 --> 01:28:36,750
Who's there?
916
01:28:37,625 --> 01:28:38,958
Hi, Ma.
917
01:28:40,500 --> 01:28:42,833
What a surprise.
918
01:28:44,125 --> 01:28:45,875
I didn't know you were coming.
919
01:28:45,958 --> 01:28:48,583
Yes, I called you yesterday,
we talked for a good while.
920
01:28:48,666 --> 01:28:50,416
I said I'd be here today.
921
01:28:52,291 --> 01:28:54,916
Did you talk to your brother and sisters?
922
01:28:55,000 --> 01:28:56,708
I saw them at the party.
923
01:28:56,791 --> 01:28:58,250
What party?
924
01:28:58,333 --> 01:29:02,375
The Mexican journalists
held a tribute for me.
925
01:29:02,458 --> 01:29:04,916
I was going to invite you but I thought…
926
01:29:06,958 --> 01:29:10,041
I thought you'd come with the kids.
927
01:29:11,875 --> 01:29:14,583
How are Camila and Mateo?
928
01:29:14,666 --> 01:29:17,708
Lorenzo. Camila and Lorenzo.
929
01:29:17,791 --> 01:29:19,375
Yes. What did I say?
930
01:29:19,458 --> 01:29:20,791
Mateo.
931
01:29:20,875 --> 01:29:22,541
Impossible.
932
01:29:22,625 --> 01:29:24,291
Your Mateo was born dead.
933
01:29:24,375 --> 01:29:26,500
He wasn't born dead, Mamá.
934
01:29:26,583 --> 01:29:29,416
He lived for a day, 30 hours.
935
01:29:30,166 --> 01:29:32,000
That's not living.
936
01:29:32,666 --> 01:29:35,416
Just like this isn't living.
937
01:29:37,708 --> 01:29:39,250
I should be dead.
938
01:29:39,333 --> 01:29:42,291
Mamá, you've been saying that
for ten years.
939
01:29:42,375 --> 01:29:45,000
Everyone's croaked and you're still here.
940
01:29:46,166 --> 01:29:49,166
-What'd you do yesterday?
-We went to the movies.
941
01:29:49,250 --> 01:29:51,958
With Aunt Elvira and her friends
from the nursing home?
942
01:29:52,041 --> 01:29:53,041
Yeah.
943
01:29:54,000 --> 01:29:54,916
And?
944
01:29:56,500 --> 01:29:58,291
A bunch of old people.
945
01:29:59,375 --> 01:30:00,750
Really boring.
946
01:30:00,833 --> 01:30:03,333
What did you expect?
947
01:30:04,500 --> 01:30:06,333
People like me.
948
01:30:06,916 --> 01:30:08,708
My age.
949
01:30:10,833 --> 01:30:13,083
Something weird happened.
950
01:30:13,166 --> 01:30:14,000
What?
951
01:30:15,166 --> 01:30:18,791
I went to the bathroom in the cinema…
952
01:30:19,500 --> 01:30:21,375
You won't believe it.
953
01:30:21,458 --> 01:30:23,375
My bed was in there.
954
01:30:23,458 --> 01:30:27,625
Someone had put my whole bedroom in there.
955
01:30:27,708 --> 01:30:31,416
-You must have dreamed that.
-No, son.
956
01:30:31,500 --> 01:30:35,375
Someone took my home to the cinema.
957
01:30:36,166 --> 01:30:37,375
There it is,
958
01:30:38,000 --> 01:30:39,166
outside.
959
01:30:40,916 --> 01:30:44,125
All I wanted was to see
the end of the movie.
960
01:30:44,208 --> 01:30:46,250
We're at your home, Ma.
961
01:30:46,333 --> 01:30:49,750
Look, come here. Let's look at the patio.
962
01:30:52,541 --> 01:30:54,833
See how the shrub blossomed?
963
01:30:55,750 --> 01:30:58,916
This is your patio, this is your house.
964
01:31:01,375 --> 01:31:03,291
How are things with Susana?
965
01:31:04,541 --> 01:31:06,291
Oh, son…
966
01:31:07,500 --> 01:31:09,166
this maid is robbing me.
967
01:31:09,250 --> 01:31:11,875
She's not a maid, she's your nurse.
968
01:31:13,458 --> 01:31:15,791
These people are all the same.
969
01:31:15,875 --> 01:31:20,041
Susana's educated, she's a professional.
Why do you look down on her?
970
01:31:20,125 --> 01:31:24,250
A few days ago, your papá
brought me some bracelets
971
01:31:24,333 --> 01:31:26,416
that belonged to your grandmother.
972
01:31:26,500 --> 01:31:28,083
And now I can't find them.
973
01:31:28,166 --> 01:31:29,916
Papá died eight years ago.
974
01:31:30,000 --> 01:31:32,666
No, he didn't.
975
01:31:32,750 --> 01:31:34,041
He died, Mamá.
976
01:31:37,041 --> 01:31:39,375
What are you saying?
977
01:31:40,750 --> 01:31:44,833
I saw your father at Christmas
at your brother's house.
978
01:31:44,916 --> 01:31:46,625
He wouldn't talk to me.
979
01:31:47,208 --> 01:31:50,916
He must have been angry,
or else he's with some other woman.
980
01:31:52,666 --> 01:31:54,583
He comes to see me now and then,
981
01:31:54,666 --> 01:31:57,666
when I'm sleeping on my stomach,
he grabs me by the legs.
982
01:31:57,750 --> 01:32:01,333
Then he lulls me with his song.
983
01:32:01,416 --> 01:32:02,250
What song?
984
01:32:09,875 --> 01:32:12,083
I don't remember.
985
01:32:12,916 --> 01:32:13,958
It's that…
986
01:32:15,750 --> 01:32:19,333
the first time I made love with your dad,
987
01:32:19,416 --> 01:32:21,791
we listened to that song.
988
01:32:22,916 --> 01:32:24,666
And then
989
01:32:25,500 --> 01:32:29,333
he'd whistle it to you
when you were in my belly.
990
01:32:30,250 --> 01:32:31,916
And when you were little,
991
01:32:32,791 --> 01:32:36,291
and you'd scream and throw tantrums,
992
01:32:36,375 --> 01:32:38,291
he'd whistle that song to you
993
01:32:39,000 --> 01:32:40,958
and you'd calm down.
994
01:32:41,041 --> 01:32:43,500
Really? I don't remember.
995
01:32:43,583 --> 01:32:45,958
I don't remember anything
from my childhood.
996
01:32:46,041 --> 01:32:47,458
Who sang it?
997
01:32:47,541 --> 01:32:51,500
Agustín Lara or…
998
01:32:51,583 --> 01:32:53,750
Pérez Prado…
999
01:32:53,833 --> 01:32:55,166
Doesn't ring a bell.
1000
01:32:55,875 --> 01:33:01,458
Talk with your mouth, son,
you're driving me crazy.
1001
01:33:02,083 --> 01:33:03,416
Sorry.
1002
01:33:03,500 --> 01:33:06,625
But try and remember the song, Ma.
1003
01:33:07,208 --> 01:33:09,208
Who sang it?
1004
01:33:09,291 --> 01:33:12,416
The selfish man took it with him.
1005
01:35:02,625 --> 01:35:03,750
Excuse me.
1006
01:36:36,583 --> 01:36:40,125
Good afternoon, señor. What'll you have?
We've got tripe, campechano…
1007
01:36:40,208 --> 01:36:44,041
Give me two beef tongue, please.
1008
01:36:44,125 --> 01:36:47,041
Coming right up. With everything?
1009
01:36:47,125 --> 01:36:48,291
Yeah, everything.
1010
01:37:02,833 --> 01:37:04,666
-Are you okay?
-Yes.
1011
01:37:06,208 --> 01:37:08,041
-Do you need help?
-No.
1012
01:37:09,375 --> 01:37:11,250
-Let me…
-Don't touch me!
1013
01:37:11,833 --> 01:37:13,458
What's up with her?
1014
01:37:13,541 --> 01:37:15,333
-I don't know.
-Is she dead?
1015
01:37:15,833 --> 01:37:17,500
I'm not dead.
1016
01:37:17,583 --> 01:37:18,583
I'm missing.
1017
01:37:19,791 --> 01:37:21,708
But you are right here, señora.
1018
01:37:21,791 --> 01:37:23,250
Leave her. They do this all the time.
1019
01:37:23,333 --> 01:37:25,666
They go missing
yet they keep pestering everyone.
1020
01:37:25,750 --> 01:37:27,458
They neither return nor die.
1021
01:37:29,833 --> 01:37:32,458
What's going on, señora? Tell me.
1022
01:37:32,541 --> 01:37:34,166
I can't.
1023
01:37:34,250 --> 01:37:38,000
They stay by not staying.
All they do is complain, buddy.
1024
01:37:43,666 --> 01:37:46,000
Please, tell me what's wrong.
1025
01:37:46,083 --> 01:37:49,416
Trust me, it's best not to know.
1026
01:40:39,333 --> 01:40:41,166
Martín!
1027
01:40:52,416 --> 01:40:54,708
Police!
1028
01:44:35,291 --> 01:44:38,208
Ideas ate the deities!
1029
01:44:48,416 --> 01:44:50,500
The deities became ideas!
1030
01:45:03,041 --> 01:45:05,416
Great bladders full of bile!
1031
01:45:14,333 --> 01:45:16,708
The bladders burst!
1032
01:45:27,583 --> 01:45:29,625
The idols exploded!
1033
01:45:36,375 --> 01:45:38,416
Putrefaction of deities!
1034
01:45:46,583 --> 01:45:49,041
Swarm of flies!
1035
01:45:53,958 --> 01:45:56,041
The sanctuary was a dungheap!
1036
01:45:58,750 --> 01:46:01,166
The dungheap a nursery!
1037
01:46:03,791 --> 01:46:05,208
Armed ideas sprouted,
1038
01:46:05,291 --> 01:46:08,875
idealized ideodeities,
sharpened syllogisms!
1039
01:46:10,208 --> 01:46:12,166
Cannibal deities.
1040
01:46:14,875 --> 01:46:17,000
Ideas idiotic as deities.
1041
01:46:19,125 --> 01:46:22,291
Rabid dogs.
Dogs in love with their own vomit.
1042
01:46:29,708 --> 01:46:31,875
We have dug up rage.
1043
01:46:31,958 --> 01:46:36,291
The amphitheater of the genital sun
is a dungheap.
1044
01:46:36,375 --> 01:46:39,000
A dead country where none of us die.
1045
01:46:40,666 --> 01:46:45,166
Who do you think you are,
stealing Octavio Paz's ideas?
1046
01:46:45,250 --> 01:46:48,833
His words exist
because I existed, Don Silverio.
1047
01:46:48,916 --> 01:46:50,458
Don't make me laugh, Cortés.
1048
01:46:50,541 --> 01:46:52,250
You were just a thug,
1049
01:46:52,333 --> 01:46:55,750
a jackal with a machete,
slicing blindly through the jungle.
1050
01:46:55,833 --> 01:46:59,083
-There's not a single book in your body.
-You don't know me.
1051
01:46:59,166 --> 01:47:00,708
No one knows me.
1052
01:47:02,125 --> 01:47:05,083
If your sense of shame
was proportional to the disaster
1053
01:47:05,166 --> 01:47:08,250
your conquest wrought,
maybe you'd be a bit humbler.
1054
01:47:10,375 --> 01:47:11,708
Got a light?
1055
01:47:25,500 --> 01:47:27,250
I know what you're thinking.
1056
01:47:27,333 --> 01:47:31,083
Five hundred years people have blamed me
without understanding shit.
1057
01:47:31,166 --> 01:47:34,083
-Don't you realize where you're sitting?
-Don't you? Look around.
1058
01:47:34,166 --> 01:47:37,375
The most beautiful city I ever saw,
inhabited by 300,000 Indians.
1059
01:47:37,458 --> 01:47:39,208
-They weren't Indians.
-Fine, Americans.
1060
01:47:39,291 --> 01:47:40,250
-Still wrong.
-Whatever.
1061
01:47:40,333 --> 01:47:43,333
How could 400 Spaniards
with 16 horsemen and a little gunpowder
1062
01:47:43,416 --> 01:47:45,791
trample an empire like that?
1063
01:47:45,875 --> 01:47:47,916
-Those Indians were…
-They weren't Indians!
1064
01:47:48,000 --> 01:47:51,208
Cannibals, whatever.
They ate each other like savages.
1065
01:47:51,291 --> 01:47:53,041
They all hated each other.
1066
01:47:53,125 --> 01:47:55,833
And they all hated the Tlatoani.
1067
01:47:56,916 --> 01:47:59,833
In that corner right there,
I met Moctezuma.
1068
01:48:00,541 --> 01:48:01,541
-Good dude.
-No.
1069
01:48:02,500 --> 01:48:05,375
That corner right there
1070
01:48:05,458 --> 01:48:07,750
is where we discovered Europe.
1071
01:48:07,833 --> 01:48:10,166
We were just trying to help you.
1072
01:48:10,250 --> 01:48:12,125
We gave you our God and our language.
1073
01:48:12,208 --> 01:48:15,750
And smallpox and measles
and the fear of Hell.
1074
01:48:16,833 --> 01:48:18,583
And gonorrhea.
1075
01:48:18,666 --> 01:48:21,416
And your army
and the oligarchy and your church
1076
01:48:21,500 --> 01:48:26,083
and 300 years of
the ugliest fucking viceroys imaginable.
1077
01:48:26,166 --> 01:48:28,958
Look at Centéotl.
1078
01:48:29,041 --> 01:48:31,583
You buried our gods
and brought us a new one,
1079
01:48:31,666 --> 01:48:34,875
still bloody, tortured, and crucified.
1080
01:48:34,958 --> 01:48:36,916
Don't be a moron, Cortés,
1081
01:48:37,000 --> 01:48:39,250
you were nothing more
than a useful foreigner.
1082
01:48:39,333 --> 01:48:43,833
It's easy to win a war when the enemy,
our people, betrays and attacks itself.
1083
01:48:43,916 --> 01:48:46,250
I never wanted war.
1084
01:48:46,333 --> 01:48:49,041
I fell in love with this land
and its people.
1085
01:48:50,083 --> 01:48:52,375
Pretty words from the mouth of a murderer.
1086
01:48:52,458 --> 01:48:53,500
Murderer?
1087
01:48:54,750 --> 01:48:58,708
I laid the foundations for a new world.
My children were the first Mexicans.
1088
01:48:58,791 --> 01:49:00,916
Therefore, I am your father,
like it or not.
1089
01:49:01,000 --> 01:49:03,875
I lived a Mexican,
and I died more Mexican than anyone.
1090
01:49:03,958 --> 01:49:07,833
I'm sorry to say, people hate you
in Mexico as much as they do in Spain.
1091
01:49:07,916 --> 01:49:10,208
There's not a single statue of you.
1092
01:49:11,291 --> 01:49:14,541
Sometimes we think
we're from several places,
1093
01:49:14,625 --> 01:49:17,083
when in fact we're from nowhere.
1094
01:49:18,625 --> 01:49:21,125
Maybe hatred is every great man's fate.
1095
01:49:22,375 --> 01:49:24,625
And quit with
the childish tantrums, Silverio.
1096
01:49:24,708 --> 01:49:26,041
Why are you so mad?
1097
01:49:26,125 --> 01:49:28,416
It's not like you're an Indian,
mulatto, mongrel.
1098
01:49:28,500 --> 01:49:32,000
Look at yourself, you're more Creole
and Mestizo than my own children.
1099
01:49:32,750 --> 01:49:36,625
You don't want to be Indians.
Or Spaniards.
1100
01:49:37,375 --> 01:49:40,791
You've willfully condemned
yourselves to bastardy,
1101
01:49:40,875 --> 01:49:43,333
to coexist in limbo.
1102
01:49:43,416 --> 01:49:44,833
For fuck's sake!
1103
01:49:44,916 --> 01:49:47,125
Turn that shit off, you're gonna blind me!
1104
01:49:47,208 --> 01:49:49,958
-What is it?
-He burned me with that fucking cigarette!
1105
01:49:50,041 --> 01:49:51,375
Don't move.
1106
01:49:51,458 --> 01:49:53,250
Don't move.
1107
01:49:53,333 --> 01:49:57,291
Stop moving! Stay still!
We're doing another take!
1108
01:49:57,375 --> 01:49:59,250
Cut! Martín!
1109
01:49:59,333 --> 01:50:01,791
Martín, don't let anyone move,
for Christ's sake!
1110
01:50:01,875 --> 01:50:02,958
What's up, cabrón?
1111
01:50:03,041 --> 01:50:05,166
-Five minutes!
-Wait!
1112
01:50:05,250 --> 01:50:06,625
Dead and missing people to your positions!
1113
01:50:06,708 --> 01:50:10,750
Martín, we're doing another take.
Everyone stay still! Goddammit!
1114
01:50:10,833 --> 01:50:17,166
I'm good. Nah,
I'm here shooting with a cocky director.
1115
01:50:17,250 --> 01:50:20,666
One of those movies about Hernán Cortés,
or some bullshit.
1116
01:50:22,583 --> 01:50:25,041
Sube, Pelayo, sube!
1117
01:51:27,000 --> 01:51:29,458
Nice fucking house, man.
1118
01:51:29,541 --> 01:51:32,166
How much did
Pablo Galindo ask you for rent?
1119
01:51:32,250 --> 01:51:34,208
He just lent it to me
for a couple of days.
1120
01:51:34,291 --> 01:51:37,583
Rich people don't do anything for free.
1121
01:51:37,666 --> 01:51:39,458
That's why they're rich.
1122
01:51:39,541 --> 01:51:41,625
This is gorgeous.
1123
01:51:41,708 --> 01:51:43,958
He will charge for this
one way or another.
1124
01:51:44,041 --> 01:51:47,083
Hortensia and I are going
to the club to get our beach stuff.
1125
01:51:47,166 --> 01:51:51,541
-On my way. Get Lorenzo to help.
-Lorenzo is taking a nap.
1126
01:51:51,625 --> 01:51:54,625
No. There'll be time to nap later.
1127
01:51:54,708 --> 01:51:57,833
Life's rich with rich friends, brother.
1128
01:51:57,916 --> 01:52:01,125
I'm going to the beach
before you start breaking my balls.
1129
01:52:01,208 --> 01:52:04,458
Don't steal the flatware, cabrones!
1130
01:52:04,541 --> 01:52:08,000
-Only the real silver!
-Or some nice wine!
1131
01:52:33,166 --> 01:52:35,416
Good morning, señor, go on ahead.
1132
01:52:44,458 --> 01:52:45,750
Pa, come here!
1133
01:52:53,500 --> 01:52:55,875
-What's up?
-This man won't let Hortensia in.
1134
01:52:55,958 --> 01:52:57,625
Why? Is there a problem?
1135
01:52:57,708 --> 01:52:59,583
-Servants can't enter…
-She's family.
1136
01:52:59,666 --> 01:53:03,541
-Those are the rules of the place.
-You can't make an exception?
1137
01:53:03,625 --> 01:53:05,125
We're guests of Mr. Pablo Galindo.
1138
01:53:05,208 --> 01:53:08,125
-We're staying at his home, and--
-Sorry, señor.
1139
01:53:08,208 --> 01:53:10,833
But all the owners agreed to the rule.
1140
01:53:10,916 --> 01:53:13,083
Servants can't use the facilities.
1141
01:53:13,166 --> 01:53:15,541
Not even to walk the beach?
1142
01:53:15,625 --> 01:53:17,208
I'm sorry, señorita.
1143
01:53:17,291 --> 01:53:18,833
Who's your superior?
1144
01:53:18,916 --> 01:53:19,958
He's off today.
1145
01:53:22,333 --> 01:53:25,250
-Hortensia, go home and--
-No! If Hortensia can't go, no one will.
1146
01:53:25,333 --> 01:53:28,250
-Those are the rules of the place.
-You have to do something.
1147
01:53:28,333 --> 01:53:31,083
-At least call--
-Those are the rules of the place!
1148
01:53:31,166 --> 01:53:33,958
-I'll call Pablo, and--
-Why bother, señor?
1149
01:53:34,916 --> 01:53:37,916
It's those rich people who make the rules.
1150
01:53:38,000 --> 01:53:42,458
Let's get out of here.
Stick your beach up your ass then!
1151
01:54:05,083 --> 01:54:06,916
-It's official.
-What?
1152
01:54:07,000 --> 01:54:11,208
Amazon just bought Baja California.
This beach belongs to the gringos.
1153
01:54:11,291 --> 01:54:13,666
Amazing!
1154
01:54:15,208 --> 01:54:17,291
Let them buy all of Mexico.
1155
01:54:17,375 --> 01:54:19,000
We'll be better off.
1156
01:54:19,083 --> 01:54:22,916
I had no idea that people
in my own family were so unpatriotic.
1157
01:54:23,000 --> 01:54:25,250
Imagine what it would be like…
1158
01:54:47,583 --> 01:54:50,166
-What?
-You seem famished.
1159
01:54:51,250 --> 01:54:53,583
The fruit tastes like fruit here.
1160
01:54:53,666 --> 01:54:54,958
How are you?
1161
01:54:55,041 --> 01:54:56,125
Fine.
1162
01:54:56,208 --> 01:54:58,958
Mamá wants to go to the beach,
she says it's a way off.
1163
01:54:59,041 --> 01:55:02,083
-She wants to get there before sundown.
-We'll leave soon.
1164
01:55:02,166 --> 01:55:04,333
But tell me, how are things?
1165
01:55:05,041 --> 01:55:07,291
-What things?
-How's everything in Boston?
1166
01:55:07,375 --> 01:55:08,750
You still with Mark?
1167
01:55:08,833 --> 01:55:09,750
Yeah.
1168
01:55:11,750 --> 01:55:13,208
You don't sound convinced.
1169
01:55:13,291 --> 01:55:16,500
It's not that.
1170
01:55:16,583 --> 01:55:18,458
Everything's fine with Mark.
1171
01:55:18,541 --> 01:55:21,750
Not everything, I mean, it never is, but…
1172
01:55:22,541 --> 01:55:25,583
I wasn't even thinking about him
till you said his name.
1173
01:55:25,666 --> 01:55:27,583
Well then?
1174
01:55:31,250 --> 01:55:32,458
I don't know.
1175
01:55:33,541 --> 01:55:35,416
It's weird being here.
1176
01:55:35,500 --> 01:55:37,583
Where? On the beach?
1177
01:55:40,083 --> 01:55:41,416
In Mexico.
1178
01:55:42,041 --> 01:55:43,875
I don't get it.
1179
01:55:43,958 --> 01:55:45,000
You do.
1180
01:55:45,083 --> 01:55:48,833
Why? Your cousins are here,
your aunts and uncles…
1181
01:55:48,916 --> 01:55:51,125
-Exactly.
-Exactly what?
1182
01:55:54,708 --> 01:55:56,458
It's everything that never was.
1183
01:55:56,541 --> 01:55:58,791
And seeing them reminds me of that.
1184
01:56:01,500 --> 01:56:03,083
Everything that wasn't.
1185
01:56:03,166 --> 01:56:04,083
Yeah.
1186
01:56:04,166 --> 01:56:05,625
Including Mateo.
1187
01:56:07,041 --> 01:56:11,500
Mateo's not the only one in Bardo, Pa.
Sometimes I feel like we're all with him.
1188
01:56:11,583 --> 01:56:16,333
Camila, your family will always be here,
your home's here, your grandparents…
1189
01:56:16,416 --> 01:56:19,208
Dad, stop, I am fine. I am just sad!
1190
01:56:19,291 --> 01:56:22,333
And that's okay,
feeling sad is good for you sometimes.
1191
01:56:22,416 --> 01:56:25,041
But you always want to fix things,
explain them away.
1192
01:56:25,125 --> 01:56:27,958
Some things just are what they are.
1193
01:56:43,166 --> 01:56:45,875
My lease is up next month.
1194
01:56:47,208 --> 01:56:50,583
-I was thinking of coming back to Mexico.
-Why?
1195
01:56:51,333 --> 01:56:52,375
To live here.
1196
01:56:53,083 --> 01:56:54,833
What about your job in Boston?
1197
01:56:56,416 --> 01:56:59,083
The job's fine,
but I can't grow there anymore.
1198
01:56:59,166 --> 01:57:03,666
I am tired of eating a salad
on a plastic tray alone at my desk.
1199
01:57:03,750 --> 01:57:05,458
What will you do in Mexico?
1200
01:57:06,083 --> 01:57:07,291
I don't know.
1201
01:57:08,541 --> 01:57:12,041
I like the idea but you'll have
to get used to being way more careful.
1202
01:57:12,125 --> 01:57:15,750
All my friends live here
and nothing's happened to them.
1203
01:57:15,833 --> 01:57:20,333
Because they live in a gated community
with guards all around
1204
01:57:20,416 --> 01:57:22,083
and drivers take them everywhere.
1205
01:57:22,166 --> 01:57:24,291
Are you up for that? I'm not.
1206
01:57:24,375 --> 01:57:28,125
At least they don't live
in a pasteurized reality like us.
1207
01:57:28,208 --> 01:57:32,000
A pasteurized reality
where you can walk around at night
1208
01:57:32,083 --> 01:57:35,416
or take public transportation.
1209
01:57:35,500 --> 01:57:37,500
You've never used public transportation.
1210
01:57:37,583 --> 01:57:39,916
-I use it.
-Come on.
1211
01:57:40,000 --> 01:57:43,125
Where's the Santa Monica train stop?
1212
01:57:43,208 --> 01:57:45,250
Between Ocean and Venice.
1213
01:57:46,416 --> 01:57:48,750
How much is a ticket?
1214
01:57:48,833 --> 01:57:51,750
-I don't know.
-Of course you don't.
1215
01:57:53,791 --> 01:57:55,541
We're grown-ups, Pa.
1216
01:57:56,333 --> 01:57:58,875
We're free to choose where to live.
1217
01:57:59,458 --> 01:58:00,875
Okay?
1218
01:58:00,958 --> 01:58:04,750
Camila, you know I'm here for anything.
1219
01:58:04,833 --> 01:58:07,500
But you can't ask me
not to want the best for you.
1220
01:58:07,583 --> 01:58:08,666
Get a move on.
1221
01:58:08,750 --> 01:58:10,333
It's getting late.
1222
01:58:11,541 --> 01:58:17,166
Sometimes what's best for you
isn't what's best for us.
1223
01:58:18,083 --> 01:58:20,750
Let's go before Mamá chews us out.
1224
02:02:38,500 --> 02:02:39,791
How's that going?
1225
02:02:40,583 --> 02:02:43,250
It's going.
1226
02:02:45,041 --> 02:02:49,375
Hey, tell me if you want to invite
Jon and Stephen, okay?
1227
02:02:50,458 --> 02:02:51,458
Pa…
1228
02:02:52,208 --> 02:02:53,291
Remember Paco?
1229
02:02:53,375 --> 02:02:54,375
Who?
1230
02:02:54,458 --> 02:02:56,291
Paco, Guido, and Ernesto.
1231
02:02:56,791 --> 02:03:00,125
-My axolotls. When we lived in Mexico.
-Yeah, sure.
1232
02:04:17,125 --> 02:04:18,250
What is it?
1233
02:04:19,208 --> 02:04:22,041
I never knew any of that.
Why didn't you tell me?
1234
02:04:23,291 --> 02:04:24,375
I think you were gone.
1235
02:04:25,708 --> 02:04:28,416
You were in Morocco doing something.
1236
02:04:30,416 --> 02:04:33,208
Or maybe you were home, I don't know.
1237
02:04:33,791 --> 02:04:35,041
Doesn't matter.
1238
02:05:46,375 --> 02:05:50,583
If you look me in the face,
you might recognize me.
1239
02:05:51,541 --> 02:05:53,083
That's enough, Pa.
1240
02:05:55,166 --> 02:05:56,250
Papá, drop it!
1241
02:07:07,791 --> 02:07:09,500
The bastard should apologize.
1242
02:07:21,000 --> 02:07:23,291
What happened? Pa, drop it.
1243
02:07:27,708 --> 02:07:30,250
-Those are the rules of the place.
-What rules?
1244
02:07:38,875 --> 02:07:42,166
What the fuck are you,
Mexican, Chinese, fucking Swedish?
1245
02:07:46,708 --> 02:07:48,291
I won't calm down, damn it!
1246
02:07:58,125 --> 02:08:02,000
You speak Spanish, right?
You look more Mexican than I do.
1247
02:08:03,000 --> 02:08:05,750
Are you afraid
they will realize you're Mexican?
1248
02:08:09,416 --> 02:08:11,083
They even stole our fucking name.
1249
02:08:53,166 --> 02:08:55,291
Lorenzo, move your suitcase!
1250
02:08:55,375 --> 02:08:57,541
Okay, I'll do it.
1251
02:09:12,916 --> 02:09:15,458
I'm gonna take a walk.
I still have a headache.
1252
02:09:15,541 --> 02:09:17,041
Come here, lie down for a bit.
1253
02:09:17,125 --> 02:09:20,083
See if you can change
the old walrus face you have on.
1254
02:09:20,166 --> 02:09:23,833
You can't go to the awards ceremony
looking like that.
1255
02:11:53,708 --> 02:11:55,958
No, leave them alone.
1256
02:11:57,666 --> 02:11:59,625
Leave me alone, Grandma.
1257
02:13:46,000 --> 02:13:47,458
Shit.
1258
02:14:08,291 --> 02:14:10,125
Are you okay, señor?
1259
02:14:13,416 --> 02:14:14,833
Do you need help?
1260
02:14:18,791 --> 02:14:20,083
I don't understand you.
1261
02:14:31,375 --> 02:14:32,583
I don't understand you.
1262
02:17:07,416 --> 02:17:08,791
Is it normal?
1263
02:17:08,875 --> 02:17:12,000
-What?
-That sound. Is it normal?
1264
02:17:12,083 --> 02:17:13,416
Yes, it's normal.
1265
02:17:13,500 --> 02:17:15,333
The sheets are soaked.
1266
02:17:15,416 --> 02:17:17,833
He's wet.
1267
02:17:17,916 --> 02:17:21,166
Maybe the bag was full.
I think they forgot to change it.
1268
02:17:21,250 --> 02:17:22,791
I'll call the nurse.
1269
02:17:22,875 --> 02:17:25,333
Do you see any improvement, doctor?
1270
02:17:26,208 --> 02:17:29,000
No. All we can do is wait.
1271
02:17:29,083 --> 02:17:31,166
There's a major hemorrhage in one lobe.
1272
02:17:31,250 --> 02:17:34,041
-This could take a long time.
-How long?
1273
02:17:35,416 --> 02:17:36,625
I don't know.
1274
02:17:37,291 --> 02:17:40,166
Do you think he's here with us?
1275
02:17:40,666 --> 02:17:42,291
Can he hear us?
1276
02:17:43,375 --> 02:17:47,708
Sure he's here.
But at the same time, he's not.
1277
02:17:47,791 --> 02:17:51,708
A coma is basically a mystery, Camila.
1278
02:17:51,791 --> 02:17:54,208
What's he doing with his eyes?
1279
02:17:54,291 --> 02:17:55,583
It's a reflex.
1280
02:17:56,500 --> 02:18:00,000
It feels like he's squeezing
when I take his hand.
1281
02:18:00,083 --> 02:18:02,000
Yesterday we put on some music
1282
02:18:02,083 --> 02:18:04,500
and some recordings
from when we were kids,
1283
02:18:05,083 --> 02:18:06,708
and he cried a little.
1284
02:18:09,375 --> 02:18:10,500
Can you hear me?
1285
02:18:14,541 --> 02:18:16,083
Where are you?
1286
02:18:17,541 --> 02:18:19,208
I feel you can hear me.
1287
02:18:30,791 --> 02:18:33,208
No one lifted a finger to help him.
1288
02:18:33,291 --> 02:18:36,208
At the train's last stop,
he was the last passenger.
1289
02:18:36,291 --> 02:18:38,333
A cleaning woman found him.
1290
02:18:38,416 --> 02:18:39,583
A compatriot of ours,
1291
02:18:39,666 --> 02:18:41,500
Doña Refugio Domínguez.
1292
02:18:41,583 --> 02:18:43,208
Hello, Refugio.
1293
02:18:43,291 --> 02:18:45,666
-Hi.
-We managed to catch up with her today.
1294
02:18:45,750 --> 02:18:48,208
We'll have the pleasure
of speaking with her.
1295
02:18:48,291 --> 02:18:50,541
Thanks for joining us.
Tell us what happened.
1296
02:18:50,625 --> 02:18:55,041
I went in to clean the train car,
as usual, and saw it wasn't empty.
1297
02:18:55,125 --> 02:18:59,625
I thought at first the guy might be
a drunk because that's common here.
1298
02:18:59,708 --> 02:19:02,083
But then I saw the fish on the floor.
1299
02:19:24,541 --> 02:19:26,083
How are you feeling?
1300
02:19:28,583 --> 02:19:30,083
You seem tired.
1301
02:19:30,958 --> 02:19:32,041
Peaceful.
1302
02:19:34,500 --> 02:19:35,416
Tranquil.
1303
02:19:36,041 --> 02:19:39,500
What the fuck was my dad doing
on the Santa Monica train?
1304
02:19:39,583 --> 02:19:42,166
He wanted to feel more Mexican.
1305
02:19:42,250 --> 02:19:45,208
But with all those Mexicans around,
1306
02:19:45,291 --> 02:19:46,875
his head exploded.
1307
02:19:49,166 --> 02:19:50,833
You're such an asshole.
1308
02:19:51,500 --> 02:19:54,541
Something weird happened a few days ago
in our bedroom in Los Angeles.
1309
02:19:54,625 --> 02:19:58,333
I was sleeping on my belly
1310
02:19:58,416 --> 02:20:01,416
and something grabbed my feet
and started pulling.
1311
02:20:01,500 --> 02:20:05,833
It jerked me upward,
there was nothing I could do.
1312
02:20:06,750 --> 02:20:08,958
The dream was so real,
1313
02:20:09,041 --> 02:20:13,458
and I'm sure it came to me
right when Silverio had his stroke.
1314
02:20:18,416 --> 02:20:21,000
Thanks for bringing him to Mexico.
1315
02:24:01,875 --> 02:24:04,083
Hey, Papá!
1316
02:24:06,416 --> 02:24:10,000
Hey, Pa! What's the name of that song?
1317
02:24:10,500 --> 02:24:13,916
I don't remember the name, but I love it.
1318
02:24:14,000 --> 02:24:16,333
You always do the same thing.
1319
02:24:16,416 --> 02:24:19,000
First you take something away,
and then you don't remember.
1320
02:24:19,083 --> 02:24:21,916
But Ma, you always danced
to that song with Papá.
1321
02:24:22,000 --> 02:24:25,125
Son, your father was a drag,
he never liked dancing
1322
02:24:25,208 --> 02:24:27,708
and it's my favorite thing in the world.
1323
02:24:30,458 --> 02:24:34,291
I was comfortable at home watching TV
1324
02:24:34,375 --> 02:24:36,708
and look at where you've taken me.
1325
02:24:36,791 --> 02:24:39,708
All I wanted was to see
the end of the movie.
1326
02:24:39,791 --> 02:24:44,125
Okay, Ma, but can someone tell me
the name of that song?
1327
02:24:44,208 --> 02:24:45,833
What are you talking about?
1328
02:24:45,916 --> 02:24:48,500
Brother, do you remember
the name of that song
1329
02:24:48,583 --> 02:24:50,458
Papá whistled to us when we were kids?
1330
02:24:50,541 --> 02:24:52,291
Where did you bring us, brother?
1331
02:24:52,375 --> 02:24:54,583
He never even whistled me a ranchera song.
1332
02:24:54,666 --> 02:24:58,333
Don't leave again, darky. Come back.
1333
02:24:58,416 --> 02:25:02,583
You're leaving without putting me
in one of your movies.
1334
02:25:02,666 --> 02:25:05,041
Not even as one of those extras.
1335
02:25:06,708 --> 02:25:08,083
Keep going!
1336
02:25:21,458 --> 02:25:23,541
-Where are you coming from?
-From the North!
1337
02:25:23,625 --> 02:25:28,083
From Hell, but they don't even know
they're living in Hell there.
1338
02:25:28,166 --> 02:25:30,375
-Where are you taking him?
-To the South.
1339
02:25:30,458 --> 02:25:35,041
We'll use this piece to resuscitate him.
He will rebuild himself completely.
1340
02:25:35,125 --> 02:25:37,083
Let the whole world look to the south!
1341
02:25:37,166 --> 02:25:39,833
How do you know it's in that direction?
1342
02:27:03,458 --> 02:27:04,291
Pa!
1343
02:27:08,958 --> 02:27:09,958
Lorenzo!
1344
02:27:10,458 --> 02:27:13,500
You need to go the other way!
1345
02:27:14,458 --> 02:27:16,000
No, Pa!
1346
02:27:16,083 --> 02:27:17,708
We're going with you!
1347
02:27:17,791 --> 02:27:21,583
Turn around! There's nothing here for you!
1348
02:27:21,666 --> 02:27:22,708
And you?
1349
02:27:24,125 --> 02:27:25,666
I'll see you when I get back!
1350
02:27:26,625 --> 02:27:28,375
When might that be?
1351
02:27:31,750 --> 02:27:33,166
When?